littlefaithholdingstrong

Road To Safari

2006-05-01T20:33:00.000-07:00

Happy Labour day to all fellow labourers out there, and of course those who are not labourers (such as students and those who are not working but still gets the day off etc.) haha just kidding! It wasn't much of a public holiday for me, still went to work as usual this morning cos they needed my help I guess? I'm fine with it, since the pay rate for working on public holiday is doubled, that I'm cool! :D

I had so much trouble dragging myself out of bed this morning. Guess it was the lack of sleep during the weekend and coming back late yesterday night after the Night Safari trip with our church people, I was super exhausted and just needed more sleep! Work was alright, very much more slack because there's no complimentary breakfast during public holidays so most of the guests would prefer to just sleep in and not come down for not-free breakfast. So I spent half the time yawning away, (I get super tired when I don't have anything much to do.) and the other half trying NOT to yawn by finding some things to do.

Oh and I went to work at 7am today, but guess what? When I reached the workplace and when I was signing in, I looked at the time that I was supposed to be at work and it printed; 9.00am - 2pm and I was like...... at that time I was just thinking of how much more sleep I could have got! The manager told me to come in at 7am on fri but it seemed that what she told me and what she typed doesn't seem to coincide. Oh wells. And I was scheduled to work for 5 hours but I worked bout 6 hours and 45 minutes, so hopefully they will pay me accordingly! Hah.

Yesterday's outing was so tiring and quite hot too, but still thank God for holding the weather so that we can like have fun at Kentridge Park and before that was the car ralley, some treasure hunt or something like that. So we were divided into 8 teams, about 5 cars per team and we were given like 2 destinations and 5 questions per destination. Those on my car were Wailing, Jessica Chen, Grace Lee and Amy (a friend that just joined our church last week) and myself, the driver. So we were assigned to head to NUS to go find some answers for the questions and it was quite easy as Wailing studied there many many years ago. So she was just giving me directions and with the help of the map, we managed to complete the questions in less than half an hour.

Then we headed straight over to Kentridge Park after that, which is just behind NUH. Oh the road leading to Kentridge was really cool. It was full of bends. So fun to drive there, reminds of Initial D; drifting. Haha but no worries, I am a very ~~very~~ safety conscious driver so I drove really carefully around the bends. Upon reaching the park, we quickly collated all our answers and submitted it to the judges and i think we clocked a timing of 1 hour so minutes, though I thought I could have got there abit earlier due to a mistake with the reading of the map. (I'm really bad at map reading.)

So after submitting the answers, we were instructed to go for the Canopy Walk and to find some answers to the clue printed on our card. The walk was alright, found out what the answer to my clue was and headed back to the place where we were supposed to gather. There we had some games and a time of singing and a song-composing game which was really funny!

After that was dinner at Orchid Country Club, which was like on the other end of the map given to us. Driving was never really this tired, I think it was due to the lack of sleep the night before. Dinner was pretty good too, like some 8 or 9 course meal at this restaurant. We actually made fun of this particular dish, the 'Exotic Pork Chop' and we changed the dish to 'Exotic Flour Chop' because Esther tried it and all she could taste was just flour! Herbal chicken and the spinnach was really good too! And of course the very sweet bobo cha cha! yum.

We left the place at bout 7.30pm and headed right over to the Night Safari, which was just 10minutes drive away from the country club. The place was quite crowded, with like toursists and of course, our very own church mates flooded the place also. Heh. We (some of the youths) decided to go and take the tram ride so we went to join the existing long queue of people. Overall, I thought the Night Safari is trip was pretty good, talking and making lame jokes about some of the animals!

By the time we got back to the main station, it was already 10pm and we thought we could catch the 10pm animal show but we have to be in there 20minutes before it starts so we decided to just wait for our parents at Ben & Jerry's. Andy and I wanted to grab a cone but it was definitely more expensive, comparing to the other outlets. So we just sat at one of the empty tables, pulled in a few chairs and sat down to rest. (my sis actually rested her head against the chair and fell asleep, right on the chair.)

So the night ended when all the parents started strolling out from the show and you can tell from their tired and satisfied faces that the outing was pretty much a success! So everyone departed their own ways from there and after sending a person back, I reached home at bout 11.30pm, and went to sleep an hour later and waking up 5 hours or so later!

What a weekend huh? Sometimes I feel that weekends are not much a rest day, but sometimes have to do even more work, but it was all worth it. Thank You God, for such a great day and watching over us.

Fraser Place: The Hub

2006-04-19T22:34:00.000-07:00

Work's been really great, though it can get pretty tiring (due to the lack of sleep and dragging myself out of bed at 6am in the morning.) but on the whole, I'd say I really do enjoy what I do, even though it is just waitering.

It's not the job that really attracts me, whereas it is the people that I come into contact with that makes the job more enjoyable and pleasant, even to the point of wanting to start work immediately the next day, serious! But of course there are also moments when I really dread going to work. Well work is just work isn't it, doing the same chore/duty every single day, and part of my job is to get "nagged" by aunties who works with me! "Ah boy ahh, go and check if there are enough pancakes!", "ah boy ahh.." and so forth. (and yes, the 2 aunties I work with every morning calls me Ah Boy, probably cos they find it a hassle to call my chinese name? It doesn't matter; I'm cool with being the Ah Boy!) haha. :P

I really do thank God for watching and bringing me through the days at work. I really can feel Him just being there with me and when I do pray specifically regarding work, He really does answer in ways I do not expect, very thankful. (:

Yay how exciting! gonna post some pictures of my workplace! I've to admit it's kinda small, for a service apartment catered to at least 200 residents there. I'm so glad that not all of them comes down for the complimentary buffet breakfast, or else the place would be so flooded and that isn't the worse, some would even complain and whine! (yes when I say complain, they really DO complain.) That's one of my specific prayer requests that I pray to God for, that there won't be an overflowing amount of people that comes to The Hub for breakfast, and He's so faithful.

Okay so here are the pictures of my pretty workplace. Oh did I mention that there is a POOL TABLE also? Too bad that is only 8 feet table, or else I may like really get hooked to the place, not cause of the job but it's the attractive and tempting table that makes me want to play on it. Yes I'm digressing on pool, here are some of the pictures that I took, after the peak hour which is the breakfast time. (from 6.30am - 10am)

Welcome to The Hub, the cafe where I work at:

I work at the counter most of the time, collecting the plates and cups to bring them into the back of the kitches to have them washed and to dry them, using a cloth mind you.

The door on the right leads to a play room for children to play. Oh I forgot to mention that there is PS2 console in there, for the kids to play! Gosh. And of course there's also cable tv for them to watch their favourite cartoons!

Yes there is a plasma television, don't know what is the size of the tv. We show CNN every morning, for those business men/women who wants to know what is happening in the world and stuff. Oh sometimes I find myself getting distracted, by the news and those business talks are pretty interesting I must say; though I don't understand most of it. Oh wells. (I'm not trying to skive at work okay, just a disclaimer.)

This is the 'outdoor' part of the cafe, where guests sits and enjoys the scenary. Yah right, it's actually when there are not enough seats on the inside, they are forced to come out here. (and of course for those who smokes.)

Just another picture of the outdoor part. It's a pretty nice place, and the scenary is pretty good I must say. God's wonderful creations. Watching the clouds sometimes makes me smile too, just marvelling at His wonders.

Ahh what a beauty! Every morning, I have to fold up a piece of cover that protects the table. I do that job with pride and honour, to unveil the gorgeous table! hahah all, if not most tables are pretty! (bring me the balls and the cues! hah I wish!) It's only for the guests to play, but I played on it once before, secretly. Shhh now!

Yup so this is where I work. Time really passes really fast, I've been working there for 1 month and 13 days already, and counting. I really don't mind working until I enlist. Until now, I have yet to get my enlistment letter which can only means that I'm not scheduled for the army till maybe august? Which means I still do have time to go and train for my napfa! Yes I know someone probably will provoke me to go and train my pull ups and my standing broad jump! Yeah 2 months of your life to serve army is no joke!

Gotta go and start running (again) and start to train for pull ups and standing broad jump. The thought of it already make me feel so lazy! Hah alright alright, shall start training soon, soon. I'm pretty good at procastinating myself okay, -laugh- :D

I wanted to blog but was super lazy to, but glad I did it nonetheless! I'm glad jason's back, brought him to East Coast Park hawker to eat stuff that he so desperately longed for when he was in Australia! And today, jason and I went to borders and we decided to eat Fish & Co. and it was simply awesome; it was his first and my second time there. Had a good 'man to man' talk, according to him. "Thanks mon!" (supposed to be Man, but with British ascent)

I shall sleep early tonight, hopefully by 11pm. It really does matter when I sleep early, especially in the morning when I start work. He's ever faithful and I thank God for that.

Supposed to nag someone to sleep early tonight, shall attempt to go and nag that someone. I probably should be quite good at it, since I get nagged almost everyday! HAH okay bye for now! :D

praying praying praying x)

LOVE

2006-04-12T22:27:00.000-07:00

to LOVE:

Thanksgivings (lost of it)

2006-03-25T23:00:00.000-08:00

As of right now, I have officially graduated from Ngee Ann Polytechnic. I'm now a Mechanical Engineering diploma holder. The results for my final exams were out yesterday and I'm just very thankful for the result, though I was hoping to do better for certain modules? But nonetheless, I am very thankful. Thank You, God (:

What would I be doing after I get my results? Honestly I do not know, but I do know of Someone who knows. Yes of course some may say that I have to serve my beloved nation for 2 years (hopefully 1 year 10 months, that is if I pass my napfa! hah.) Well honestly, I can say that I am standing at a crossroad right now, future is uncertain and all.. whether am I going to further my studies or not, or whether I should work at some company and then get recommended to go back and study etc.. there were even thoughts of signing on for army! Wow I think I can safely say that I am at a lost, by the many options (realistic or unrealistic ones) that are before me but I find comfort that I have a God, an all knowing God who will unravels this path/journey that I am going to embark on next, according to His perfect plan and timing and yes, I am excited about it!

Alot of things happened during the last 3 weeks but you know what? I'm still here and the only reason why I'm here because He, the loving and gracious God, brought me through. Work has been pretty good, though tiring cause I have to wake up super early (like bout 6am? with 10minutes of grace period I give myself so that makes 6.10am) and my work starts immediately at 7.30am, with the residents coming down to 'The Hub' for the complimentary breakfast before heading to work. So work can be pretty hectic, till the breakfast/peak period is over. which is about 10am. Then after that is to prepare for the following day's breakfast. Oh and I'm proud to say that I know how to make; tuna mayo, egg mayo, crab mayo and chicken mayo. Yes it has all got to do with like mayo but it isn't easy too okay! I actually make the salad as well, which isn't very hard to do also but I get to do things I don't normally do at home or anywhere else. So if anyone wants to eat any of those, just let me know and I will gladly make for you! :D

For those who do not know, I've got into my first ever car accident but no worries, no one got hurt. (very thankful for God's protection as well.) A taxi driver knocked into the side of my car and the impact was pretty strong as the you could see this huge dent at the front passenger seat door and it dragged all the way down to the back passenger seat door. Here are some of the pictures. PS: Parental Guidance is advised. Extremely graphic. Not for the weak hearted! :D just kidding! hahaha.

But no worries, the car is in perfect shape now. I sent the car to the workshop at Portsdown road, which is right beside Ayer Rajah camp and the technician helped me to change the whole front door and managed to knock back the dents for the rear door. I have so many thanksgiving because i know it was all God's perfect plan that things happens the way it does.

So in conclusion, I thank God that I'm still here, typing this. I mean sometimes you can never predict what is going to happen to you. Whether you are driving on the road, or even just a normal pedestrian crossing the road, you can never know what will happen to you. Yes our future is indeed uncertain, so why not since you(we) do not know what the future has in store for us, why not place your trust in Someone who does, who knows what the future and He wants us to carry out the plans that He has for us.

Now my biggest prayer is for my friends (now ex-classmates) for them to know this God who loves them so much and since Easter is just around the corner and my sky group will be organising this evangelistic event on the 8th of April, I really pray that they will come and to really see and know the true meaning of Easter and why it happened. It happened because of us, to give us the gift of eternal life.

Now I guess the question is whether you want to accept this gift of life because the price of death has already been paid on the cross, Jesus Christ died on the cross for us, for US. All you have to do is just to accept Him as your personal Lord and Saviour, that's all it takes, not that hard isn't it? and that's just the start of the 'new' life. That's gonna be my biggest prayer now, for you my friends who has yet to accept this gift. I'm dying to share bout what this great God has done for me because He is just so real to me! are you willing to listen? I sure pray so.

Countdown to Easter Evangelistic Event: 2 weeks.

Graduation!

2006-03-06T22:31:00.000-08:00

-Graduation

I'm just very thankful for my finals this sem, (really final already) even though my first paper didn't go as well as i hoped it would, I managed to end off my last paper really well AND i managed to stay till the end of the paper too! I'm not exactly the kind that would sit throughout the whole duration of the paper, probably cos I can't wait to get out of the exam room or that I know I have already done as much as I could already.. just wanna thank God for watching and bringing me through my final semester's exams. The pressure to do well was too much for me to handle. I can remember as I was "revising" for my first paper, I was so nervous and so stressed that nothing could get in my head, couldn't remember anything that I was reading like 10minutes ago? I'm just so glad it is over, ALL OVER! :D

As I walked out of my exam classroom, the atmosphere just felt really different? Everyone around me was just bursting with joy and you could tell it from their faces and I kinda wondered why. Wells it is because WE HAVE GRADUATED! (not officially though)

So as I take the normal route out of school, (to Mambo of course!) walking through NP "Orchard", through the school library, the olympic size swimming pool and of course one of the nicer canteen, canteen 2.. I was just thinking to myself, " this is my last time walking through Ngee Ann, as a student of this school."

Wow.

I couldn't really believe it too but yes, I have graduated.

Goodbye Ngee Ann!

Alright, so moving on.. I decided to give myself a well deserved rest by taking the rest of the week off, like not doing anything and just do whatever I wanted? It was a good, well rested and fun 4 days I must say! (since my exam ended on wednesday.) I also decided to go and look for a part time job, other than my uncle's pet shop so that I can learn something useful out there too.. thanks to Laura and her ex-student, I managed to get a part time job in the F&B department, at this serviced apartment called, Fraser Place
and I would be working in their hub, "all day" cafe and I would be working as a waiter/server/washer/clear plates/clear cups etc.. so in summary, do everything that is needed. Hah. I'm very excited actually and I would be starting work tmr, from 7.30am - 2.30pm. It is shift work and I would be working at this shift for the whole of this week. It is a very people-to-people kind of job, and did I mention that I love to work with and around people? So I'm pretty sure it's gonna be fun, and a great learning experience also! And the pay's pretty good too, will be helping my friend to ask if they need more help as well.. it'd be more fun working with my friend, so shall just wait and see bout that. (:

Joshua, Timothy Lee and myself signed up for this pool competition which is held this Saturday, at Lucky Plaza,Mambo. This is going to be my second major competition, (the ones that were held by NP ain't really counted as major? heh.) and I am going to try my best to hopefully, get past the first round at least cos I know that there are going to be really good players there too. So I'm gonna use the rest of this week to train so that I can play my best for the competition this Saturday.

I did quite alot of thinking, and sorted out some stuff within myself and there are still LOTS more of things inside me to really be sorted out. There are just too many thoughts/feelings running through my head during this period of time but I've come to a pretty good conclusion about myself. though not sure if it is very accurate or not.

There are just some things that I hold on to very dearly, but some may view it as being very foolish, maybe even naive? Is there anything wrong with 'making my first (girlfriend) my last?' or to even "wait" for true love? Or maybe these are just my expectations, or maybe I'm just plain stubborn. I have to admit that I'm very lost, and it just hurts badly when things just never fails to go 'not-right'? i wish Someone can tell me that I need to do.

And to tell me if what I'm doing is right, cos sometimes I just can't help but to feel very tired but I do not want to let it go, cause it just means so, so much to me.

Am I alone,

Does anyone understand me, for being me?

sometimes I don't even know who 'me' really is.

CNY!

2006-01-29T00:50:00.000-08:00

Dinner was really good, had a real wide spread of food, was kinda spoilt for choice for a moment but I sure wouldn't mind being spoilt, just this once.

I just miss my elder sister being around and this is the second (if I didn't remember wrongly) time that my elder sis is not with us during the reunion dinner. So the 3 of us just sat around the table which is filled with dishes and of course, not forgetting the attention grabbing pot of boiling soup, for steamboat!

I have to admit that dinner can get rather boring because of the lack in numbers? Especially in times like chinese new year and festive seasons, the more the merrier but oh wells, I could do with just the company of just my mom and sis. So that I can eat my fill without having to fight with anybody too right? And that also no one will be able to see how greedy I am. -grin
(my sis said I ate most of the abalone which is so ~~not~~ true! haha :P)

If anyone's thinking that I only go for the abalone and nothing else, he/she is sure wrong! I love the different kind of meats too okay; chicken, beef and pork, and not forgetting the vegetables too! I eat in moderation mind you.

So we were just sharing on God's faithfulness and how He has been so good to our family, watching us and showering us with so much of His blessings. So as we munch and grabbed more food to our bowls, we shared our thanksgiving and I have to say that it was really good, because we don't really have a designated time for 'family' so these are one of the rare opportunities where we can share more in a sense? Yups very thankful for that. (:

I'm not exactly very keen to like go and visit relatives, maybe cause it is very superficial? It is like a one time per year kind of thing, then you have to 'update' your relatives on what you are doing (when you already updated last year and nothing much have changed since.) and I think it was just last year, when some of the older generation, ah po-s and those aunties came to ask me if I was attached and all, just because I was uhh, 'of age'?

All I did was just nod(not to their question if whether I was attached or not.) and just keep quiet and let them finish their so called 'lectures'.

I guess visiting our relatives is just part of the custom that was passed down many decades ago. Why can't all the relatives just arrange to meet at this one person's place and at this dedicated time, so that we can all be there and save each other's time to travel from places to places? Good idea? I will sure keep that in mind, for the future that is, when WE are in charge!

I sure can't wait for the time to come, when times have to change, for the better.

Just a random thought: why are so many holidays landing on a sunday now? Christmas, New Year (English) and now, Chinese New Year? It just don't feel right...

It doesn't feel right at all.

Wells, on a happier note:

Happy Chinese New Year to all! It's time to use this time to be a good testimony for Him, to our relatives and friends!

Time to think of those 'chen yus' to say when I go and 'bai nian' to the adults. (and that includes those ah-po(s) who asked me those awkward questions.)

Xin Nian Kuai Le. ((:

CNY shopping!

2006-01-27T00:40:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BE-EARLY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO MYSELF!

I think the CNY mood has gotten into me, finally. You know when you enter those shopping centres and they have this like radio system that plays throughout the whole place and of course the music never fails to capture my attention, not in a very good way actually. It kinda gets on my nerves somehow because the music (at bukit timah plaza) is always and I mean always, the same.

On the basement, there is this plasma like television that plays the music video of the song that they are playing. The singer would be in her traditional red 'chong-sam' or however you spell that and there would be like people going to bai nian, just everything that we will do during cny.

How nice.

Oh right, I was mentioning about this cny mood that I suddenly just, 'felt-it'. Wells I would say it is because I 'officially' went to buy my new year clothings. I got this 100 dollars voucher for World Of Sports (the prize that I received from winning the M.E pool competition) and so I decided to put it to good use and what a better chance to go and get my new year clothings.

So I met up with tim at btp, had dinner before taking a bus down to taka because he also had his taka vouchers and he wanted to get his running shoes and I could get my stuff from the world of sports next to where he was getting his shoes.

In short, I'm pretty happy and proud of what I've got. I bought myself 4 tops, (with the 100 dollar voucher, just gotta top up about $12 more and there was 40% discount if I paid using NETS, which I did.) a pair of pants which costs bout $83 but there was the 40% discount too so it ain't that bad, and I bought this top for my sis, which says this on the front: "Slower traffic, keep right."

Get it?

By right: Slower traffic should be keeping ~~right~~ LEFT and the best part that the shirt was only avilable for girls/ladies.

I wonder why. :D

I can't wait for CNY! Reunion dinner, more food, new year goodies and more goodies! Oh wait, I must watch what I eat because I still have my napfa in about 2 weeks or so.

Great.

I shall eat in moderation, whatever that means. (:

ps: i'm NOT a shopaholic! I only shop when I need to, or when I feel like it!

Not only girls shop okay, guys do too. Keep that in mind.

Farewell Jason

2006-01-25T23:05:00.000-08:00

See ya Jason (wong-ie), we'll see you real soon, like in bout 3 months time? We're sure gonna miss you man and you know the line which says, 'you don't know how much a person means to you until he/she is gone'? It's so true.

I know that I am sure gonna miss this brother of mine, those guitar jamming sessions, pool, soccer, (where he knocked into my calf and caused this blue black bruise) , tennis, sunday school, worship, sky and so many more..

He sure has brought lots of joy and I really did enjoy the time that we shared as friends, fellow servants playing together in worship.. those memories are sure to stay in my heart and of course, not forgetting the other people that have been blessed by his 'jasonification initiated' spirit! (whatever that means. CHRISTification sounds better dude.)

Tim came over and stayed over so that we could go to the airport together the next morning. He studied his statistics notes while Iwas busy preparing the powerpoint slides for the project exhibition the next day, which is held at nanyang polytechnic. We had a real good time, playing pool, starting quite late and ended with supper at al'ameen. Well it's not the food that was good but the sharing and the talking was what that good though the supper helped. heh :P

We wanted to film some videos for jason (of pool and soccer) but we ended up doing neither. We just talked through the night and into the wee morning, to bout 2.30am before we finally hit the sack. Actually I needed the sleep because I was gonna drive the whole day and long distances some more so thus i needed as much energy as i could get.

The sleep through the ~~night~~ morning was really good but it was disturbed shortly with my handphone alarm and we had to wake up to go send jason off to the airport. I told my sis and mom that we have to leave abit earlier so that I could reach the airport asap which we did but the best part was that i was stuck at my house multi-storey carpark for close to 15minutes, just because this car was stuck at this gate gantry because the machine could not read the cashcard unit, was really irritated actually but thank God after dropping both my sis and mom and their respective schools, I drove as fast as i could (and with safety number 1 in mind of course.)

You know how God uses these 'weaknesses' of mine to just showcase of His glory? I just hate slow moving traffic and yes, I can be irritated and thus, I become a not-so-friendly driver but then on the way to airport, it was all smooth flowing and i was tuning in to power98fm on my car with tim and we were just listening to the deejays talking and i guess the jokes and the lame conversations distracted me from the bad morning traffic earlier and just drove all the way to the airport, without much delay. So thank You, Lord. (:

We managed to reach there at bout 8.05am and we just walked really fast to delifrance, where they were having their breakfast and just chatting. Though the time that was spent at the airport was short, we managed to take some photos and getting the famous, jason BEARHUG! We're all gonna miss you Jason! Hope you like the cd that we (corn, andy, john and me) recorded for you and may it just remind you that you are sure not forgotten and that when you are feeling down, just take out the cd and be reminded of His love and of course to remember us lah! :D

More last minute group photos and yes, more hugs.. so as we stood there, watching him go through the security and checking in to go board his flight, we just waved and bidded him goodbye.

See you in about 3 months time! Until then, gonna go train up my tennis cos we still have some unsettled business yes? take care bro, will sure be praying for you.

The project exhibition at nanyang poly went pretty well. The CEO of Land Transport Authority came and I have to admit that there really were awesome projects, great ideas and the execution of the project was really inspiring for me. The guests were just walking around and looking through all the 31 booths that were set up. It truly was a great experience though I was feeling really tired and all. (cause of the lack of sleep the night before, the morning rather.)

I managed to learn quite abit from my own project and as my tertiary education is coming to an end, I just want to thank God for placing in this course (Mechanical Engineering) and though I felt it was quite a waste of time at first, but now i'm really glad because I can say that it has been a great learning journey and the friends I made throughout the 3 years.

I'm excited to see what He has in store for me next, after NS that is. Of course I know that after my studies, I would be serving my nation (hopefully for 1 year 10 months and not 2 years!) and who knows where God will bring me after that? How exciting indeed!

You truly are a faithful and gracious God and I thank You for just being, You.

bad common test results

2006-01-12T13:00:00.000-08:00

I want another cup of hazelnut latte right now.. (prefably starbucks because sarah said that coffeebean is very sweet) or whatever coffee there is right now! i'm feeling so sleepy right now, feels like i'm gonna fall sick soon! hmmm.

I think the coffee made me pretty "high" yesterday.. so high that i couldn't sleep at all.. well i did try to get some sleep (at 1am) but somehow my eyes just couldn't shut.. (though i thought i was rather tired and all)

What a great start to school today.. struggled to get much sleep but when i really 'slept', my handphone alarm clock rang and that was when i was thinking to myself, "i so hate school."

I seriously lack some serious sleep, had to walk quite a long distance to get to school (in the rain) and my friend sms-ed to tell me that i didn't do well for one of my common test module.

How great huh?

Turned out that i didn't really do as bad as what my friend told me, quite a relief but ain't very happy with how i did.. got back 2 papers already and i guess the results were kinda expected, because of the amount of effort that i put in and i have to admit that i slacked alot and was very last minute in my revision.. gonna make use of the remaining 6 weeks or so to make sure i do well for my final exams.. must aim for an average of 3.5 gpa, so that i can try to appeal for uni..

The weather is just making me so tired and most of my classmates are all resting their heads on the table and dozing away.. well i'm not any better since i'm here typing this but don't worry, i will do what i have to do to get my grades!

No more slacking! i hope.

Homework for sky: make a new friend per week, big E (evangelise) to one friend (old/new) and my testimony. (will be finished today)

4 more hours of lecture.

Very tempting to just put my head on the table and '~~sleep~~ REST'

First Entry of 2006

2006-01-08T23:58:00.000-08:00

Hah i'm one week late for my first entry of the year! i'm pretty good at procastinating huh? okay that's something i have to change for this year. (STOP procastinating!!)

So when am i gonna ~~start~~ stop procastinating?

SOON! ladeedaa.. *chooses to live in self denial* hah(:

2005

It has been a really great year, though filled with its ups and downs but i'm glad God is there every step of the 'hill', but it is still good!!

Jie:
My elder sis left in the early part of the year as she responds to God's calling to go into full time ministry, on board Doulos to serve for 2 years.. i'm just so proud of my sis because she gotta step out of her comfort zone (home, friends and family) and to go onboard a ship, feeling the effects from bad voyages.. (sea sickness, headaches) Miss you jie! hang in there and i'm praying for you daily.. may our Lord give you strength and to fill your heart with so much more of Him..

VBs'2005 - Ramblin' Road Trip:
Hah, a ramblin' road trip indeed! God just never seems to use tough circumstances to maginfy Himself to all of us.. (especially to the Music team) I could still remember when we were preparing for vbs, writing of the songs, practicing the actions of the songs, we were all just so panicky and it just doesn't seem right in that sense? By His grace, we managed to finish all the decors and memorised most of the actions already, or so we thought.

The actual day came and guess what? we had so much fun teaching the kids all the actions that at the end of the day, we were all so physically drained but deep down, we all feel very accomplished and we sure did not do this on our own but it is because God is there with us, from the very start of the morning worship to closing and over the next few days! Looking at the kids doing all the actions and hearing them SHOUT songs of praises to our Lord is simply, awesome!

The seeds have been sown, and it will be according to His timing that the seeds will grow and when it is time, we will harvest for Him..

Sky Camp'05 - Everything Evaneglistic (e^2):

-"A mountain top experience" - wailing

Yups it sure was a mountain top experience! it kinda sums it all up because i doubt i would be able to find the words to totally describe what actually happened during the camp itself.. wells, i'd just say that He never fails to just teach us lessons and the amazing thing is that all things turned out well and it is NOT with our own abilities/talents or cos we were all ready, but it was Him who was there with us, every step of the way, from the very beginning and to the very end.. for all the 4 evangelistic events, when wailing announced the numbers, (friends that attended the events) i couldn't really believe that so many of our friends actually came! (over 50 of them came for the events) WOW. Simply unbelievable but with God, nothing is impossible right?

It has been a really long time where i see youths, tearing with joy for the Lord and lifting their hands in praise.. So when the final morning came and kumchiew was leading the worship, His presence was sure with all of us in that place and He just moved us in ways that we never imagined possible.. personal barriers were broken down and we were all so moved by His Spirit that we want to tell of His glory, every single day of our lives.. "All of my days i will tell of His goodness".

Let's put the words that we sing from our mouth, into actions and to tell of His goodness to everyone around us.. they deserve to know of this good news, this free gift of salvation that we so do not deserve but yet it is by His grace that we have the choice, to simply accept or to reject this gift.. will be praying for my friends too, who has yet to accept this gift of salvation.

SOZAI:

WE ARE SO ZAI!!! hahaha.. it was simply great and it sure was fun working together for that video, 'Do You Know This Man' and i personally thank God for watching over our group from the very start where we were brainstorming for ideas and to the actual filming (those super funny takes) and not forgetting, the actual event itself.. Once again, He proves that He is ever faithful and hears our prayers even though we got so anxious bout stuff.. all glory to God, Amen! and the leaders were really good, stood up to the many tests and i'm sure we have all grown stronger in our walk with God and we know that we have placed our faith in the One, true God, yes SO ZAI?! rock on guys! this is only the beginning.. let's do it together! and of course, not forgetting the One who is watching over us, God Himself..

Others:
Within the year, many things have changed whereas some have yet to change one bit.. personally , i have come to learn alot of new things, about myself, how weak i am especially when it comes to relationships (family and friends) but i have made it a point to be more patient especially when it comes to both my sis and my mom.. i want to be a good and loving brother/son because i am placed in this family for a reason and that is to take good care of my family!

Relationships/Friendships are so fragile if it is not God-centered.. no matter how hard we try to make the relationship/friendship work, somehow it will fail us because humans aren't and never will be, perfect.. that's why all the more as we build both our relationships/friendships on One who is perfect and He, who knows what will happen tomorrow, the foundation is strong and thus neither our relationship/friendship will crumble nor fail..

I. personally am still praying for His perfect timing because i know He sure has a great plan for all of us.. it sure is hard to want and not do anything about it? but i know that He rewards us for waiting upon Him and He will just slowly unrevel His plan for us.. i'm just so thankful for you (tallie, silly peeg) and will just continue to pray for you too.. (:

2006:

It's gonna be a great year! hoenstly i'm not sure if it is gonna be the best year but one thing i know for sure, i want to be a better testimony for our Lord, and just using every opportunity to do what sarah would call it, the BIG 'E', Evangelise!

And not forgetting, army.. well i know it will be good because God will sure be with me and more importantly, is to be used by Him even in the army! there are plenty of guys inside to just preach the Gospel message to so i want to be ready for that challenge that is set before me! Army is gonna be good! i'm not using reverse psychology on myself or anything..

'if you decide that army is gonna be bad even before you go in, of course it will be bad because the mindset has already been tuned to army = bad (waste of time) but if you think army is gonna be really good and that there's just so much work to be done, you would then use the time more wisely instead of sulking and counting down days to the number of days left in the army.'

I'm excited to see what God can do through me in the coming year.. i want to give more of myself to Him because i have seen what He can do through me as long as i totally trust in Him and not in my abilities!

It IS gonna be a great year.

Why? Because God will just magnify Himself so much more to all of us!

Amen.

Goodbye 2005, HELLO 2006!

2005-12-31T23:53:00.000-08:00

Countdown into the new year, 2006: 34 mins and counting.

In about half an hour or so, 2005 is gonna be history and 2006 will be here pretty soon after.. wells, looking back at 2005, i have to say that time just went by me at a really fast pace, or am i the one that is moving too slowly?

i guess that probably ain't gonna matter already.

Nonetheless, God has been really faithful and good(: I'm just so thankful for all the lessons that i have learnt throughout the year and through some lessons, i know that i've placed my faith in the right God because He is just so real, and the experiences just uhh, so to say "double-confirmed" that God is always there.. He is simply awesome!

There are just so many things i wanna thank God for.. VBS, Sky Camp, my last semester's results and so many more! i can't wait to see what God will do in the new year and i'm really excited to do more great things for Him..

Ahh i'm feeling pretty HIGH now and next to my lap top are my OPC notes which is just so.. WRONG!! this is probably the first (and the last.) time i'm studying during a time like this lahh.. and it isn't a very good feeling too, studying during the Christmas season and now, New Year's eve! how great huh? sigh.

I don't think i should come out with any like new year resolutions cos i doubt i will be able to fufill any.. i just want to be a greater worker for Him and bring the good news to more people around me..

Goodbye 2005, and HELLO 2006! Thank you Lord! It's gonna be a great year ahead.. i just know it because You are in charge!

May Your will be done.

Amen.

Sky Camp'05 - Amazing

2005-12-27T00:35:00.000-08:00

I told myself to blog about sky camp but i kept on procastinating so here i am, even though the camp ended 5 days ago, the memories are still so fresh, seems as though it just ended only yesterday..

Warning: My longest entry yet. (What to do? I have to summarise 4 days worth of stuff and that ain't easy okay!)

The journey (the camp itself) was a really tiring one, both physicall and mentally but i am so glad i chose to walk on this journey, a journey which requires so much faith and trust because this is a journey that can't be walked alone, but with our God. What kind of journey is this you may ask?

Actually i'm not sure if i can find the words to totally describe what this journey was all about.. so i guess all i can say it has been a great, fruitful and as what wailing said, 'what a mountaintop
experience' and i couldnt' help but to agree more..

The camp totally drained us from all of our physical energy, all those late nights discussion with our groups, thinking of how we are going to present the Gospel message to the friends that we have invited for the evangelistic lunches/dinners.

We started the camp with like some basic camp rules and we were told to ~~not~~ obey (yeah right) the camp rules.. and was followed by 'wet games' which was led by paul in which we were playing 'Capture the flag'.. shall not go through the rules/aims of the game but the only thing i remembered was people, with plastic water bombs in their hands, aiming and throwing aimlessly at the so called, enemies. (i shall not mention any names) Wells we sure had fun, and the girls probably learnt how to aim and throw at the person next time yes? hahaha! just kidding. It was really funny to see them just throwing at some running person and MISS! haha okay, moving on.

For dinner, we had chicken/charsiew/roast pork rice (thank you uncle Peter which i doubt you will read it but thanks nonetheless for providing dinner.) Following that ,we had our worship and a short message by kumchiew and wailing, sharing bout their experiences going into full time and stuff.. was really encouraged by what they said, never underestimate what God can do through you, especially when you decide to go into full time that is (:

We had supper after that, and once we were 'dismissed', we splitted right into our camp groups and there was this sense of urgency among all the groups, every group having their own lap tops on at full power and each in their own discussions.. the feeling of everyone just working together (in their own groups) were just so uhh UNITED, because we were all working toward that one purpose and that was to present the Gospel message to our friends and that they would understand and at the end of it, to accept this Jesus that we are telling them.

Lights out was supposed to be at 11pm but we went OT (overtime) and stretched till about 11.45pm or so before we were chased off to our ~~bed~~ sleeping bag. Oh and at the guys room, alot of us couldn't sleep so we just ended up talking and the funny part was when me, jason wong and martin just decided to play 'ji gu bah' (scissors, rock and paper) and we just decided to play it 'triple threat' style, all three of us were pitting our so called skills against one another. It was just so funny cos martin was the one who introduced us this new playing style but he ended up losing the most and guess who was the overall winner? hahaha yes it was me! We were just laughing so much that we kinda disturbed those who were sleeping. (particularly the new sec4s who just joined us. sorry jeremy and weng ~~who~~woh)

Most of the guys were just either engaging in their own pairs, or triples, talking, joking, playing ji gu bah or simply put, just doing everything except sleeping. Anyway we ended sleeping at bout 3am as we need to wake up really early the next morning and more preperation gotta start so we went to sleep. Ah yes, during the night, (i just had to say this, sorry) there were many people 'singing' in their sleep, yes as some would say, they are having their own symphony concerts, snoring away! hahaha it was so funny because i woke up at bout 6.25am as we have a group meeting at 6.30am, i found timothy sleeping outside on the canteen table because he couldn't sleep, with 2 people snoring away and he was right in the middle.. so poor thing right? haha so he went out to the table to sleep!

I think i'm writing too much.. shall just like summarise the following few days from here.. So first day started off at 7am, with breakfast and then morning worship and message. Johnny and Sheila were our speakers and they were teaching us on how to evangelise properly and it was really good, learnt alot of stuff. So came lunchtime and my group was assigned to lead the first evangelistic lunch.. so as we were preparing and rehearsing on what we are supposed to do, alot of things went wrong and just not according to what we wanted.. so alot of us went on a panic mode, alot of emotions were shown and things just didn't get any better.. so with only bout half an hour to go, we prayed and left to go pick up our friends.

Our God sure is faithful and hears our prayers.. our friends came and we had lunch at the canteen and my mom cooked! and it sure was yummy! hehe.. so after lunch, our friends and us moved into the fellowship hall and we started our event with a video, entitled 'Do You Know This Man?' and it went pretty well, quite funny too.. so after the video, we moved on to our skit, rather impromptu because we didn't really practice that much but everything went very well, answered most of the questions that non-Christians would ask and Sarah did a really good job (as a teacher, wearing a white lab coat and nerdy specs. hah) in explaining. We broke up into groups and we were just talking bout the video and what they were thinking. My group were pretty quiet but we managed to talk quite abit, shared my testimony and my friend, shaobin helped me by sharing of his faith in our God. (thanks shaobin!)

So the seeds were sown, and now it is up to God who does the watering and the fertilizing and i really do pray that one day, they will decide to accept this free gift of salvation that we simply do not deserve.. it is by His grace that we are given this chance of eternal life, so let's make this life on earth worthwhile, to make Him smile (:

And so our friends left church with the message, our God is in charge and when it is time, we as workers for Christ, will go harvest. Thank God for watching our group and the event as it was all for His glory, His glory alone.

So anyway, night time quickly came by and it was timothy/charissa's group to lead the evangelistic dinner.. as i've said, our God is faithful and everything went well with their skit and was really encouraged with what they have done.. it is just so amazing because there are so many ways to how we can share this gospel with our friends who have yet to know Christ.. and charrisa shared this story bout this girl and this loving father and it really touched my heart.. because we so do not deserve of His unfailing love, we sinned but yet He chose to open the door to us and love us for who we are.. how many of us, humans would love each other so much, to accept each other's bad past and weaknesses?

Only God would.

Our hearts were filled with just so much thanksgiving and praise, we prayed together as a group for Him watching over us and the other group too.. and also for the other 2 groups that would be leading the next day's events. And yes, we did not play ji gu bah in the night as we were all so physically drained by then..

After a good night's rest, (of cos there were still the regular snoring and stuff) the next morning came pretty soon after.

So after breakfast, (my group made pancakes and scrambled eggs) we proceeded to day 2 of worship and message, more into effective evangelism from our missionaries.. and then lunch came, jason wong's group was leading and they also did a video show which was super funny, a powerpoint presentation which just made me feel so undeserving of His love, (the song was very appropriate as well, the sad, slow soft kind. heh) which just emphasised on how great and gracious our Father is.. followed was a short skit and a personal testimony from elda and was just so encouraged by what she said.. then they broke into groups and we just seperated ourselves and blended into a group to hear what the people have to say and to see how we can help in answering their questions.. thank God it went well :)

And finally, the last group was up *drums snare sounds*

Cherlyn and martin's group was up next.. what's with the snare sounds and all? As we were confirming our ideas, we were told that they were gonna do a 'Fear Factor' for their event and we were all pretty shocked (in a good way) because their idea was to lead up to the fear of death and what was gonna happen after they die.. WOW that was a really good idea! that's what we thought AT FIRST.

So as time passes, martin messaged me and asked me to get my mom to get a pig snout! read carefully: a PIG SNOUT! gross.

So yes, as you can imgaine, that is kinda only the tip of the ice berg.

The fearful event came, and we were all sitting there in the canteen, divided randomly into 4 groups and we sent out representatives to go enter the Fear Factor game.. it was just so funny, and yes i went up for the event as well. I was given this curry leaves and this don't know what black coloured fruit or sth.. it was gross but thankfully Dennis (andy's non Christian friend) came to my rescue and helped me to finish. Others had to eat like a shot of chopped up chilli padi with maple syrup,(yucks!) a teaspoon of wasabi, one packet of bitter chinese medicine, a blended mix of don't know what food item and of cos, the pig snout and not forgetting, fish guts! yups that was how NICE TASTING the event went and that wasn't it.. the second part, there was this long bowl of small worms and there were these small marbles inside and so the aim of the game was to put your hand into those small, wet and gross looking worms and pick out the marbles and the person who picks out the most marbles wins. Sounds easy? not exactly! but i have to applaud those who tried (especially the girls like sarah and charissa) their beautiful and precious hands into that dirty and smelly bowl.. they were really 'GARANG'! that's what sarah would say! hah.

And the last part was this night walk.. the whole church went dark, all the lights were off and it was almost pitch dark.. we were supposed to pair up and turn by turn, walk up the stairs and reach the top floor before coming back down again.. we were told of what we were supposed to do and we started to walk up the so-familiar-but-yet-scary staircase.. so i paired up with dennis and so we went! i kinda already knew what was gonna happen and i'm already so familiar with the place and all, we went up, wanting to spoil the fun! haha evil us right? so we went up to the second storey and we walked and we were supposed to read sth off this mirror, infront of the sink.. but we decided to walk abit further cos there was this corridor and we predicted that there would be someone there to scare us? so we walked on and we took a peek and yes, we saw this black figure, in already a very dark atmosphere, her hair covering her face and head down, (if you watched The Ring, it looks like Sadako) just standing there.. i knew that was esther because she told us that she was helping the group to act as some long haired ghost or sth! hahaha.. so anyway i took a picture with her (oh did i mention i was carrying my digi cam? i was thinking i could use the flash to see if there were anything in the dark corners or sth! haha smart huh?)

So i just took a picture of her, quickly walked past her and proceeded on to the third storey and before reaching the staircase door, weng woh just appeared at the classroom door next to the staircase door and 'BOO' us! okay i didn't expect that so we were pretty shocked but ended up laughing bout it! So moving onto the third storey, i heard some voices talking and it was chung hei and he was telling the previous pair (charrisa and wailing) where to go and so we knew where chung hei was and he was supposed to come and scare us or some sort! it was just so funny and we met up with the previous group and decided to walk together and to see if there were any more people to make fun of! hahaha oh there was martin who was hiding underneath this table and his job was supposed to grab the ankles of those who are at the table.. but we didn't get that cos he thought we knew where he was in which we don't!

So as we were walking to the staircase, another ghostly figure was standing there, with her (cherlyn) hand pointing to the direction that we were supposed to go.. we just making fun of her and she also couldn't take it anymore and chased us away.. but we managed to take a picture together before we finally moved to the top level.. nothing was on the top level so we decided to wait for the rest of the group before we take the lift back down to the first level.

It was really fun and funny too! the event ended off with a great dinner and also group discussion.. really thank God for watching over the 4 groups and we all had our ups and downs but He was really good to bring all of us through.

For our adventure, normally it would be to 'tekan' (torture) us but this year was different.. they said it was more to celebrate because we did so well and put in so much effort for our events and thus we were going to be rewarded with food! that's what they say lahh but actually, we were given 4 destinations/markets (beach road, maxwell, adam road and newton) and we were supposed to go and to evangelise to the hawkers there! so much for the celebration huh? wells so we went in our groups to the various markets and to evangelise to them.

To sum it all, the groups went around singing to the various stalls, wishing them Merry Christmas and some would give out tracts to those vendors.. a few of us decided to go talk to the people there, who were just there eating and we decided to just approach them and to just spread the Message to them.. we learnt alot and took back many lessons as we ended the camp but that wasn't it..

We headed back to church at bout 2am and went straight to bed as everyone was just so tired! we were told to pack our bags and be ready to move off at 8am sharp.. so we all thought that there was gonna be something else, more running maybe? So we all went to bed, speculating what we would be doing the next morning.

For the final morning, kumchiew came to me and asked me for my lap top so that he can type some stuff and asked me to play guitar for him.. "So there's gonna be worship before another adventure?" that was what i was thinking to myself.. so everyone gathered in the fellowship hall, with their bags all packed but you could see all the tired and weary faces, all so not ready for any physical activities.. so guess what? it wasn't a physical adventure, but a spiritual one.. kum chiew(kc) then led us in some great and awesome worship and both jason lee(on drums) and i were just thrown off by the singing and it was just so spontaneous that when kc asked the youths to raise their hands up to the Lord, many of them did and some were actually so touched that their eyes were filled with so much tears.. our Lord sure is an awesome and so in awe! That was something i sure will not forget in a long while and as were singing 'All Of My Days', we were just singing so loudly and just proclaiming that we WILL tell of His greatness all of our days, to just spread this good news to everyone around us!

So after worship, we went into our groups for the last time and we were just sharing of our thanksgiving and personal encounters with God because there were so many times where we were just being tested but yet we stood firm and prayed.. prayer sure does work wonders and i really do mean WONDERS! During the sharing, alot of us just broke down in tears, and lost for words to say but i guess we all know that God is really good as we were just facing the very same struggles and to see how He actually used our weaknesses to bring us through, there were simply not enough words to say how thankful we are!

I just want to say a big THANK YOU to God for just being there with us, every day, every hour, every minute and every second! you have never and will never leave us and we just thank you for that!

It does sound like we are on a spiritual high because that is how we will all feel since it is a camp and stuff right? yeah i so agree because once we go back into our normal lives, this 'flame' or passion will soon just die out but then we want to keep this fire going.. reminds me of this song that we sang when we were kids, 'Give me oil in my lamp, keep me burning burning burning.'

Yes Lord, please keep our fire burning for you and only You, can keep us alive and shining for You.. help us to be the salt and light of the earth.

'if you want salt in the porridge, you can't put the porridge into the salt shaker whereas you should sprinkle the salt onto the porridge.'

Thank You Lord.

SOZAI group: let's continue to keep our flame burning for Him and to keep each other accountable for and to encourage one another yes? rock on SOZAI!!! :D

start of Sky camp 05

2005-12-18T01:01:00.000-08:00

A great journey is gonna unfold, pretty soon actually.

I'm pretty excited bout sky camp and I can't wait to see what God can do through each and everyone of us!

A journey of faith, with temptations and trials, only to make our faith stronger in our Lord.

-Keeping the friends I'm gonna bring in prayers, that they may come and listen to the gospel, the good news and this free gift of salvation! (to eventually accept Christ as their personal Lord and Saviour.)

The journey starts NOW.

VBS pics

2005-12-03T13:10:00.000-08:00

The guys trying to push start the broken down TOYOTA car! must be the driver's weight is too much to handle for the car huh? hahah!

Elias, Weng Woh, Christopher, Me and Jason.

My sis and the ever cute Ci En. Come back next year okies?

Music team again! Well done you guys!!

Calvin and I in a K2 class with a cute and rather naughty boy! (too many kids' names to remember already!)

Calvin and another cute kid!

And my favourite kid: Kai Hui (and it's not cos she is a girl lah ok? at least not the major reason! hah)

and her brother, Yi Sheng (sounds like doctor in chinese huh?) miss you guys already!

VBS'05 Mascot

2005-12-03T13:00:00.000-08:00

First of all, let me introduce to you our VBS'05 Mascot: JOHN!!! *clap clap clap* :D

VBS 2005!

2005-12-03T12:55:00.000-08:00

Music Team Of VBS 2005!!! (great job you all! YAY)

from the top, left to right: christopher, me, calvin, jason and mae

second row: my sis, juliana, jacq, john, elias and christabel

Wow.

Wow..

WOW...

VBS 2005 has been simply WOW! (did i just say WOW again? hah :P)just can't find another word to describe how this physically and mentally draining this 'trip' was, it was just simply AWESOME! and it was sure worth it! (the draining part that is) And it all came to an end yesterday and honestly i sure am glad that it is all over but i MISS THE KIDS! they were the ones that made VBS so lively and of course, they were the one who were zapping away our energy by the minute.. yea that was how 'active' they were! i think they used the energy that they stole from us and used it for their own.. what an evil scheme!!! heh. :p

The kids were simply amazing, each in their own special ways. Some were amazingly cute, pretty/handsome, naughty, hyper active, naughty(again), greedy, loves the attention and etc.. and just being who they truly are, KIDS! but hey, we love them for who they are, don't we?

The whole trip lasted for 4 days and it sure a LONG ride huh? well i'm really glad to be part of this trip, along with the rest of the 'Tour Guides' and of course not forgetting the 'Ramblers'.. and not forgetting God who is taking charge of this whole trip.. it sure has been a great, as the title of the theme song suggests, "Ramblin' Road Trip" and i'm pretty sure to say that the kids sure did take something back from this trip.. from games to crafts, music to missions, lesson to another lesson and not forgetting the delicious food too, you can just tell how much they enjoyed, just from their cute, chubby little faces and their innocent faith sure does show it all..

There are just simply too much things to say but if i have to summarise it within like one line, i guess it would be, 'an amazing road trip which led them straight to the Him, God's heartland.'

The experience i went through will definitely be one that i will never forget, goes for the other 'tour guides' who were involved in this trip in one way or another. (: To be standing infront of all the kids, and looking at them raising up their hands to the Heavens and just ~~shouting~~ singing their hearts out to the One who made it all possible, it was simply so touching that my heart was just screaming for joy as well!

This road trip will be one that will always be in my heart. Miss you kids! See you next year yeahh? :D

Gonna attach more pictures of my favourite kids (not biased or anything ok?) and i sure do miss them because they have touched my life. Thank you kids, for just being yourselves! :D

2005-11-04T23:44:00.000-08:00

Wow this internet page seems so new but yet familiar to me all of a sudden.. it's like as though meeting a long time friend in which we have yet to meet for so long.. (in my case would be about 4 weeks from my last post)

and yes i do miss my blog! well kinda, but somehow i just seem to have lost my blogging 'skills'.. (haha if there even is such thing in the first place) actually i do miss blogging but sometimes i just can't deny my lazy self and just refuse to type.. lazy to think of the words to type and how to type and stuff.. but guess what? i've overcomed that! yay! haha right.

time really flies really fast, probably speeding from the way i see it! why can't the TIME traffic police do something about it? and not let time SPEED by so fast! please time, don't drive by us so quickly? time never seems to wait for anyone and never will.. guess there's only one solution to this: and that is we catch up (in a sense) and not waste time! sounds easy doesn't it? i wish.

maybe cos i'm slacking/enjoying/resting/sleeping/eating/drinking/playing/slacking (again) too much.. when you seem to enjoy the time, time don't seem to enjoy you and just slips by without you knowing it.. hmm wait you do know it slips by just that you choose to ignore it and telling yourself that you still have alot of time to waste.. doesn't that sound familar? that's what i tell myself most of the time..

my one and a half month of holidays are over and i just completed my first week of school.. (just went school for 2 days this week! cool huh? hah)

and looking back at my holidays, yes i have to admit that it weren't very well spent.. ok to be honest, i would say that it was WELL wasted! at least half of it was.. and the other half was rather well spent lah.. so i guess it weren't THAT bad in a sense? hah that's up to me to decide then.

shall not go into details of how i spent my half-well spent holidays.. hmm first week of school weren't like those major school reopenings or some sort that i felt last time.. ok let me explain: my last few major holidays were all spent away from school, off the school campus for close to 2 months.. so of cos you would feel super sian (monday blues too of cos!) as school always reopens on mondays! why can't they like open on friday or sth so that we can choose to skip it and go back to school 3 days later? sigh.

whereas i was going back to school quite often during my 'latest' holiday to as what my friend would say, "to show my face and sign attendance." haha not exactly lahh but it's somewhere along that line.. ((: so you see, it ain't that hard to adapt back to school cos it is not much of a difference? it just seems normal going back to school on monday, just another day of school that's all..

yups so another week is gonna pass me by.. i still think that time is speeding..

'can someone go and check on them to make sure that they are not speeding?'

time to go catch up with T-I-M-E.

a simple word, something you can never grasp firmly in your hands. probably what we can do is to treasure it and make the full use of it as much as we can.

here i come TIME.

The 40 Years Old Virgin review

2005-10-10T22:00:00.000-07:00

another movie review done by, yours truly!! x)

and the movie

featuring..

Movie: The 40 Year-Old Virgin

Ratings: 6.5 out of 10

What the movie is all about:

As you can tell from the title itself, yes it is about this guy which i can't even remember his name, is a virgin at 40 years old.. who works at this tech shop which sells digital equipments and stuff.. and when his colleagues found out that he was still a virgin, they tried many ways to "help" him and i shall not mention those ways and ideas that they made him go through.. it can get pretty graphic! what to do, it is M18 for a reason right?

well that's pretty much the whole show, which he ends up loving this widow with 3 children and yes, he "lost" the *a-hem* on his marriage day and the whole show ended in this silly bollywood style where everyone started to sing and dance on this huge piece of land with really green grass! and the show is just full of bad language, f*** here, f*** there! sigh don't really get why they have to include all these f*** words, kinda spoil the whole show, at least for me that is..

so as you can tell, i didn't really enjoy the show.. well at least it only cost $7 instead of the weekend rate of $8.50.. so i guess it was alright, but i bought the popcorns and the drink which costs another bomb.. ah nevermind, just a rare treat since i 'rarely' watch movie! hahaha 2 movies in less than 2 weeks! OK right.

So in conclusion, i would say go watch it if you are Richie Rich cos you probably would have too much money and do not know where or how to spend your huge stacks of dollar notes! BUT if you are a broke guy (like myself), i would suggest that you go spend your money on something more worthwhile like watching GOAL! yes that's it! i think the girls would probably be yawning away while watching the show! hahaha! oh yea i realized that the majority of the people who watched Goal! were mostly GUYS! how suprising right! hahaha.. :D
(girls probably will save up that small amount of money, wait till they have enough money and go SHOPPING! *does the fingers thingy like White Chicks!*)

i'm totally exhausted, both physically and mentally! but i'm pretty fit now, i never knew running could be addicitive.. not only for myself but for someone else too and i sure hope that you can keep it going too! i'll make sure you keep on running and not be fickle bout it!

time to go do push ups and some sit ups before heading to bed.

1....2.....3.....4.....5.....6..... *catches breath*

exam results!

2005-10-06T16:40:00.000-07:00

just a short entry for today..

yups i'm really happy and really thankful because i got my back results today! i'm really happy because i've finally gotten my first ever 'A' (A+ actually) in my coming to 3 years of academic studies at ngee ann..

and i'm thankful because i could not have done it by myself.. wanna thank God for just bringing through my exams and the study break too of cos, that i could study hard enough for my exams! and to those who prayed for me too, can't bear to let you guys down right? *laugh* :D:D:D

our God sure is faithful and rewards those who faithfully trusts and believes! so thank You so much!

so i've attached the results, my heart is just so thankful and so happy!

MODULE	CREDIT UNIT	GRADE
AIR-CONDITIONING & CLEANROOM TECHNOLOGY	5.00	B
ELECTIVE PROJECT PROGRAMME 1	5.00	C+
INSTRUMENTATION & CONTROL	5.00	C+
MECHANICS OF MATERIALS & MACHINES	5.00	A+
WORLD ISSUES: A SINGAPORE PERSPECTIVE	2.00	B+

thank you peeg for being there too! will pray for the results of your exams too! don't give up and just have faith because i know that He knows what is best.

time to celebrate!

GOAL ROCKS!

2005-10-05T23:45:00.000-07:00

we had another outing today.. nope not Wala Wala.. but a movie outing actually.. we went to watch GOAL.

a really good show i must say, as what charles said, "proabably the first guy flick?" and i couldn't help but to agree more.. out of 10 stars, i would say it deserves bout 8 stars?

why did i not give it 10 out of 10 stars if i enjoyed it so much right? because............

NEWCASTLE BEAT LIVERPOOL!!!!! (at least that was what happened in the show) - which will NOT happen in real soccer. Hah.

but apart from that, i totally enjoyed the show and it kinda inspired me in a sense, to train and play better soccer! yes i really love soccer more now, my leg is craving to go wear my boots and head down to a field and start kicking the ball!

so yes, Newcastle fans should go watch the show.. and see how great they are (only in the movies that is!) hahaha! well i recommend all soccer lovers/freaks/LIVERPOOL fans like myself to go watch it and be inspired as well!

LIVERPOOL STILL ROCKS!!!

a great workout today!

2005-10-05T23:40:00.000-07:00

I'm pretty glad the training regime is still going on and going strong, at least until today.. or should i say at till friday cos i will be running my 2.4km and of cos not forgetting the swim and the sun tanning that comes after that!

after running 6 rounds around the blue track, (the only track that is blue in the whole of Singapore and that is found in NgeeAnn Polytechnic!) the 3 of us (charles, alex and myself) would be rewarded by jumping into the olympic size swimming pool that is just a few minutes walk away..

the feeling is just so.... hard to describe.. it's like when you're so physically drained and your muscles can just cramp at any moment, the body which lost so much water during the run and once your whole body hits the cold (felt like icy cold) waters, it's feels just so good.. ahhh i just don't know how to describe but it is a really great and refreshing feeling..

and after just dipping in the pool, muscles all relaxed and your body just seems have cooled down from the blazing hot sun, it's time to go sun tanning!! so we just grabbed our towels (wihtout sun block mind you? we're not that "bimbo" ok! hahaha!) and headed over to those long chairs and those that you could adjust how high you want the back to be? so the 3 of us would just be sitting there, with the towels covering our face from the sun, sat there getting ourselves 'baked' for bout 20 minutes or so.. another great feeling there.

i've attached a mini movie review on the show GOAL.. so anyone who wish to watch that show or wants to get a mini insight on the show, please read ahead.. if you are one who hates to know what is gonna happen before you actually watch the show, please read it anyways! HAHA..!

enjoy. :D

still praying for your exams, peeg.

2005-10-04T14:03:00.000-07:00

great photoshop skills by charles!
-more pictures on http://theprincesdiaries.blogspot.com (charles' blog)-

it was great fun man, except that when i out with Ralph Lauren's cologne and came back with another brand of cologne, Marlboro.

sigh.

JOGGING TIME!

2005-09-26T10:30:00.000-07:00

i finally threw my procastination self aside and changed into my dri-fit tshirt, tennis shorts and a comfortable pair of shoes and went to run! i'm pretty happy that i did because it was like ages since i went to run? i mean apart from those running that i did during the soccer matches, i have yet to run for the sake of running.. wells more to train my physical fitness? and finally i did! quite happy bout it, at least it was a great start to start my "training regime" (includes lifting of mini-weights, sit-ups and running.)

so i'm looking forward to a week of non stop exercise and i may even go to school to swim too.. how exciting! right?

right.

oh i was watching tv and i saw this ad, from soo kee jewellery i think.. it's pretty sweet so i thought of just writing it here.. i can't remember what the exact words were being used but it's roughly like that..

so here goes...

"A diamond says you want to marry her but a Soo Kee diamond says you want to spend the rest of your lives together."

isn't it sweet and romantic?

well at least i thought it was.

smart blondes!

2005-09-24T15:30:00.000-07:00

i am currently at holland v, sitting at my uncle's pet shop counter, typing this entry away.. yups i managed to carry my heavy laptop to the shop because sometimes it can get really boring, just sitting there but thankfully i have the radio (98.7fm aka Perfect 10 rocks!) or else i may just get bored to death..

and yes i am tapping on some travel agency's wireless.. *huge grin*

just a few things that happened at work today and i told myself that i have to blog it down, so here i am trying to recall and see how i should phrase it..

alright, (i am not stereotyping) but here goes:

there were a few blondes, probably in their teens came into the shop.. in fact, we only just opened the shop and this group of blondes came strolling into the shop and apart from their golden hair, their "not so nice" dress sense, you could hear that they are blondes.. no and i don't mean they slang or anything, but it is what they talk about..

so they came into the shop, made quite a din bout wanting to touch the pups, literally screaming "awww so they are so cutee! i wanna hold one! what dog is that? or no, is that a cat?"

a CAT?! nah i don't blame them, they probably have not seen the world enough yet to know what is a cat or a dog.. so moving on..

so the group moved to the back of the shop, where the birds, rabbits, hamsters and the rabbits are.. ok not being gross or anything, but one of the birds died.. think it caught some cold or something and the group saw it.. so they were making another huge din (adding to the din they were orignally making), screaming, "excuse me, you've got dead bird here.. eeww how gross! is this how birds die? it is so sad.. soooo sad!!"

so my uncle told me, (ME!!! ME!!) to go and 'clear it up'.. so yes, i took this small plastic bag and proceeded to the crime scene and to do what i am called to do.. so the deceased (one of the love birds) was just lying there, so i just opened the door and with my hand in the plastic bag, just took the bird out and wrapped it inside the bag..

and that ain't the worst part.. so the group was just watching me, removing the bird out of the cage.. so they asked me, "so what do you do with the bird? is there going to be a funeral for the bird?"

so i just replied, "nope, there won't be a funeral service.. do you want to keep it?" yea it sounded rather sarcastic but it's cos they were asking not so smart questions, so i just replied them with an answer that they probably would not have a problem understanding..

ok here's the best part.. so they were talking among themselves, saying how sad and gross it is, and they even thought of hosting a funeral service for the bird! gosh.. so there was this girl among the group, think she was just saying it casually, "the bird would appear in the obituaries"

another girl replied, "what is a obituaries?"

*moment of silence*

so i was thinking to myself and i had to write this here..

THESE GIRLS ARE SO ~~dumb~~ SMART!

try saying it fast, you probably can get the meaning but if you can't, it's alright too! *sounds like darn smart right?*

alright but i have to say this or else people may say i'm sexist or thinks all blondes are dumb..

NO i don't think all blondes are dumb, i just think they have to grow out of this 'stage' where they think that this is what they will be even when they grow up.. personally, i have met smart blondes WOMEN and they never fail to impress me too! so i shall emphasize again, that i'm not stereotyping them.. this is probably the minority, i hope.

ok time to get ready to pack up and head to church for choir!

study hard alright? you don't have to be a student the world wants you to be, but to be a student that God wants you to be.. that is probably more worth to be one yea? jia you and don't give up! i'm sure you will understand those stuff soon!

off to church.

2005-09-21T01:05:00.000-07:00

today marks the start of my one and a half month holiday.. well it is supposed to start yesterday but i officially felt like i was on holiday only today.. today was really slack and for the first time, i'm really proud to say that I HAVE DONE NOTHING! hahaha first time hearing someone saying that right? yups me too.

i was supposed to write down my long weekend huh? i shall try to see what i can remember since my brain was practically on holiday too!

i shall just write bout our tracting session for vbs on sunday:

so yes, i was the leader for my group (consists of : Lynn, Rebecca, Grace, Timothy, Chung Hei, Christopehr, Ivan, Calvin and myself) and we were assigned to the nearby flats at Kim Seng area.. so when we reached those blocks of flats, we distributed the flyers and divied ourselves into groups so that we can finish the blocks faster..

so we went from floor to floor, door to door, household to household, telling them where we come from and what we are here for (inviting their children/grand children from 4 to 10 years old) to join our VBS, to sing songs, play games, making art and crafts and even a grand performance night for the parents/grandparents to watch.. sounds easy? you're so wrong!

so to start off, we have to go to the door and press the door bell and just wait there right? so rebecca and i were just standing right outside this flat and our eyes were just focused on the "door viewer/hole", where someone from inside can see who is outside right? yes so we were standing there, because there is light from the background so we can tell if anyone is there at the door yes? so when suddenly the hole is being blocked, it means that someone is looking through the door viewer and we were expecting the door to be opened but that does not seem to be the case for some flats.. the hole just remained black, which means the person whoever he/she is, is practically just staring at us! that is how freaky lah, we are just standing there staring at the door hole and the person on the other side is just staring at us through the very same hole we are staring at! scary eh? it sure is creepy, so we just left one of the flyers there and moved on quickly..

but overall, tracting has been rather good i guess, managed to talk to a few other flat owners and passed the registration forms to them.. so just hope that God will move them so that they will sign up their kids for this VBS! most of the occupants there were the older folks and alot of them could not speak chinese, mostly hokkien so we had a bit of problems communicating with them but we sure do hope that they too will be reached too!

yups so that was sunday. (and of cos soccer which was the entry before this.)

oh and yesterday(monday) was my medical checkup.. i decided to drive there because i do not know how to take bus in.. so yup i sent both my sis and mom to their respective schools before driving to CMPB.. i managed to reach there at bout 8.05am when my appointment time was 8.30am.. so to cut the long story short, after all those silly tests which i have no idea why it is for, i got into PES A.. it is nothing much, just means that i am physically fit for all vocations in the army which is a good thing too cos i am aimng to get into Officer Cadet School which only accept Pes A personals.. so we'll see yea?

the whole checkup took bout 5 hours (when it is supposed to take 4 hours or less) cos they had this server breakdown in the morning which got repaired very soon after.. they made us do this computerised test which tests your IQ and also your math skills too.. it was super draining cos i was so super tired, didn't get enough rest from soccer the day before and only slept 6 hours.. so i was practically yawning and stoning but yet have to answer all those questions under a certain time! but i'm really glad it is over! so i went back home and i took a "nap" which lasted for at least 5 hours? haha yups, that shows how tired i was..

i just love to sleep, doesn't everyone? but it seems to me that the more i sleep, the more i get tired! i slept half the day away, watched a korean movie, played computer games for the other half! ahh yes i am so enjoying this.. haha i shall stop before someone starts throwing at me things because i made that someone so jealous! hehe.. :p

gotta go school tmr to meet up with one of my project group mates.. so tmr will be less slack comparing to today.. gonna start to train for my physical fitness next week, which means no more late night snacks, "lesser" suppers and have to watch my diet!

gonna go back to what i love to do most, sleep.

i am still praying for you and for your upcoming exams! remember to send me your timetable! night peeg! x)

WE ARE VICTORIOUS!

2005-09-18T23:30:00.000-07:00

today is a real good and tiring sunday, not the same as the past sundays i must say..

yups i feel really happy, kinda feeling that feeling of being in "holiday" in a sense? hahaha! alright, i know of others who still have to drag their feet and sleepy minds to school!

i seem to have alot of things to say cos today seems extra long, loads of activities but i'm just too tired to type all the things out! so i shall just type the main and the most happy activity out and that is SOCCER!!!!!!!

yups so today we had our rematch from the last one which was about 3 weeks ago? yea around there.. kengleong came up to me last week and issued a challenge to rematch against our youths and you know me, i'm those who is willing to take up any challenges right? hahahaha right.

so yes i agreed and started to ask around to see who are the ones who could make it.. thankfully we had enough, actually more than enough but i can do with more people than less?

the match started at bout 4.30pm, cos tracting ended at bout 3.40pm or so.. that's why we started later than the supposed time which was 4pm.. i even invited 2 of my classmates from school to join my team cos i thought we were running low on human resources but it turnes out that we had 13 youths and the adults only had bout 7 or 8.. so yes there was a shuffle and transfer of the players!

i shall just summarise the two halves of the game:

First Half:
Game started off really well, pitch was really muddy because of the heavy downpour early in the morning and yes, people started to get really dirty and being splashed by those piles of liquidish mud! yes it sounds pretty disgusting actually but it is actually rather cooling do you know that? bet you don't right? ok moving on..

the adults and the youths really gave it their all and it sure was a tough fight.. so the half ended we leading 3-0.. (scorers were: me, lemuel and arthur) and we ended on a high note, feeling very confident of our play on the pitch.. could really see a difference of how we played comparing to how we played in the last one..

Second Half:
The adults got rather hyped up as uncle John (their star keeper) joined in the team and they, being so proud and confident, told us to restart the half with the score at 0-0 and just told us that we won the first half.. so no sportsmanship right? haha kidding! so yes we agreed, knowing that we would do even better in the second half and teach them a lesson that they deserve, and that is to NEVER underestimate the youths!

so yes it was a really close fight again, more of like a roller coaster ride? because we managed to score one and they drew back level pretty soon after.. after which they took the lead due to some mistakes made by the defenders, we started to trail and we fought back really hard and got that equaliser that we wanted..

here's the turning point of the game.. the adults decided to call for full time because they were feeling really tired but we challenged them to just play another 5 minutes so that we can truly determine a winner and not just leave it as a draw.. so the youth team, it's like this sudden burst of adrenaline and everyone started to go fight for this last goal and guess what? the youth team managed to get that last goal and....... WE WERE VICTORIOUS! hahaha it had never felt so good before! it was truly a great sense of achievement!? i guess in way because we really had fun and great fellowship among the adults and the youths and my friends really enjoyed the game as well!

so really thank God for everything.. well victory comes with a price and yes, my calfs started to get cramps and even when i was driving back, i had those sudden pain in my right ankle but thank God that i managed to reach home safely without a major cramp or else i can't imagine what would have happened!

medical checkup first thing in the morning at 8am! great start to my holidays huh? haha yes i need to get my sleep now.. oh yes, happy birthday to elda! yups went dinner with vania and daniel to harbourfron.t(pastamania)

thank God for a great day and i'm really happy today!

well i don't have a reason not to be right? x)

good night.

HOLIDAYS ARE HERE!!!

2005-09-16T23:28:00.000-07:00

Alright.

The moment that everyone has been waiting for..... *drum rolls*

THE HOLIDAYS ARE HERE!!!

IT IS TIME TO PARTY!

haha alright that was really crazy! yups the holidays are finally here.. or should i say officially here? yes they sure are here and honestly it doesn't really feel like i'm on holiday? cos firstly everyone is still in school and it seems that i'm the only 'extra' on holiday, having nothing to do.. (at the moment that is.)

no other reasons already cos that is the main reason! i am the only one on holiday! sigh.. :(

but still....
yes i am so gonna enjoy it but i think i still gotta go back school to continue on my project, borrow books from the library to research and stuff.. i guess the main difference is that i don't have to wake up that early and can sleep really late? and just put all my notes and tutorials aside! time to go borrow PS2 or X-box to play! whahaha ok kidding! i'm not that crazy over it anyway..

today's paper was pretty good in a way i guess? almost everything went well (*note the bold "almost"*) because most of the questions were pretty easy but just for this specific question which i was struggling pretty long and yet not remember how to do it? so i was just practically staring at the question, trying to recall the different formulas that can fit but seems that none that i thought of could fit! urgh so i just finally scribbled some formulas, hoping to get a few marks here and there.. well i knew i gave it my all and i'm pretty happy about it just that i can probably kiss my 'A' away! just leaving the results to God now..

AND TO ENJOY MY HOLIDAYS! hahaha yayyy!!! :D

must start to plan my activities during the holidays so that i can get the most out of it.. i wanna make this a fruitful holiday.. some things i wanna do is to pick up jazz guitar? and also to play the piano again.. oh yes, to complete the follow up session with nicholas cos i haven't been meeting up with him since my common tests cos of the busy schedule and all..

yups that's all for now! what a long day today.. need to get some sleep and gotta work tmr! here i come pups!!!

following is extracted from littlebingbing.blogspot.com (shaobin's bloggy)

"
hey zhi yong, thanks for accompanying me to queensway shopping centre today... very long nvr go outing together liao... i like the chit chat on the bus today... "wa!!! see there.... (conversation continues)..haha..." so crazy...

okay.. zhi yong suggested that i shld not post those stuff right here unless i wanna let everyone knows abt how i feel towards.... ok.. i shall stop i hope...=/lalala.. so happy today... "

reply to his entry:

no prb bings! it sure was fun hanging out once again man! and yes those funny moments when we were talking then suddenly got distracted by *a-hem* (hint: fairfield methodist?*) and shopping around queensway shopping center.. we have to go and eat our steamboat again, at marina SOUT!! SOUT SOUT SOUT! hahaha ok shall stop making fun of that word! more of making fun of the person who said it! heh.. yes Marina South steamboat soon! with jack and the rest of the HaiBaos too! alright shall stop here.. gotta go sleep soon!

it's the START of the holidays!

pretty excited. :D

one day to holiday!

2005-09-16T02:10:00.000-07:00

here i am, blogging away before my exams! just like what i did two days ago when i was blogging before my ICont paper..

i just gotta do this..

so here goes.....

COUNTDOWN TO THE START OF THE HOLIDAYS:

14 HOURS !!!!!

(plus and minus depending what time you're reading it. :D cos my paper ends at 4pm which is the start of my holidays!)

well actually my holidays started like how long ago? just that this is the official! yeahh!!! :D can you sense my excitement already? haha! :P sorry for those who are still gonna school.. your turn will ~~SOON~~ come! so hang in there alright?

yups as you can see, i'm pretty happy yes? honestly, i have yet to decide on what i'm gonna do with it but i'm going to go for my medical checkup at CMPB next monday morning for my national service enlistment.. what a great start but it is the holidays nonetheless!

i'm pretty confident for tmr's paper.. mainly cos i have already passed the module (calculated the percentage that i obtained for the module throughout the sem which includes tests, tutorials, attendance, common tests and lab assignments) but still, this is my rare chance to get my first ever "grade A" in my 3 years of studies at ngee ann!

alright, need to get and my rest and going to school real early to study somemore with shaobin (my rival to getting the Top Student Award) and yes i am gonna beat him! i just know i will! hahaha just kidding! he's a real great brother man, teaching me stuff that i do not understand and also to make things fair right? hahah alright!

off to bed.

*dreams of my 'A'*

shall turn dreams into reality.

studying at ACJC

2005-09-14T00:10:00.000-07:00

oh yes, so before i forget.. well it is rather random i have to admit.. (oh no! now i'm becoming so random too! this is bad bad bad.. *shakes head* hahaha.. :p)

>I STUDIED AT A.C.J.C!!<

(angolo chinese junior college)

*note: it is AT, not in. please note the difference. thank you. (:

not exactly the best of places to study but i would say it is alright i guess.. the benches were ~~rather~~ old and squeaky when we sat on it and the tables were heavily "decorated" by the students with their writings and drawings! but other than that, it is a pretty condusive place to study..

i sure don't think neither charles or myself looks like an AC student or alumni students for that matter! i have to admit it was rather fun crashing and studying there.. we sure had fun!

ok back to studies now! first paper in less than 9 hours and i'm gonna go mug somemore! hopefully i can get like 4 hours of sleep at least? i will try! ok mugging time!

mug mug mug mug mug..........

icont stress

2005-09-13T02:55:00.000-07:00

urgh just can't get to sleep now.. it's like 2.30am now and here i am typing this entry..

i'm tired but just can't sleep and i don't know why.. quite irritated by it but i don't seem to have much of a choice.. my brain is just so 'active' and i don't exactly know why.. maybe it is the exam stress? hmm i don't think so cos i don't usually get much stress.. ok maybe the day before the exam but.. arrgh forget it..

2 more days to exams.. eh wait, no.. it is 1 more day to exam since it is already tuesday now! *starts to panic* ok, taking deep breaths now.. breathe in...... breathe out... breathe in..... ok so much better now.. there are still quite alot of stuff that i still do not know how to do and my exam is on wednesday! the past year papers are so difficult to do but the revision paper is so much easier.. what if the easier question does not come out for the paper and what if i do not know how to do? rahh!! think i should go study more after i blog since i can't really get to sleep! making full use of my time and maybe i can sleep better after i study since it can get really boring? killing two birds with one stone. cool.

today's weather was really bad, especially in the evening time.. not exactly the best of weather to study in but i guess we don't really seem to have a choice.. so i picked up charles at queenstown mrt and we went to grab dinner at the hawker center nearby.. it started to pour really heavily and that is not the worst part.. super blinding and fast lightnings along with super loud and deafening thunders started to visit where we were.. and it ain't exactly a very nice feeling too, i was practically covering my eyes so that i won't see those flashing lightnings but everytime i remove my hands, *zoom* flashes of blinding lightnings causes me to cover my eyes again and it is really scary.. it just seemed so near because you can practically see the lightning, just as if it is right in front of you and it just missed you by this few meters? the thought of getting striked by lightning sure scares me! i'm sure it scares everyone too! so we had to walk quite abit to the library so that we can study there and we were like walking super fast hoping that the lightning would not strike us? and we were like singing to ourselves (one of the line which goes "cos it's you and me...." by lifehouse) whenever we see the flashes of lightning and don't ask me why we sang that song! it is just so funny when we think about it.. haha alright, enough bout the stupid singing and the bad bad weather!

well i'm thankful that i'm still alive and well as i type this entry.. i'm still scared of thunderstorms! best place to be in is under on your bed and under your blanket, with your favorite bolster or soft toy (a penguin soft toy cos it is cute and cuddly? haha..) and just hide under it.. such a cosy and warm feeling!

i think i shall get back to my books! so that i can sleep soon! good way to get yourself to sleep when you just can't.. back to my books! and with james blunt on my playlist!

i love the night.

2005-09-10T15:30:00.000-07:00

james blunt songs are really nice to listen to but i find them rather similar? as in the tracks are rather the same, melody and rhythm wise..but i'm not complaining cos i really enjoy listening to the songs.. just that some of the lyrics just don't make any sense? but the music is really really good i have to say.

i don't know why i'm feeling so down suddenly, it just struck me somehow earlier when both jason and andy were over at my place.. honestlyi'm not really sure what actually happened but i was just feeling so angry? urgh i don't know.. all i know is i really do need more sleep cos i haven't beengetting much sleep in the past week.. have been waking up really early to go to school to study or i gotta wake up to send my sis to school..well i don't have to be doing that anymore cos mum is coming back later tonight and i'm really relieved that she is coming back too! i reallymissed my mom and her being around in the house, yes of course what i missed most is her cooking! i have yet to have home cooked foodsince like last thursday when she cooked for me and my sis! must pray that they will come back safely and i'm sure the seed has been plantedover in Northern Thailand and pray that God will use His love to shower upon the people who comes to hear His Word.. pray that the peoplewill believe and accept Christ into their lives and to share with their friends too!

exams in like a few more days? not exactly the most prepared, starting to feel the stress now i guess.. was feeling really panicky this morning cos i just realised how much stuff i actually don't know but thankfully i managed to understand some of the stuff now.. i'm just trying to crampas much facts and formulas into my already packed brain and soon the storage is running out of space already.. i have enough things in my small brain already.. quite amazing right? our brain can actually hold so much things which we never thought it could? and while typing this entry,the brain is actually working (running out of 'battery' soon.. heh) and it is just so amazing lah! i'm running out of words to say.

my sis is like using skype now, talking to her friend on msn and i'm listening to my Creative Muvo mp3 player.. yups james blunt songs.. just verycomfortable and soothing to just listen and i may soon just fall asleep on my lap top? i sure hope NOT!
i so hate what i'm going through right now.. i think i shall go sleep on it and hope that everything will be better tomorrow? sigh i don't know.. yea life seems to have lost its meaning.. it is like a daily downhill degeneration of what life actually means and it is still going down and down and down... and down..

now i truly know how hard it is to find joy in doing something? come to think of it, i don't seem to remember anything that brings me joy or maybe there isn't? i am thinking really hard but the harder i think, the more it does not come. think i should start to find some joy in life first.

wondering where i should start from?

i need to sleep.. sometimes studying too much does not seem like a good thing after all.. think i just am too panicky and starting to think too much. Am i?

tired day

2005-09-09T19:55:00.000-07:00

a sudden burst of adrenaline, well kinda.

feeling rather accomplished right now actually.. i single handedly (emphasizes on the SINGLE) washed the car. yups i sure did! well it was rather dirty, stains here and there and lots of fingerprint stains too.. well it is kinda my duty because i had the car to myself for the whole of last week.. well almost the whole week since last Saturday when mom left and time really files! my mom will be back tmr! really relieved but yet there's a side of me that i would like to have it longer? yes maybe it is the car but it really makes me really feel so 'independent' in a sense? have to settle most of my lunches and dinners outside, be a driver who sends my sis to school in the morning (when i don't have to wake up SO early!) but i enjoy waking up early too.. i kinda agree to the saying 'the early bird gets the worm'.. haha right.

this week has been rather slack i must say.. yup even though this is supposedly the 'STUDY' week but half the time is spent like slacking lah! but thankfully i managed to cover most for one of the papers (MMM) and ICONT is still undergoing immense studying.. that's the problem with not listening in class i guess! sigh. thankfully today's studying was rather fruitful, thanks to hotbun (shao bao), oops i meant shao bin who helped me alot and also mr lim who was there to provide answers to our queries! but still gotta go revise more or else soon everything i will forget! i am how forgetful lah. sigh...

it's been a great week nonetheless and it can be rather exciting without having mom for a week! really ok! if any one begs to differ, please let me know alright? you have to go through it and maybe you will have a different view on it? haha who knows!

i personally find it really hard to like 'not give up but yet not pursue'? urgh i don't know, just like mixed emotions and thoughts.. this really matters alot to me and it sometimes, i feel rather sad and hurt, so helpless that i can't do anything to help? because i really do want to help but i guess some matters i just can't help in.. just need to get that in my head, yes still trying very hard to pray.. still trying to unload this briefcase, filled with problems to Him who is willing to carry it all for me.. but sometimes it is just so hard to completely just trust and believe that He is in control of all things, i just want to be in control too as well but that's not really possible..

i'm really tired now, don't exactly know what i'm thinking right now.. woke up at bout 7.30am this morning to go meet charles at clementi mrt and to go to school to study.. but still i thank God for a great day and a fruitful studying session. (like finally? hah.)

still got worship practice later for the mooncake festival for church at 9pm later1 think i'm gonna go take a rest to prepare for later! yawn.

a very thin line seperating the two. which of the two will you choose?

a really good question which i'm constantly asking myself.

seeking the answer.

bye mom!

2005-09-03T16:00:00.000-07:00

"i'm leaving on the jet place.. don't know when i'll be back again....."

haha nice song! a typical song when someone is leaving to somewhere far far away huh? well sent off my mom to the airport earlier this morning.. tried to get some sleep but ended up struggling to sleep and thus, didn't manage to sleep much.. my brain just can't switch off for a moment.. you know when you actually start to sleep and that is when you have to wake up that feeling? man it really sucks! but i don't have much of a choice but thank God i managed to have the energy to drive to and fro safely, in one peace piece.

yups mom will be gone for one week.. quite an exciting feeling i must admit.. suddenly i feel i have this responsibility to take good care of the house, and more importantly my sis.. but i know God is watching over us, wherever we are.

oh oh and i wrote mom this letter before i "slept".. and i wrote in chinese, CHINESE! haha! i was kinda struggling on thinking of how to put words together and that is not really the hardest part! the hardest part is to actually write it out and i have not like written chinese in like how long? this will be my third year that i have not like write chinese lah! but i see if you are good at it, no matter how long you have not touched chinese the standard will sure still be there, maybe just abit rusty? but yay i managed to write this letter to mom in chinese! feeling quite accomplished after writing it, slipped it into her bible so that she can read it whenever she finds it! hehe secret secret! :p

anyway so after the airport, i went back to get more rest? and ended up not sleeping much too, same sucky feeling again! when i get the hang of sleeping, my alarm goes off to wake me up! sigh! work was alright, thankfully nothing much to do and i was just stoning next to the radio.. thankfully there were funny messages that kept on coming in to entertain me and to trigger my mind so that i won't fall asleep? haha rightt..

gotta go pick up sis who is at bukit timah plaza now, playing pool or something before heading down to youth choir to do some vbs stuff! hope that you will join us whenever you can.. will you be helping out at vbs? my sis sure needs all the help she can get! i'm supposed to come back early to rest but i decided to blog anyway! will be heading to cine later to find charles who is working at xiejun's shop.. give him a pleasant suprise! hahaa..

hope to come back and really have a good sleep to prepare for a long day tmr at church!

ciao.

starting to miss mom already!
praying for the team.

STMT

2005-09-02T22:30:00.000-07:00

my mum and a few others from church are gonna leave for Northern Thailand tomorrow morning for their short term mission trip[STMT].. (8.45am flight) yup they're gonna be there for a week and i know that God will be watching over them.. so no worries! (:

so gonna study abit now before going to sleep, gotta wake up at bout 5.30am to send my mom to the airport.. and it's gonna be a week without my mom! well it sounds pretty exciting but i know i'm gonna miss her anyways! i decided to stay home today to accompany my mom and collected a cheque for my sister's bursary award at raffles place.. truly, He is One who provides!

will keep the STMT team in prayer as they go preach His word to the people over in Northern Thailand and pray that He will reveal Himself among the team and among the people that they are gonna reach out to.. take care and i know God will be all of them!

looking back at the past

2005-08-31T14:15:00.000-07:00

-true meaning of the word 'happy'
(taken from www.dictionary.com) -

:Characterized by good luck; fortunate.
:Enjoying, showing, or marked by pleasure, satisfaction, or joy.
:Being especially well-adapted; felicitous: a happy turn of phrase.
:Cheerful; willing: happy to help.

hmm right.. i guess that's what 'H-A-P-P-Y' does mean but how bout HOW to be happy? or should i rephrase my question to : "How to truly be happy?" or or "How to be happy truly?" ok that don't exactly make much sense here! i think my lack of sleep is causing me to think senseless or rubbish things! i slept at bout 2am yesterday i was woken up by this car alarm then was so loud and repetitve (at 5am!) and it just rang non stop.. and it was how loud can? and it doesn't help that my bed was just next to a multi storey carpark! yups so thanks to the alarm, i got out of bed and that 'yi yeoh yi yeoh' sound keeps on recurring in my head so yes i was walking around the house, to my mom's room who woke up (probably cos of the loud car alarm as well?) and i was just complaining to her that the owner should just go and switch it off! and spare the few blocks of resisdents that are probably stuffing their ears with like cotton wool or hiding their heads under their thick pillows! urgh but thankfully, the alarm did come to a stop and i was like shouting and telling my mom, "the alarm has stopped! PEACE finally." so yes i went back to bed and that was like about 6.05am already? and my sis just got out of bed, and i am struggling to get back to bed! wow what an interesting sight. haha sigh.

as i look back on certain things, honestly i do not regret anything that has happened.. yea that are both fond and not so nice memories but i have never regretted anything and IF i were given a choice whether i would choose the same path or not, (i know i will never be given that choice anyway) i would sure to not to change anything.. even when i start to recall or try to think about where we would be if all 'these' had not happen, i'm really stuck and wondering to myself what would have changed? it's a pretty scary thought, at least for me.

ok going back to the point of being happy.

this is weird, not my normal way of blogging.. hahah.. well doesn't really matter. i am quite certain if i take a poll with the theme of 'Who Wants To Be Happy' and i'm pretty sure that 99.9% would be a firm YES and i'm not sure who that minority would be, probably those who actually thinks that committing suicide is the way to solve problems or to be happy? i'm not too sure bout that.. well that's another matter but it is indeed sad, especially for those who lost their loved ones due to poor handling ways of solving problems?

i doubt there is THE way to be happy, it sure is very subjective and depends on individual.. some can be still be happy even in their problems and some can't even be happy even when things are going so well for them? urgh i don't know what i'm thinking now.. i think i need to go get more sleep, lunch first! heh.

i think i should stop my rambling now but i still wanna say something first.. people always say 'time heals wound', time heals this time heals that.. time can change how one feel or think.. but does it? maybe it does, but i'm not sure if whether i'm willing to change or simply to just let it go because it just means so much to me and the part of "sometimes the only way is the most painful way?", it really applies to me alot because it just do.. it may sound a bit extreme but it feels like a part of you is missing in a sense, yes that emptiness will be there.. so the question that i have been asking myself is 'how do you fill that gap of emptiness in someone's heart?'

ok lunch time. and back to more studying! sigh..

life is so interesting huh? haha alright i shall stop!

thanks for being just you.

soccer

2005-08-30T02:50:00.000-07:00

*yawn* it is 2.30am now..

started to study for my exams today, quite a good start i must say but still gotta revise more cos i can't seem to remember what i studied before.. was struggling a whole lot just now, trying to remember how to answer the questions that i got full marks for in my common test.. my memory is truly failing me.. sigh..

not only my memory, but it seems like my body seems to be more fragile and weak, comparing to last time.. or does my body actually hates me now?! i sure hope not.. well soccer yesterday was really fun, just pure fellowship and playing soccer.. yesterday's turnout was better than what i expected.. and we managed to have a full KPRBC soccer match.. the Adults of KPRBC VS the Youths of KPRBC! well the adults didn't have a full 11 squad so they had a few youths to make up the rest of the team.. the adult team (comprises of mostly 'uncles' like grace lee's dad (uncle john), adam's dad (uncle johnny), ian's dad (uncle keng wah), uncle keng leong, meng hong, william mak, (my ss teacher), andrew goh, (i meant pastor goh), hairul and last but not least, khin meng.. these are the adults that played..:)

they held up really well and it was really fun playing with the adults.. the only advantage we had over them was we had abit more stamina and maybe run a bit faster but other than that, it was sure a good fight.. there sure were lots of suprises because at least for myself, i have yet to see any of the adults play soccer or even run on the field.. and they sure are still fit i can tell you that! never never underestimate the adults, that is one hard and well learnt lesson that i can take back from the match.. the game ended in 2-2 and it was the first time that the adults and the youths actually get to mix with one another, and also to know each other more too in the process.. i sure can't wait for the rematch and that we (the youths) have to win them the next time! whahaha!

thank God for the great time of fellowship and great weather too so that we can play soccer! :D

last wisp class

2005-08-23T23:54:00.000-07:00

aww..

isn't this sweet? hahaha.. from the left : Lawrence (WISP Lecturer), Charles, Jun Hong, Xie Jun and Me! today was the last class for WISP (World Issues - Singapore Perspective) and yes it is indeed rather sad that all those fun and laughter had to come to an end..

well i have to say that i totally enjoyed his class, learnt alot from what he shared and he gave us alot of advices on our futures when we look for jobs and stuff.. well he ended the class with quite a high note i must say, leaving us in deep thoughts and pondering on what he said which actually does make some sense! at least it does to me.. haha..

anyways thanks alot Lawrence! for making those jokes about FMS and hopefully we did not disappoint you in any ways man! it was really my honour to be in your class! *you better give me good grades for this module yea?!* haha! :D

so anyway after class, it was pouring and i had to run quite abit of distance to get to the car.. charles, xie jun and junhong were going for a dim sum buffet at harbourfront whereas i was going to city hall to get the church guitars fixed and stringed.. so they went with me to city hall (penisula shopping centre) and they asked me to go with them for the buffet.. so well yea i did go along, was at this chinese restaurant at harbourfront and it was quite new i think.. a pretty nice place i must say since i have yet to step inside the shopping centre.. the buffet was rather good, could order alot of dim sum cos it was an ala-carte buffet or some sort.. yea so we ate and had our fill there but i wonder if that actually is worth $15? haha well..

thank God for a great day nonetheless!

i'm still praying.

night.

Trust His Heart

2005-08-21T11:30:00.000-07:00

wow.

time really seemed to pass really quickly for some reasons.. week in week out, we go to school, work or whatsoever.. when you are doing something, time just seems to slip by really quickly.. even when you are not doing anything, time nevertheless tick away by the second, and then minutes and hours.. i think i'm just feeling really "pink" now.. others get monday blues and i get pink, how great. well the colours doesn't pretty much mean anything i guess, it's just probably someone dreading to start another long week, either with loads of school work/tests, facing your superiors again and stuff.. but hey, it is a 5 day week nonetheless.. but why does it seem so far and so long for the weekend to come? hmm i wonder why too.. anyway sunday seems just like another day which should not be the case because this day is meant to just 'rest' (break away from work and usual routines?) and just focus on God.. i'm just thinking to myself: 'God is far more important than anything else and we only spend only one day to worship Him whereas we work/study EVERYDAY which is far not important comparing to our God?' just a random thought. God loves to use the most unskilled, unworthy, 'think they are useless' people to show how great He is.. well He loves to do that because He can! i mean it shows how powerful and how magnificent He is, at least to me that is.. i want to thank God for worship today.. even though it didn't really go that well as what we wanted it to be but what is more important is that the congregation will be ministered and will be able to worship Him.. i would say today's worship was "different"? in a sense it is because the songs that KumChiew chose were rather new and quite 'happening' i must say, rather challenging too.. not just for the congregation but even for the worship team as we try to play it ourselves.. yes it is a struggle but because we know we are doing it for Him, everything will go well.. i would say our church is still rather conventional, rather rigid but that is not a bad thing..

well He showed me alot through worship today, reminded me how good He is and i was thinking bout when things don't go our way or felt that this is not the right way and stuff, He is always always in control no matter what! our simple human mind cannot comprehend what God has in plan for us and the best solution is to simply believe and trust, waiting for Him to unravel His will and plan in our lives and that excited me sometimes, to see what God actually has planned, specifically for individuals! truly, wow.

we had a combine class during sunday school and today's lesson was on Daniel (chapter 7) and it tells us of Daniel's dreams, bout the 4 beasts (which represents 4 kingdoms) and prophecies that is/has been fulfilled.. alot of questions are churning in my head, like who is the anti-Christ and stuff and you just want to be 'prepared' in a sense.. just so many questions about the end times, what's gonna happen, who's gonna conquer who etc... but the comforting fact is that at the end of it, it is God who still reigns on His throne and He will defeat all those beasts, thrown them into the lakes of fire and be destroyed.. and that is when Jesus Christ will come again and yes, it is time to be judged, to give an account to God of our lives here on earth.. i personally learned alot through today's sermon.. emphasizes on our relationship with God, not just a religion or something to believe in.. meanwhile, i want to deepen this relationship and truly know Christ, love and be more like Him.. it's gonna be a daily struggle but we know that the devil is being threatened and it trembles when we pray.. how cool is that. how powerful prayer is! awesome! haha..

gonna start another new week, pray that it will be a fruitful week.. want to start afresh with God and really just trust and have faith in Him.. this song really spoke to me and the lyrics are really meaningful.. so comforting and yet so true.. Thank You for being who you are, O God.

Amen.

All things work for our good
Though sometimes
We can't see how they could
Struggles that break our hearts in two
Sometimes blind us to the truth.
Our Father know what's best for us
His ways are not our own
So, when your pathway grows dim
And you just can't see Him
Remember He's still on the throne

God is too wise to be mistaken
God is too good to be unkind
So when you don't understand
When you don't see His plan
When you can't trace His hand,
Trust His Heart

He sees the Master plan
He holds the future in His hands
So don't live as those who have no hope
All our hope is found in Him
We walk in present knowledge
But He sees the first and the last
And like a tapestry
He's weaving you and me
To someday be just like Him

God is too wise to be mistaken
God is too good to be unkind
So when you don't understand
When you don't see His plan
When you can't trace His hand,
Trust His Heart

stupid cough!

2005-08-18T13:30:00.000-07:00

i hate cough! the cough is killing my throat..

sigh.

here i am, resting at home and not in school.. supposed to be in school today and i missed the viva test.. i just couldn't sleep yesterday night, was coughing throughout the night and now my throat is so dry and rather sore too.. and my back really hurts when i turn, not sure if it because of the cough or anything.. went to the doctors at bout 10.15am and told him about my situation.. he said it might be that i was coughing in the wrong position and thus my muscle was stretched.. i didn't know that there is a 'correct' way to cough so he prescribed some medicine and gave me 2 days of MC.. so that i can get some rest at home.. *sigh*

i was practically awake throughout the night, finding it quite difficult to fall asleep.. regular coughs and the pain along my back made me awake throughout my sleep.. really pray that i can recover soon, still gotta play for this sunday's worship.. i'm pretty excited bout the worship because Kum Chiew told me what songs we would be playing and it sure sounds pretty exciting.. so that's why i pray that i can recover soon so that i can give my 100% to the worship!

i think i'm going to get a rest, hopefully i can sleep for an hour so to replenish my lack of sleep yesterday.. i just hate to fall sick, guess that shows how weak a person can be.. no one can ever know when they are going to fall sick and some may just die peacefully in their sleep.. not that i'm being negative or anything, just life is so uncertain and our lives here on earth is short and we should just make full use of our lives here before spending our lives in Heaven, with our God in eternity! no more sickness, no more pain, no more sadness/anguish.. just plain joy and worshipping God for ever! wow that is such a beautiful image! thank God for everything! ((:

a follower of God

2005-08-17T21:34:00.000-07:00

*cough cough*

urgh i just hate to get cough.. or should i say i just hate to get sick! there are so many things you can't do when you are sick.. for example: you can't eat what you feel like so that you can recover faster, can't stay in an air-conditioned room for long because it makes my throat itchy and causes me to cough even more but i guess the 'good' part of being sick is that you have an excuse to sleep more! well not really an excuse because the medicine i eat causes me to get drowsy so thus i get to go and get more rest.. yea i have to agree sleeping is indeed a bliss! :D but anyways, i would rather NOT get sick! i want to get well soon but this virus seems to like me alot.. (it's the first time i have not recovered for cough for such a long time.) if i remembered correctly, i started to cough alot on national day and a week has passed and i have not yet recovered! sigh. does my immune system hate me? i sure hope not. *feeds immune system with cough mixture* there you go!

i'm coughing alot as i type this entry.. the throat starts to feel quite painful and sore.. sure hope that i can recover soon! oh well, life goes on normal.. oh and last week i went to corrinne may's concert! wow it was really good, not the FANTASTIC kind but just really really good! we (paul, jason lee and his school friend, sam) went to esplanade for "Safe In A Crazy World" concert by Corrinne May! it's her first performance in Singapore and i'm so glad i managed to get the tickets before it ran out! at first we wanted to get the student price tickets but ran out already.. so we got the adult price tickets which were $38.. well at least i thought it was worth it.. *laugh* she played most of the songs from her second album and a few from her first album too and guess what? she can play the guitar too! i was quite suprised when she left her grand piano and went to pick up the guitar and started plucking the song 'Mr Beasley' and she dedicated the songs to the guys who were at the concert.. well i'm pretty sure everyone enjoyed the song! so she was going through most of her songs and when she said "and my last song...", everyone was like "awwww.. :( " and when she left the stage, everyone started to clap even louder, hoping for an encore.. and after awhile, she came walking back out again.. started to play more songs (one of them was Close To You which was not in her albums) and i have to say i was really impressed! and the best part was she encored TWICE! yups she walked out once again and the people started to clap even louder than the first time! so that's why i guess the ticket was really worth it, in a sense. haha!

hmm alright, enough bout the concert.. back to reality now.. oh my major exams in 3 weeks time! yups even though i only have 2 papers to study for, one of the papers (ICONT) is really tough and i don't really understand alot of it too.. whereas the other paper (MMM), i already passed the module without even taking the final paper.. but i still want to get my A for that paper! i'm gonna start studying probably next week, catch up with whatever i do not know from ICONT and learning how to do the tutorials i guess.. my project is going alright i think, just left with the final panel presentation for this semester next monday.. and my group will be the first to present next week! yea feeling quite nervous cos not really ready for the presentation yet but will try to work on it asap.. 3 weeks to exams, which can only mean one thing!!!....

4 more weeks to holidays! *cheers* yayyy!!!

haha i can hardly wait for my holidays to come..! well i'm not sure if it is gonna be much of a holiday cos i heard from my friends that we have to go back to school everyday to continue on our projects! sigh! and we are only given like only 5 days of 'OFF days'? urgh i sure hope not! alright gotta go back and work more on my project now!

ps: i have to admit it is not easy to be a follower of God and yet be a student who wants to do well exams and get good results! it's not gonna be easy to strike a balance between the two but my prayer would be that when we choose to follow God, He would too make us into a good student and that He knows what is best for us.. i'm still praying.

FOP

2005-08-08T16:00:00.000-07:00

yesterday has gotta be one of the nights that i doubt i will ever forget.. (at least for the time being.) there are so many things that i can NEVER ever imagine myself doing but i did it all in one night! well it's not a bad thing but i guess it's just probably, not 'me'? or maybe it is one side that i have yet to imagine myself doing but yes i did it nonetheless yesterday night! it has truly been a great experience i must say.. there are so many things i want to say but i'm not sure if i can remember every single part of it.. but i will try my utmost hardest to see if i can cover most of what happened yesterday..

well to start off, yesterday(sunday) is one of the longest sundays i have ever been through.. (from 8am when i reached church till bout 12.35am when i reached back home) so if i didn't calculate wrongly, that is about 16hours and 35mins? or somewhere around there and the best part was what i didn't really get much sleep on saturday night but i guess God really works wonders, through our fragile and easily tired bodies.. first half of the day was spent in church, morning service following by sunday school, lunch and lastly sky fellowship where we were studying on another apologetics/religion (buddhism) and we learnt alot on the religion.. well come to think of it., i need to go and prepare to lead sky as i need to lead them in another religion (taoism) next week.. ok enough of sidetrack, need to focus and use all my remaining brain juices to recap on what happened in the later part of the day.. ready? here we go! *laugh to self*

kc(kumchiew) messaged me on saturday afternoon and asked me if whether i would want to go for FOP (festival of praise) and i agreed since i had intentions of going already but just couldn't find the time to? well so i replied that i would love to go except the thought of having to queue before entering the indoor stadium kinda turns me off? as in i would LOVE to go and see hillsong and delirious lead worship but the thought of standing under the hot sun, sweating and having nothing to do does not the least interest me one bit! the good news came in the afternoon when i went back church after sending my sis and mom home, kc told me his friend (from city harvest and was helping out there or sth) got tickets for 7 and i was really happy! [thinking that we do NOT have to queue anymore!] but i was wrong! he said that even though we have the tickets, we still had to queue, just not THAT early! i was thinking to myself: 'what's the difference? we still have to go there at least 1 hour earlier to queue! sigh.' so anyway the 4 of us (kc, ian, paul and i) went to serene centre for dinner at macs, followed by ice cream which kc treated us to before heading down to the indoor stadium.. so on the car, i played the album of delirious on the car so that they can get themselves familiar with the songs.. on the way there, i am not really good with directions so i got paul to sit with me in the front so that he can direct me there with the help of the ever handy street directory! what would i do without it?! haha!

well the journey there was pretty smooth, no major mistakes so we managed to reach there at bout 5.40pm or so.. so after parking the car and i put the parking coupons for bout 1 and a half hours.. hoping that i would not be booked by the car park attendant so we left to go and find the place to queue.. at first we reached the EAST wing of indoor stadium but kc's friend told us to queue at the WEST wing instead.. well the queue weren't exactly that long, it's just like you know playing the nokia game snake? but the rather long one with many rows in between? yup that's about the length of the queue.. hahah ok i was being really lame! so anyway we took a detour back to the west wing and there is a bridge which links to the entrance of the indoor stadium and all i saw when i looked up at the bridge was just people and people, standing and sitting in groups.. and i thought that was already bad enough.. so the 4 of us, we just continued to walk down the road leading away from the bridge and we could see this line of people too, also queueing to get into the indoor stadium! so we just continued to walk down, passing many groups of people (some of them even brought guitars, radios and umbrellas to cover them from the blazing hot sun) and finally we came to the end of the line and looking quite satisfied, we joined in the queue.. remember the part when i said there are things i could never imagine myself doing? yups this is ONE of them.. well long story behind it but i guess there's always a first in everything yea? so we were just standing there, people started to come in and stand behind us (some in front of us! hai.) every bout 10 mins or so, the pack would start to take a few steps forward and this continued on for the next hour or so.. so finally after waiting for bout an hour plus. we finally got to the staircase of the bridge and i have to say i feel rather "accomplished" for hanging in there and this is what all of us have been waiting/queueing for.. so in huge groups, we walked across the bridge and finally entering the air conditioned room and finally we got into the stadium! wow and it was really REALLY packed! so we got our seats (kc helped us to reserve some when he went in early with his friend) and it was really good.. can see the stage and the screen quite clearly, so i guess it was really worth the wait.. so we got really comfortable there, feeling really cool in the air conditioned stadium and the atmosphere there was really different, everyone's so excited and you can feel this buzz of excitement that is probably gonna erupt at any time.. oh and phyllicia (soon kuan's younger sister) came and joined us and we sat together, in this cosy corner which feels like some VIP seat cos there were only 2 rows of 4 seats each..

the worship started promptly at 7.30pm and this singaporean pastor opened the FOP with a prayer.. and invited the whole team of Hillsong out and everyone started to clap and cheer.. i have never seen Darlene Zschech in person (i have really admired her for her vision in praise and worship and leading others to truly worship God) and i was truly honoured to be there and to have Hillsong lead us to sing and just pour out our hearts and voices to Him.. well the worship started off with a bang and i really do mean with a BANG, fast paced songs and loud instruments, i look around and people were just jumping from their seats, really jumping, with their feet leaving the air and back to the ground, some with both of their hands raised up and just exclaiming of His goodness! some of the songs were quite new but the words are meaningful.. the first part of the worship was led by Hillsong and the second part was led by Delirious.. both these two worship teams are really known world wide and even though their music are not really similar, God can use anything or anyone for that matter to just show how great He is.. Delirious came on stage, with their upbeat and loud music and during one of the songs, the leader (Martin Smith) told us to grab hands of whoever stands beside you and told us to dance! as in to just jump on the spot and just be crazy for God! i like the part when he asked the congregation if whether we have actually danced for God? personally for me, being the conservative person that i am, have never really "danced" for God.. well the answer that Martin gave was that this is gonna be the first time for those who have never danced or jump for that matter to actually do it!.. so when the music came in, 1..2..3..4.. and all of us, holding each other's hands, we started to jump and jump and JUMP! and he actually made us do it twice! i have to say it felt really good, to just be crazy for God, to just let go for awhile and just jump and praise His name while in the process! and throughout the worship, we raised our hands to the Heaven and just sang our hearts out, tears of happiness, joy started to flow out of my eyes! it was really an experience that i have not felt for such a long time.. when i think about how we should worship God, there should not be any default ways to because He made all of us different and it all boils down to our personal relationship with Him, as long as we mean what we sing and to truly live it out.. that is what i think matters! the message was really powerful too, telling us that when we pray, the devil trembles and he shared this one true story of just having pure faith and doing what God told him to do.. it was truly amazing i must say!

FOP ended at about 11pm and it was really a great experience, to see God being exalted in a country such as Singapore.. it is truly a great feeling to see people of all denominations coming together, with our different cultures and just being different from one another, we are united in God! joining our voices and hearts together, to pray for the nation and the leaders of Singapore is something that is really important if we want everyone to be saved.. oh and another touching moment was that there was this alter call, to ask those who truly wants to accept Jesus Christ as their personal Lord and Saviour, people of all ages, whether youths or adults were all pouring to the front of the stage and we were just clapping from where we were.. really happy to see that so many people would want to accept Christ as their personal Saviour and Lord! may we continue to live our lives for God and all glory to God!

For this is my prayer, in Your most precious and wonderful name,

Amen.

Thank God for such a great night!

loneliness

2005-07-31T23:19:00.000-07:00

thank God for good weather today so that we could carry out our sky fellowship.. guess we all had fun, running around and eating.. well i'm glad it's over and hope that everyone had fun..

there should be many things that i want to thank God for.. like my common test results and that is something that i really thank God for.. cos that is really something that i have never imagined myself doing or even getting that result.. but i just somehow i get this weird feeling that is floating around me and it will just hit me, bringing me down to feel feelings that i have never felt before.. or maybe i have but i just choose to ignore it somehow.. i honestly don't enjoy this "blue" feeling, could be monday blues but it never was like that.. i still can't figure out what actually hit me that i can feel like this, all time low i might add.. suddenly, life seems to be quite "meaningless" or is it just me? sometimes i can't believe that i actually do think of all these really deep questions that probably no one ever has the answer (except God Himself i guess.) that can make me feel any better, or even to satisfy my sense of doubting? just alot of random thoughts running through my head.. probably it is the devil using this time to make me think or question about my faith in life and in God..

not really looking forward to a new week, not even looking forward going back to school, really. still gotta rush my project now cos we have been stagnant for so long, lecturer not wanting to help us and we are really helpeless i must say.. we don't even have a single clue of what we are doing and with the limited information that they (LTA) and from what we understand, i guess we are pretty much lost.. and we have another panel presentation tmr.. sigh.. not having really any "close" friends in school and all the friends around me are just like wasting their lives away, always looking for things to keep them entertained, regretting not studying harder for their tests so that they could pass and stuff.. i am really tired of looking at all these already.. if i tell this to this particular person, he probably would tell me that this would be a good chance to reach out to them, introduce them who is Christ and all.. sometimes i can't even convince myself so how am i supposed to go convince others? as in i'm very sure bout who God is and i do believe that our God is real but sometimes i just choose to disobey Him knowingly and choose to go my own way.. think i'm just rambling rubbish lar, this clueless brain of mine just talking crap.. think i'm just too tired but i did get some rest.. i think i'm more spiritually tired then physically.. and mentally quite drained too i might add..

feeling a sense of loneliness, so alone. but i know i am not, though i would like someone more "physical" whom i can see and feel.. but will that be "faith"?

lukewarm feeling. random thought.

facing the hardest challenge yet, myself.

kprbc 7 - 3 sembawang baptist church

2005-06-27T11:20:00.000-07:00

*takes out a cloth and starts to wipe away all the cobwebs off my blog*

haha right.. it has been quite awhile since i last blogged!! and finally i am back writing this entry.. i'm pretty happy i must say.. :)

ah today is the first day of school (for the secondary and the jc people) while the poly people are already in sch so it's not much of a difference.. well i hope that the first day of school will be good and the jc1s are having their mid years so must keep them in prayers too!!

anyway we had a soccer friendly between Kay Poh Road Baptist Church and Sembawang Baptist Church yesterday afternoon at ngee ann poly.. well i would say it went really well and WE WON!!! and a scoreline that we would have NEVER EVER thought of!! 7 - 3!!hahaha.. well it was kinda "unexpected" i must say but it was truly a good experience to be playin yesterday, though i had some small cramps as i went down after being tackled by menghong.. urgh nevermind.. i would say it was really fun and we all enjoyed ourselves.. before the match, i was pretty nervous cos our team (KPRBC) hasn't really been training that much until last sunday and that a few of my key players are dropping out, either cos of studies or injuries.. so that got me all the more anxious and worried at the same time.. so anyway i managed to get most of the youths and during GMC, i went scouting for more players and guess who i managed to approach? firstly i went to KengLeong (Clara's husband) and he agreed after i managed to "sweet talk" him? hahahah! he just decided to join us for fun today and i was really glad too! and i saw menghong too so i went to approach him as well (which he ended up playin for the opposition team cos they didn't have enough pple i think) and ya he agreed also.. so i guess it weren't THAT bad.. so a few of us drove there while some of them took bus there and the match started promptly at bout 4pm.. i guess it was just pure fun and good fellowship and we took this friendly match to know more people in the baptist circle as well..

i'm not going to go through the match details as it may bore some people (like someone i probably know who knows nothing much bout soccer except man u and beckham.. sigh.) but i would say we played really well while the opposition who were really new cos they just got together and started playin soccer only a while ago so i guess our "experience" gave us the extra boost.. oh yes i must add that the pitch we were playin on ain't exactly very 'solid' cos the field was full of MUD and i emphasize on the FULL ok! we ended up going into the match clean and into 5 mins of the game, we are already full of mud on our legs and on our jersey! and it isn't very fun to play soccer in mud cos you will end up slipping cos we will lose our balance due to the slippery field and stuff.. quite funny i might add.. *laugh* to summarise the first half, (40 mins long per half) we managed to score 3 (renjie, jason lee and jonathan) and the opposition scored 2 so that ended the first half of the match.. so we were up 3 to 2 in the first half.. i made some changes to the team as we have quite a number of players suprisingly cos some came last minutely and brought friends.. so it was good so we could rotate and let others enjoy playin too.. so we started off the second half with uncle kengleong playin too!! and he totally suprised us cos he were running here and there, kicking the ball really impressively so we were totally shocked and laughing at the same time, saying that "Clara would be really proud!" so they played really well and we managed to score 2 more (ivan and lemuel) before we made subsitutions to go back on the pitch again to finish the game! hahaha.. well we kinda did.. so a few of us went back on the field again and started tackling for the balls and we ended scoring another 2, this time courtesy of daniel and yours truly! hahaha.. yups our hardwork got paid off and it is reflected in the scoreboard! so the match ended 7 to 3 and cheers to KPRBC!! cheers to SBC too!! we were cheering for each other and showed great sportsmanship! and also love for each other through Christ! so that's really a good experience i must say! yup that's the end of the soccer match summary.. :D oh yes, paul was taking photographs and thanks for being there man! really appreciate it..

after washing up and stuff, we went to eat johnson duck at bukit timah and we ate our fill there! talkin bout how the match went and just plain fellowship-ing.. (is there such word? haha nevermind.) and now my body is like in pain, ache here and there especially my legs.. can feel some stretched muscle will lead to cramps sometimes.. but i guess it was worth it! haha yea!! so decided to stay home today and rest cos there is nothing much at school though except to research more on my project which i am doing from home right now..

still keepin you in prayers mortal!! jia youu and don't give up okie?! tell me how your first day of sch went ok? and also your fire dry run too yea?

*wondering what you are doing now*

tired. body in pain, needs rest.

penguin penguin penguin.. love you!

2005-06-11T22:47:00.000-07:00

DISCLAIMER: i miss the penguin!! i miss it sitting on my bed, just sitting there upright next to me..

but i know he is in good hands (i hope.) and will really be loved by his new owner..

hahaha.. i'm really glad you liked the presents and i'm sure you will take good care of him yesss?! *stares* if not, i will sure fight for the custody of the penguin i tell you! and i'm not joking ok! *giggles abit*

must use the diary ok? probably can let me see whether you are using it anot yea? i'm so tired, just fetched my mom back from her talk at faith methodist church (nice name huh?)

i also wanna hug the penguin!! but knowing that the penguin loves me too is good enough i guess.. (for now that is.) and no it is not true that the penguin loves you more ok! i was THE ONE who found him ok! yea even though i "entrusted" him into your care, i still have the right to see him yes?! he better still be fat and cuddly when i see the next time ya? if he is any different, you shall pay!! hahaa.. ((: i hope that will never happen.. or else..

*evil laughter* whahahahahahahahahHAHAHAHAHA... :DD

i don't even know what i'm typing.. gonna go sleep now.. sweet dreams..

stil praying for you.

niteee.. ((:

x-)

Happy Birthday To MOrtal

2005-06-09T15:26:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY TO MORTAL CHRISTABEL!!! *starts to sing a happy birthday song in CHINESE* (and trust me, you won't go deaf!! huh! it's your loss if you don't listen! :D )

Zhu ni shen ri kuai le, zhu ni shen ri kuai le, zhu ni shen ri kuai le

ZHU NI SHEN RI KUAI LE, Pei Hui...!! :o)

and i'm think that maturity comes with age and not one that you possess automatically/born with it!! *laugh*

hahah hope you will like the present cos it SURE weren't easy to find your present ok?!

i'm glad that i'm the first to wish you happy birthday!! *beams with evil laughter* whahaha!!

anyway have a blessed birthday and thank God for you!

2005-06-06T13:32:00.000-07:00

i shall attempt to update but can't seem to remember anythin but will try really hard to capture my memory.. (since someone is asking me why i am not updating)

hmm started school for 2 weeks already, was feeling kinda unsettled but now is much better now cos i know most of the guys in my class (yes my class is ALL guys.) and thank God that He placed me in a group that i was comfortable doing my final year project with.. the title of my project is "Variable Water Flow System" and it is a project under Land Transport Authority.. we just started on our research but my lecturer is not really helping us alot.. he don't seem to know alot and just keep on telling us to research research and research! sigh.. so for the past 2 weeks, we just come into class for 4 hours each lesson and just "reseach".. hmm right, that sounds SO enriching! hahah..

urgh enough bout sch.. cos sch is not exactly the best of place to be(or at least for me that is) but this is where i am for 5 days of the week.. hah nevermind.. i'm supposed to be doing my research (i am in a way) but here i am typing this entry.. hehe.. :P weekends seems to pass so quickly whereas weekdays seems never to end.. hmm let's see what i was doing during the weekend.. friday was supposed to meet up with nicholas for the second session of the follow up but he did not reply me so we did not meet.. so i ended up meeting alex in the night at bout 8pm for dinner, then went to play pool at mambo.. and even test drove his mercedes!! hahah so fun! such a big car and not really easy to drive too.. so we test drove each other's car and went straight home after that.. i woke up at bout 9am on saturday morning to get ready for work and everything went quite well at the shop.. had this cute maltese and shih tzu pups!! so cutee lar!! so i was like playin with them, cuddling them and tickling them on the stomach cos they really like the feeling.. they would just lie on their back and with their paws facing the sky, i would just be running my fingers up and down along their stomach.. ok that soudned quite sick but the all dogs really like that cos they would feel really comfortable.. ended work at bout 4pm, went home to wash up before going out again to church for choir practice.. the song is really not easy to sing and it is quite high to sing too, plus the technical stuff.. seriously not easy and sometimes i just look around at the people who comes to choir and comparing to those school choirs, i don't know but i just seem to get this feeling that people are just not serious about singing and it's like i don't even know why they are singing in the first place.. i mean, by right we are supposed to be different from those school choirs and we are a church choir and all.. ah i don know man.. if next week's practice is gonna be the same, i don't think we should sing this song at all cos i know it is really bad lar.. not that i want to compare with those top school choirs but i just can't help thinking 'why can't we be like them?' to have their attitudes and their heart for singing! sigh.. this is quite depressing.. sunday was the norm, just service in the morning then sunday school, followed by sky..

oh went to see andy off at the airport on sat night.. his flight was at 12.50, straight to shanghai, flying on some china airlines.. haha.. then andy was like saying that the people on the plane would be 'shee shee shor shor' and he won't even understand a thing! so freaking funny man.. so i left home at bout 9.45pm with corn and i drove to the airport.. so we were on our way to changi airport and we were talkin and listening to the music.. then suddenly i missed this turn that was supposed to be going to Changi Airport but i went up this flyover which then went to changi naval airbase.. so had to travel so far just to get back on the right road and thank God that we managed to get back on the right track and we reached the airport at bout 10.30pm.. so we (andy,jacq, corn and i) were just sitting around subway, talkin and just laughing that he has to speak 'China Chinese' and all to the people.. and we actually told him to take picture of himself everyday so we can see if he did put on weight.. *laugh*

so yup that's my weekend.. not really the exciting and here i am, in my very cold classroom, typing this entry and supposed to do research.. yup i will probably go back to research my stuff after i end off this entry.. well at least i'm glad mortal is back already and thanks for the present!! and the chocolates too (twix again!) haha.. i have sticked the present you gave me on the car already and it is so cute can! haha.. and the chocolate which looks like you(pig) is still sitting on my fridge along with the KING size twix.. ahaha..

i'm still prayin for you too okie? sth BIG is gonna happen in 3 days time!

hmm right.. ((:

cos someone is born on that day!

Happy 19th Birthday To Myself!

2005-05-30T23:20:00.000-07:00

Happy 19th Birthday to myself!! *sings a happy birthday song* hahaha right.. that is so lame.. well yay i am finally 19!! *cheers* :D haha.. not as if like there are any special priviledges or anything but i guess it is just another year older.. nah not feeling old or anythin but it's still a year older nonetheless.. come to think of it, i'm in my last year as a TEEN.. now that sounds abit old doesn't it? and in another year time, i will be 20!! hahaha hmm.. just being random here.. (oh no! i'm not supposed to be random.. hehe.. :P )

i can't remember when i stopped celebrating my birthdays.. i mean like having those birthday parties, inviting friends and play with balloons and just having lots of attention of you.. hahaha well that was when i was young and my mom like just invited my whole kindergarten friends over and that was how young i was alright? and after that i just remembered celebrating with my family and no more parties and stuff.. even if there were any, i doubt i would remember also.. so anyway my birthday fell on a friday this year and i was spending half of my day in sch, then went over to paul's place and we went to play pool before ending up at my place to go prayer meeting together.. so after prayer meeting, we (kumchiew,paul,john,jason wong & lee and myself) went to bukit timah to have supper at killiney kopitiam.. just sat there and chatted about stuff.. so that was my day, simple but i enjoyed myself and that is the main point isn't it? hahaha..

thanks to all who gave me the presents and i really liked it alot.. i got this alarm clock in a shape of a car wheel which looks quite cool in a way from the guys.. andy say can be mounted on the car but i can't find any space so i think will just leave it in my room, to wake me up in the morning.. hehe.. thanks alot once again!

mortal:
i really like the door hanger.. (which says "SHHh... Baby sleeping." with a cute face of a baby!) i think i will hang it on my door or somewhere people can read it and not disturb!! hahaha just kiddin.. and the card with the tatty teddy (MeToYou bear) which sure ~~DOES NOT~~ look like a pig!! *points at you and laugh* it really looks really cuteee!! and it is nicee ok? *smileee* i really DO like it alot so thank you!! xie xie ni!! and your drawing is really good okie! i am carrying it wherever i go, whether it is sch or anything, it will be in my bag!! wondering what you are doing over 'there' now (wherever that is) and i just wanna let you know that i am still prayin for you every night.. thank God for a sweet mortal like you..

*stares into the sky and looking at the tiny twinkling stars*
reminds me of you.

miss you loads.

thinking of you.

2005-05-24T11:15:00.000-07:00

Thank God for a good day in school today.. yup today's the first day of sch and here i am, right infront of my lap top, in my own room at this time when everyone probably else is still in sch, busy with their own stuff and i am already home.. well today was just I.S (interdisciplinary studies) Modules so only had 2 hours of lecture today.. and i chose the class to start at 8am so that i can end early, to go home early to rest.. so anyway managed to get out of bed by 6.30am and was really happy to be greeted by mortal's msg.. *thanks mortal!* so, yup went to wash up, took a bath and changed into my t shirt and jeans and my dunk shoes.. left home at bout 7.15am and went to the bus stop to take bus.. honestly i was quite "scared" in a way cos i will be meeting total strangers and stuff and this is the first time that i do not have any familiar friends with me.. but i prayed for God to give me the strength and courage to face up to all the new classmates.. and also to be a good Christian in school too.. i was listening to Hillsongs(Hope album) with my headphone and just constantly reminded of His faithfulness and i know that He is ever with me.. class went off quite well, the lecturer is super funny but the class weren't that "responsive" in a way probably cos we are not really that comfortable yet.. but he's really funny, making the class pretty enjoyable and the people were quite funny too, a real mix of quiet and loud people i would say.. the lecture i was attending today is called "World Issues from Singapore Perspective" WISP for short.. as today was just like the introduction, so class ended even earlier, like bout 9.15am or so and we are off.. was planning to go over to paul's place to just hang out but i guess he was still sleeping so i didn't want to go over and disturb him.. still thank God for today and i'm still keepin you in prayers!

sunday was really good cos it is just amazing to see how God works using this little amount that we have and to turn it into something BIG because He is who He is, all mighty God.. service went quite well even though i learnt sth else on saturday but still He just proves that He is beyond all these.. so sunday school as usual and then had lunch with the worship team to plan on stuff, the future of the team and all.. sky started a new session on 'atheists' and learnt their so called "believes", pretty interesting i must say cos they are rather similar to evolutionists but they just hold on to their stand that there is no God or whatsoever.. so after sky, daniel and i went to play pool and it was fun but yet mentally draining.. but it was fun and was able to catch up on what's happening in his life..

and yesterday was ACJC's concert, titled "An Evening With Friends" and they are indeed one of the best choirs in Singapore.. but i would say i'm not really into those kind of "choral" music, singing words that i can't understand but it sure does bring out the beauty of their voices when girls and guys just open their mouths and start singing.. but i have to admit it was getting abit boring at some parts and i started to get quite tired but unlike someone who was staring into space, i was just forcing myself to listen by fidgeting on the chair.. hahaha.. i'm not THAT good staring into spaces unlike someone i know.. i think i would give 8.5 out of 10 for the concert, not that they are lousy but i'm just not really into this kind of music and don't really know how to appreciate it.. andy and the rest were just making fun of what they heard, something that goes "lim kopi-o lim kopi-o" (drink coffee in hokkien) or something like that and that was just really funny lar.. but yea i enjoyed the night out at the esplanade.. a few of us met at bout 4.30pm and just started walking around then we decided to go to Pacific Coffee(next to Marina Square) to sit down, have a drink, have a good chat and some fellowship.. so we started to share bout our lives as a Christian and what is going on with our lives etc.. and then headed over to suntec to have pastamania for dinner.. wanted to get flowers but the florist at esplanade was closed! so andy and joshua rushed over to marina and city link to see if there are any florist but could't find any.. hai but it's ok since daniel and paul already bought flowers.. hahaha..

thanks mortal for the present.. really appreciate it alot, really REALLY!! i'm really tempted to open the other part of the present but i will just WAIT PATIENTLY for friday to come.. you see? the baby is so guai rite? hahaha.. keep up that smile of yours alright? and you will be flying off to UK like in less than 2 days? don't forget the promise that you made yea?? that you will have fun and buy back alot of stuff back!! *hint hint AGAIN*

your presence will be dearly missed!

need to go catch up on sleep, feeling quite tired and nose is getting 'runny' (is there such a word? hmm) sleeping time..! yayy!

*places the present under my pillow*

2005-05-21T23:35:00.000-07:00

i'm just so tired today.. didn't sleep much yesterday, also don't know why i can't sleep.. i'm just lying on the bed and my mind is consciously awake, thinking thinking thinking.. honestly i'm also not sure what i'm thinking about and the headache i was feeling didn't really help much.. so i was practically tossing and turning for the "morning" cos i went to bed at bout 1.30am or so, forcing myself to sleep but i guess it didn't really happen the way i wanted.. so anyway i managed to wake up at bout 9am and prepared to go work..

work was just normal, cleaning the cages of the hamsters, rabbits and guinea pigs with my colleague.. there weren't really alot of people at holland v and the rain didn't exactly encourage people to visit the place cos of the lack of parking spaces and those renovations etc.. well at least we managed to sell off the pup today and that probably was the 'biggest' business today.. left at bout 3.45pm before heading home to freshen up before heading to church again for choir.. well choir practice went off well and learnt this new song and i guess we did well for the first practice.. i still had to rush off from choir to head back home to send mom to aunty may's place for care group (first meeting i think) and then rush off to acjc to pick up my sis and then to rush back to church for worship practice.. i was already feeling quite tired and i still had to rush from one place to another.. so i weren't feeling very good while driving and the rain just kept on pouring..

i guess i weren't exactly 'myself' when i was driving to church after picking up my sis (and charissa) and i erm almost had a mini accident.. sigh i was just not really concentrating but thankfully we managed to reach church safely.. had a quick dinner before rushing to worship practice with kum chiew.. and today God just taught me another lesson: 'That i can NEVER be good enough to serve Him.' to explain that, i felt that there are alot more people who are much better in skills and talents (comparing to myself) to serve Him in music.. i mean i just feel i'm just not the best person to be doing what i am doing right now.. even at worship practice just now and going through all the songs, i seem to like suddenly just not 'fit in'? not sure if that's exactly the word but i just don't seem to be playing well and just making it better or anything.. honestly it is not really a good feeling, just sitting there and not able to do anything to help in a sense or to just make it sound better.. urgh i also don't know what i'm typing man.. think i'm just too tired and i really need to sleep right now!! another long day ahead and i pray that God will use whatever we have to magnify and to glorify His name cos we are not doing it for anyone or anything else, but for Him alone!

maybe i should take a back seat for a time being, to reflect and to really question myself why i am doing this and what is the next step after this? really tired.. good night.. *tries to force a smile but failed*

prays really hard.

miss ya jie jie

2005-05-20T02:53:00.000-07:00

God is just sometimes so wonderful.. it's like sometimes He just does the impossible(at least to me) and after accomplishing the matter, it just makes me so happy cos of His goodness.. i just came back from the airport.. sent off 2 guys who were going for the STEPS programme, to go onboard Doulos for 2 months.. actually not really to see them off, but actually to pass them stuff so that they can pass to my sister when they meet her on board.. heh oops.. i mean it is much faster cos their journey will take maximum 3 days before they go onboard the ship whereas if we sent by post, it will probably take about 3 months cos it is a package and the package would first have to be sent to Germany(Main OM Office) before it is then resent onboard to the intended person onboard Doulos.. which is so much longer so that's why we have to trouble them to pass some stuff to my sis.. well i'm really tired so i'm just gonna summarise.. we were quite "paiseh" cos my mom has a whole bag of stuff (but not heavy) to pass to my sister cos she requested in her letter, some chinese dance stuff like fans and stuff so that they can use it to perform on the 'International Nights'.. so we went to them passing the smaller items first and then we thought that we better not pass it to them as we do not even know them in the first place and all.. but just before they checked in, the OM Coordinator came and we just started to chat about people bringing different stuff onboard and passing items who are onboard the ship.. and i just out of nowhere just said that we still have this bag of stuff but we are just too shy to pass it to them as it is not really nice as we do not even know them.. but yet the OM Coordinator went to talk to one of the guys and managed to convince him to check in the bag as well.. so really thank God! it was just a casual remark but turned out what we hoped for.. and now my sis will be receiving alot of things when they meet her on the ship!! hahaha..

i just miss my sis so much.. wrote her a letter and passed a few burnt christian cds for her too so that she can listen when she has the time.. i'm sure she will be really happy and excited to receive all these stuff cos i know she misses home alot, just as much as we miss her!! so hope the things will make you feel not so 'home sick'.. hehe.. :p love ya jie!!

really tired now, gonna head to bed.. didn't know driving to changi airport was so boring, eyes were so heavy on the way there and back.. didn't feel as if i was driving that fast until i saw the how fast i was going on the speedometer.. but thank God for everything!! please continue to watch over jie as she serves You wherever she is..

nite.

boy meets girl

2005-05-18T02:12:00.000-07:00

1 more week before school reopens for me.. am i supposed to be like jumping for joy? or should i be super sad and sian cos everyone else will be having holidays except me? i guess there's a mix of both i guess.. cos one side of me would be like 'i want things to do.. i don't want to stay home all day and feel lazy all the time!' but yet feeling 'i want to go out with my friends'.. not really the best of feelings but i guess that's pretty nothing much i can do about it huh?

but i think things will not be THAT bad as what i think it would be, i hope.. once the semester starts, i will be year 3, final year.. now i'm the senior of the school.. hahaha that feels kinda good but yet erm.. old? haha.. nah i'm only 18, turning 19 really soon.. not really like feeling old or anything or am i? *ponders and thinks* so anyway yea will be doing my final year project and will be doing 'Air Conditioning and Cold Room Technology'.. not really my first choice or whatsoever and not exactly the best projects or anything but i guess that's where God placed me to be in and i shall just do what He wants me to do.. so i just pray that as i do my final year and no matter what i feel bout this project (cos i honestly feel that it is not very useful or anything..) i will just have faith and just trust that He knows what is best for me..

looking back on how my holidays were spent, i have to say it weren't as 'fruitful' as what i initially planned for.. the first month was just spent working at the pet shop, from monday to saturday (10am-4pm) and just not doing much.. and the second part of the holiday which is about 2 weeks or so were just spent idling at home, feeling really lazy and i think spending a HUGE (and i mean HUGE) amount of time on the bed! sigh.. but i guess it is not really THAT bad cos i almost finished 'boy meets girl' and reading the bible study that i'm gonna lead nicholas in which is starting this friday.. so must keep that in prayer as i'm not really experienced into leading in bible study and all.. so just pray that i will have the wisdom and the Spirit so that i will be able to lead him in the way God wants me to..

come to think of it, this holiday is not exactly that bad la.. i mean i learnt alot from the book 'boy meets girl'.. a really great book on courtship and stuff, to just simply submit and just wait for God to tell you when is the appropriate time to get into a relationship.. to know more about the other party, like really in depth finding more about each other person's character and behaviour and at the end of all these 'finding out' is to consider marriage, to see if whether he/she is the right one for you.. i personally have learnt alot from the book, it really opened up my mind to what God has in store for us and how he wants to just simply wait so that He can slowly unravel His plan for us.. and i like the part when it says romance and wisdom goes hand in hand.. romance that do not have wisdom will not be able to last..

this is taken from the book:
The problems we see in relationships today- the impatience, the lack of purpose, and the misguided emotioons- are all expressions of foolishness. We need wisdom. Wisdom complements romance. Like the string attached to the kite, wisdom enables romance to really soar. It anchors it, disciplines it, and brings it to its highest potential. Again, the tension is good. When the emotional winds get really dangerously strong, widsom pulls the kite down to safety so it won't be destroyed.

The questions that really struck me:
-Are you able to be patient?
-What would you say your greatest motive is for starting a relationship?
-Is it the confidence that you're ready for marriage and that God has brought someone godly into your life?
-Or is it impatience?
-Are you characterized by peace or anxiousness?
-Can you set a clear course for the relationship?

and there are so much more to what i have learnt.. but plain knowledge is nothing, but it is the act of living out what you learnt is the main thing and that is wisdom.. to put that knowledge into real life practices is wisdom.. it has totally changed my views on dating/courtship and how i should go ahead when i ever do get into one..(relationship that is) that i may be able to serve her and to the main purpose is to glorify God.. it is just so nice to think that to love someone that God has given to you and just that act of loving glorifies God! the 2 greatest commandments are 'Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength" and the other is "Love your neighbour as yourself" and that if we want to get our life right, we need to make it about God.. another way to put it is to see God's glory as the greatest purpose of every part of life..

"So whatever you eat or drink or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God." 1 Corinthians 10:31

it doesn't matter which term you use.. (courtship/dating) at then end of it, God will not ask you if you dated or did you courted.. He will ask you what the main purpose of the relationship was and did it ultimately glorify Him? or was the relationship "used" for gratifying your own sinful desires?

"Dating versus Courtship" isn't the point. Terms that are being used to describe relationships are meaningless. The way they lived is what really mattered. Terms don't define our lives; our lives define our terms.

-

2005-05-13T18:14:00.000-07:00

yay i managed to finish making the almond jelly.. honestly i didn't think it was THAT easy to make almond jelly.. but a great sense of achievement i have to say.. even though i didn't do much too lar.. mom had already prepared most of the stuff, like putting some bead thingy into the pressure cooker and and i put in like 3 and a half cups (800ml each) of water and boiled the agar agar.. and then half an hour later, the white thick strings lookalike of agar agar had already melted in the boiling water and i added bout 400g of white sugar.. then added a small cap full of almond flavour.. stir until the sugar has completely melted before adding in carnation milk.. and THAT's ALL!! there is your almond jelly! ahaha.. yup it is that easy but i'm glad to learn something from mom.. so the rest if just to cool it and putting the almond 'liquid' into the fridge so that you can let it be a 'jelly'..

so gonna head to prayer meeting later.. alot of things to pray for, especially for our church! i just received the letter from church about pastor paul wong resigning.. it is really something that shocked me.. had a good talk with laura over the phone just now and we were talkin bout church and all.. is there something really wrong with our church? are we not doing His will and God is just punishing us for our disobedience? sigh i really don know.. really have to pray hard and to ask God for His forgiveness and His grace to be upon our church! Please forgive us and hear our prayers, O Lord!

sigh..

*cups hands, bows head and to humble oneself to pray*

2005-05-13T15:15:00.000-07:00

another week has gone by and i still think i have not accomplished much this week.. though managed to master of the songs i practiced on the piano, quite a sense of achievement there! hahaha right.. it really feels quite good playin the piano after a really long long time since i last last practiced.. which was bout 3 years ago when practicing for the grade 7 exam? hmm yea that was probably the last time i actually played a decent piece of song on the piano! but glad i managed to play the song today and my mom was listening to it too! ((:

today was supposed to wake up at 6am, to go to kindergarten with mom cos there is bible story telling today.. but was feeling really tired so decided to give it a miss.. actually i already decided not to go to the kindergarten yesterday night.. firstly, i am not a teacher there and secondly, i don't want to scare off the kids! NOT that i'm scary(i am actually ~~QUITE~~
POPULAR among the kids ok?! one proof is from VBS last year ok? some children just love to bully me and i just enjoy playin with the kids! and not only girls lor! but guys too!! hahaa..) or whatsoever just that the children might feel scared to see 3 BIG guys which are not familiar to them and so,not being able to divert 100% of their attention to the 2 teachers and the bible story.. hope that everything went well and the children were able to listen properly and to know what the teachers are telling them..

anyway i'm gonna go learn how to make almond jelly later at bout 3.30pm.. mom already started to boil the 'agar agar'.. not sure what is for but i will find out later.. i'm sure it is gonna be really yummy! gonna bring it to pot luck at jason's place tmr.. let all the choir people taste my cooking!! hmm not much cooking lar i think.. but STILL, this is my FIRST attempt but definitely not my LAST.. (i hope) so off to brush up my culinary skills which i left behind during secondary school.. i was doing quite well at home econs ok? even though guys look really weird in their white aprons which most of the time will turn other colours by the end of the lesson.. *laugh*i really enjoyed the home econs lessons.. i think the cooking part of the lesson i got an 'A' but when it comes to sowing and stuff, urgh i think i barely passed.. i'm not one who is good in doing stuff with hands, probably only playin of instruments and ball games! hahaha..

so exciting, i'm gonna make almond jelly! and can't wait to try out someone's potato salad too.. hopefully won't get a stomach ache after the pot luck.. IF and i mean IF i actually do get a stomach ache, i know who to go to and to probably to ask for medical attention and help!! YES?! *stares* i'm sure it will be nicee lar!! hahaha.. right right? ;)

off to take out my apron and put on that silly cap!! woo hoo!! let's get it started!! x-) wish me all the best!!

tightchinese

2005-05-11T13:45:00.000-07:00

here i am, at paul's place typing this entry now.. just played tennis just now and now so feeling really tired.. even though we didn't like run much, it felt as if we were playin for like an hour when we actually played for only like 30mins? hahaha.. we were just too tired, probably from lack of sleep.. was supposed to sleep like at 12 yesterday but ended up chattin till bout 1am then headed out to watch tv (band of brothers) till bout 2am.. it's a really nice show but kinda sad cos you see the men fighting for their lives, not even knowing why they are doing it for in the first place.. there was this guy who was like quite scared while at war.. but after he got 'lecturerd' by his officer, he went all out to fight and in the end he got killed.. poor guy.. so went to sleep when the show ended at 2am.. at first i wanted to wake up at bout 8am or so so that i can reach paul's place by like 9am or sth.. but in the end when the alarm clock rang at bout 8.15, i was feeling really tired and *poof* went straight back to my bed and the when i woke up again at 9am.. still feeling really tired from the lack of sleep, i dragged myself out of bed and washed up and got ready to leave the house.. so here i am, typing this entry on his bed.. just had lunch at his place and we were laughin while watchin this indian guy, probably a comedian or sth cos he was like on stage and making jokes bout a chinese(more of a china man) making business and all.. it was just so funny lar.. hahah.. so i probably am gonna stay here till bout evening time or so before heading home for dinner with mom..

a part taken from the clip:
"you know why chinese and indians cannot do business together? because indians cannot live without a bargain whereas chinese people cannot give you a bargain.." *laugh*

i am still prayin hard for you mortal.. will be here whether you feeling down or happy yea? sweet dreams mortal!! *says a bedtime prayer for you* (:

nite.. still prayin hard..

happy mothers' day

2005-05-09T13:49:00.000-07:00

another new start to another week.. hopefully that i will be able to do more things this week cos my holidays are really coming to an end already.. in like 2 weeks? sigh.. actually i can't wait to start sch actually.. it's gonna be more fun in a way rather than stayin at home and feeling really lazy and sleepy all the time.. (like what i'm feeling right now when i woke up at 11am) hahaha.. i guess the only sad thing is that while i'm schooling, everyone else is on holiday.. but getting quite used to it already lar.. and come to think of it, i have already finished 2 years of my studies in ngee ann.. well i would say it has been really fun, gettin to know my friends and i could still remember our first day during orientation and it was really funny.. how we got to know each other and first impressions of each other.. we will probably meet each other again during army i guess.. hahaha.. what a great place man! heh..

wanted to blog on sat then felt quite tired cos came back late from worship prac and had nothin much to say anyway.. had work in the morning, youth choir practice at 4.30pm and yay pot luck next week!! ahahaha.. food food food.. ooPs.. heh.. don't know what i'm gonna bring also.. probably ask my sis what she wants to make first.. after choir prac was worship prac with renjie.. that's the typical sat for me..

then yesterday(sunday) was making corsages day.. at first i didn't even know what a corsage was.. and i just learnt it like last week.. it's this flowery thing which looks like a bouquet or some sort that you can pin onto your shirt, probably to make yourself look nice? hahaha.. so yesterday was like a crash course on learnin to make a corsage in 30mins.. so this person, can't remember her name(a clara look alike, talks and acts like clara and they were both from RI..) taught us how to make the corsages.. at first it seemed easy but wait till i got my hands on those tiny square papers.. the folding part was kinda easy.. oh wait, did i say how bad i am with art? i think in primary sch i failed art almost every lesson especially those you have to fold and all.. but glad i passed it anyway(probably just passed! heh) so i was sitting there, trying to fold the paper into many halves, then took this small little stalks of flowers and stick them into the paper that i folded.. then took this green tape which could only be sticky when you start to pull and so when i tried to pull to make it stick, it actually tore into 2.. me and my stiff and not flexible fingers.. so anyway managed to stick those flowers onto the paper.. then took a safety pin and stuck it on before finally applyin the double sided tape to make it stick.. and there! i was like so proud of myself, exclaiming to myself: "THIS IS MY CORSAGE! I MADE THIS!" a great sense of achievement there! (even though i had loads of help from kumchiew..) hahaha.. it was a great sense of achievement for me ok! i'm not very much into using my hands to fold tiny tiny stuff and in the process of sticking the flowers, yes i did like bend a few stalks of the flowers but i can't help it.. the flowers were so fragile.. hai don wanna talk bout it anymore but glad i did my part for the corasge making.. heh..

i took bout 20 mins to make that small small corsage.. but glad it's over and it will probably be a few years down the road before i ever do this kind of hand-making thingy ever again.. cos i'm really bad at it.. so anyway we went for a 30mins sunday school lesson but it stretched cos we were debating over some issues during class.. and since it was raining abit, we had to buy back lunch and ate in church.. sky today started on 'Evolutionists' and i have to say it is really interesting.. something new for me cos i didn't take chemistry during my secondary school so i was learning quite abit during the session.. benjamin did a really good job 'teaching' us bout the facts and giving us 'biological and chemistry' evidences of why they believe this world has no God and all.. during the session, i was getting quite confused by the many 'cheem' and long words that benjamin was using but it was still really enjoyable i would say..

oh yes, Happy Mothers' Day to all 'WEI DA de MA-MAs'.. thank God for all the moms out there, who has the love and patience to bring up the childrens.. i would say if it it weren't for my mom, i wouldn't be what i am now.. so thank you mom and love you!! sidetrack abit..(this is probably the only day that mothers really do take a rest isn't it? *laugh*) so i brought mom, my nanny who took care of me and my sis when we were young and sis to this nearby chinese restaurant cos i couldn't figure out where else to bring them out for dinner.. so when we went there, it was fully packed and we had to wait for bout 20 mins or so before we can actually sit down.. we had like chilli crab, spring onion with beef, sweet and sour pork, deep fried fish and hongkong kai lan.. it was pretty alright lar, not really that nice as i thought i would be probably cos of the crowd and all.. so they had to rush the cooking but it was still enjoyable lar.. now i'm so broke now, paid close to a 100 for the food but it's ok.. just sharing God's blessings with others.. ((: so that ended my sunday..

i just had my lunch and probably go do my bible study.. going to sch later to settle some stuff before metting corn later to jam abit.. probably gonna meet him in church later at bout 3 plus or so.. hopefully today will not be wasted like my other days.. as long as i'm outside and not at home, i probably will be able to accomplish more cos staying at home just makes me feel so sleepy all the time..

tell me how your test went later yea? i am still prayin for you.. wow your days to the geog trip are getting nearer and nearer.. hahaha..! you must be SO excited yep? i think you'd better start packing first being the forgetful and blur person that you are, you should make sure you bring all your stuff yea? *points at you and laugh* :D and don't forget what you owe me ok?! if not i'm gonna make you suffer a worse fate than what you were gonna face!! *evil laugh* study hard!! :o)

Thank God for all the great mothers!!

beautiful soul

2005-05-06T23:10:00.000-07:00

*yawn* really really tired now.. so gonna see what i can remember what i did today.. heh.. let's start from the morning.. woke up at 6.10am cos gotta follow mom to church as i was going to lend my 'support' to jason and paul who are teaching at the kindergarten today.. so woke up really early, didn't really catch much sleep.. cos i went to my mom's room to sleep as there is air con there but end up my nose got blocked so ended not sleepin much, more of tossing and turning.. sigh.. not used to sleepin in air-con room i guess cos normally i would just sleep with a fan and i would still end up getting a flu.. so hmm.. but the weather was so hot yesterday so decided to sleep in the air con room..

so anyway ya woke up feeling really tired, felt as if i didn't sleep at all.. but could still get up, wash up and get ready to leave the house by 6.50am.. but i was still 'awake' enough to drive.. drove my sis to the bus stop outside acjc.. before heading to church.. reached church at bout 7.10am and was doing my bible study.. then paul and jason came at bout 8am.. their lesson is supposed to start at 8.40am so they were preparing what to do and dividing the roles as they do their bible story telling.. it's really funny cos you see how jason is stressing up.. probably it is his first time telling bible stories to children (pre-nursery to k2) really young huh? hahaha.. i was just there to take photographs, and just help in abit in singing and stuff.. but both paul and jason really did a good job and lookin at the kids faces, their cute and big smiles really brightens up your day.. but i could tell that they were feeling really tired too.. cos while sitting there, listening to them teach was already quite tiring, more of sleepy i guess.. so by the second class, they were already so tired.. the best class was the k2s cos they were so enthu and so responsive, comparing to the first class(nursey) but it's also cos of their age too.. well i would say the seeds have been planted and even though the younger kids didn't really respond that much, i'm sure they know what they are being taught just that they do not say it.. heh.. so they ended their bible story telling at bout 11.15am and then we went to great world city for lunch.. they wanted to go home and rest but the weather looked really dark and then they decided to come over my place.. so yep we went straight into the living room, turned on the ps2 and grabbed the controllers and started playin "shoot-o" (winning 11) paul was the first to get K.O and slept on the couch.. while jason and i continued playin then went to get a short nap at bout 3.30pm.. jason went out at bout 4.30pm to meet john for WC3.. while paul left at bout 6 to go home and rest..

quite boring huh? i'm like yawning while typing this.. heh.. went for prayer meeting then supper at bukit timah market.. and then home.. quite an interesting life i must say.. feel as if i have wasted one week of my holidays and gotta work tmr.. sigh..

i guess the only 'good' part was to hear your good news.. that your geog test was easy and you finished your heritage project.. really happy to hear that cos God really sure does answer prayers! honestly i was very relieved to hear your good news, but yet rejocicing at the same time! happy for you! ((: great job mortal! keep on prayin too ok? don't give up and keep up that spirit of yours, to do even better for your chi test next week! bu yao fang qi! jia you!! :o) please rest well too lar ok? always never get enough sleep then will get really tired in sch.. glad that you are sleeping already.. enjoy the weekend but don't forget to STUDY!! don't slack so much!!! x-)

night night..

sweet dreams.

i like this song by jesse mccartney.. nice song, with great lyrics and a good voice! (beautful soul)

lyrics from the chorus:
I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I want to chase
You're the one I want to hold
I won't let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

praying hard still..

2005-05-06T00:22:00.000-07:00

just a quick update before i head to bed.. don't exactly know why i'm so tired right now.. maybe cos i didn't take my afternoon nap? hmm maybe.. anyway gotta go sleep soon cos i will be waking up realy early tmr morning at bout 6.. will be going to church in the morning with mom.. cos paul and jason will be teaching bible story to the kids there.. so will be going there to observe, maybe more to go there to laugh at them? see them get bullied by the kids or angels i should say.. yea they wish they would be angels tmr but i guess not.. *laugh* devil kids!!! hahaha just kiddin..

nothin much happened today also lar.. did some of the housework like putting the clothes out to dry when it is raining (*sigh.*) and mopping the floor.. i'm really a good boy isn't it? oops did i just say that? hehe.. so anyway stayed at home till bout 7.15pm, mom bought dinner back from market before i went to meet joshua for pool at bukit timah plaza.. under-estimated the traffic conditions and thus i was late.. so anyway yea today quite off lar but it was still quite fun playin pool with josh.. we played race to 7 and it was a really tight game.. the game was so tight that it went all the way to 6-6.. and i was playin the break for the last rack.. so i stroked up the cue and gave it my full power.. was joking to josh that i would end the game with a golden break.. (as we were playin 9 ball and the objective was to get the 9 ball in without getting into a foul and you will win.) so anyway i hit the cue ball with the cue and the ball started to spread.. and guess what? i ended the game with a golden break!! *cheers* hahaha.. just lookin as the ball spreads and pushes against each other and i was lookin at the 9 ball slowly moving to the pocket and then lookin at it going in.. i was super happy and we were just laughin bout it la.. cos it is not easy to get a golden break la.. probably 1 in like 20 breaks? not sure, maybe more.. it is really pure luck but fun.. so we left at bout 9.15pm and got home 15mins later.. so now gonna go sleep soon and prepare to wake up really early tmr..

i'm really worried for you and i am still prayin for you.. i know God will hear your prayers and it is ok telling Him all your problems.. prayin that God will give you the peace to do your geog test tmr and just try your best ok?! i know you are feeling really stressed with your heritage project and all and the addition of your geog test and it not easy taking it alone.. God is still with you and i am still here for my mortal too okie? so don't be too stressed out yea? cheer up mortal... *smileeee* ((:

God is in control of tmr.
'do not worry about tomorrow for tomorrow will worry about itself..'

prayin for you every night.

yawn. *___sweet dreams.

praying for mortal

2005-05-04T12:50:00.000-07:00

*yawn* just woke up, but still feeling quite tired and lazy.. slept at bout 4am this morning.. didn't really expect to sleep so late cos jack came over my place at bout 11pm.. so we just played the PS2 and played winning 11.. and we played till bout 2.30 cos the liverpool match was starting then.. so yea we were watchin the match and talkin alot and we laughed alot lar.. heh.. only watched the first half then went to sleep already cos was feeling too tired.. but anyway congrats to Liverpool for winning Chelsea and will be playing in the Champions League Final.. most probably against AC Milan! Go Liveprool!! (for those who still do not know, YES I am a LIVERPOOL FAN!!! *cheers* :D )

not sure what i'm gonna do today also.. was supposed to go down holland v to meet my colleague but i guess i will not be, perhaps tmr i guess.. don know why i'm feeling so lazy nowadays.. probably it's the holidays but i don't wanna be too lazy also.. cannot get anythin done in the end which is really bad.. so i came up with a list.. and they are as follow..

things i must accomplish today:

1) Play the piano
2) Read finish the first lesson of the Ineteractive Bible Study for the followup.
3) Pray for my mortal esp for her phy test and her day in sch.
4) Finish HALF of Boy meets Girl.
5) don't do NOTHING!

yea that's probably bout it.. heh.. so gonna start DOING SOMETHING now after i finish this entry.. mom helped me da pao mee pok back home so i just had lunch so thanks again mom.. so off to a more 'fruitful' day i hope..

all the best for your phy test later.. and pray that you will have sufficient energy to last throughout the day and for your fire as well! i know God is watching over you and will be with you.. ((:

praying.

2005-05-02T23:40:00.000-07:00

Happy Labour Day to all! hmm what does it actually mean anyway? haha.. it doesn't really matter to me lar, just another day for me.. but i guess it matters more for those who are either schooling or working cos they would enjoy the long weekend..

nothin much happened today la, just bumming around home i guess.. woke up at bout 12pm today cos slept quite late yesterday so can just sleep in today i guess.. and no more work so can don need to wake up that early but i guess i still will lar.. to do my quiet time in the morning before i start the day.. haven really planned much on how i'm gonna use my next 3 weeks of holidays before sch starts again.. main thing is to get back to reading of the Word and to really live a life that will just make God smile!

the only thing that i did today was to go down to queensway shopping centre and accompanied mei to buy her bag.. so we walked around queensway to find a bag that she likes and managed to find this haversack or some sort so that she can bring it to sch.. so bought it for her, for her 'be-early' birthday present but i guess i will still buy her sth when her birthday comes.. and i managed to buy my pair of nike dunks.. wanted to buy it a few weeks back already as my old dunks are getting really torn and kinda small already.. so managed to buy my shoes so quite happy.. ((: then corn came over my place, talked bout loads of stuff and played winning 11.. it was a really fun and we had a really good talk..

came across morta's blog and on her tag-board this morning and i was feeling quite offended by what that person named 'annonymous' wrote.. writing vulgar and untrue things bout her.. that is really childish i must say.. it's like 'backstabbing' in a way but yet you say it where everyone will know and yet not leave a name.. sigh.. glad that you are not troubled by it or anythin cos those things that were said are SO SO not true..! so really lookin forward to the UK trip huh? hahaha.. yep time really flies and you will be flying off soon! i'm sure you will have fun but meanwhile, better go and study your chi too lor.. got ting xie and test next week.. better go and du shu! bu yao yi zhi tou lan(slack!) jia you jia you!! :D

wan an ren pei hui! :))
wo ye shi hai zhai dao gao!

tian mong! (*sweet dreams)

2005-05-01T01:50:00.000-07:00

ah.. here i am sitting on my bed, staring once again into my lap top monitor.. just realised how fortunate i am lar.. it's like you will never know what you have unless or really treausr it until you lose it OR you are in a place far far more 'ulu' than where you live in.. i have a upfront experience of that lor.. will say it in the later part of the entry.. so please read on.. pardon my spelling mistakes cos my brain is like SO SO tired right now, and my condition has just stablized from a traumatic experience..

hmm so where should i start? let's start from the morning lar.. make things easier.. hahaha.. hmm went to church as usual in the morning, service at 8.45am then breakfast opposite and was late for pre-session as noraml.. erm oops.. sorry clara.. hahaha.. so hmm sunday school as per normal, kinda a short lesson but lesson learnt.. must really treasure the Word well and obedience is very impt too!! kinda a reminder to keep on reading His word and to live it out as well.. so lunch at great world before heading back for sky.. session leaded by timothy and martin.. the session started by games and guess what we played lar..! we played DOG & BONE!!! hahahaha wow how fun.. i was in group 3, the most peaceloving group man.. when martin was like calling out numbers to go and to go out and really snatch the 'bone' lar.. so while the other guys like andy who actually slided on the floor with his body and hands fully stretched, trying to grab that stick! and with guys like jason wong who would like wrestle his way through, and with his size who can actually win this man?! hahahaha.. so my group was like almost zero for the whole game until when daniel just grabbed the stick, almost like in slow motion lor and we got the point and the other point i can't even remember how we won but we won only like 2 points whereas other groups were like winning 10 and the other 8 points lar! sigh.. so for the second part is like a 'conversation' as martin and timothy plays two non christians or sth.. then we have to like try to 'convert' them in a way with scriptures and stuff.. so that sums up sky lar.. so after that me and paul were deciding if whether we should go for the owlet night.. asked aunty may the destinations that they were heading to and to see if there are seats on the bus but apparently there were none lar.. so we decided to go ahead with our game cube party and went to john's place.. clara called me when i was on the way to john's place and told me that there were seats but we kinda already decided to go and play instead.. so anyway we told clara that if we go, we will go there ourselves.. so we went to john's place which is also paul's place.. hahaha! so i was slackin in the room with jason, while andy, paul and john were playin outside.. so anyway we started to play mario kart again, whacking each other like crazy.. but it was super funny lar.. so anyway we played till bout 6.40pm cos andy had to go and meet his parents for dinner in town so he couldn't stay.. then paul, jason and i were deciding if whether we should go for the owlet night.. i called jason wong to find out where their next destination and they were heading to lau pah sat for dinner.. so we packed out stuff, and john decided to come along to join in the fun.. so yep off we went to find the rest at lau pah sat.. we had to tour around the place cos we couldn't find a place to park.. guess that's the biggest disadvantage of driving huh? always have to find a parking space.. can park illegally lar but firstly, i don want to do illegal things and secondly, i don want to pay the huge fine if i ever get caught la.. i didn't really know the way but thankfully i had paul and jason with me.. who both kinda know the way there but two seperate ways.. but nonetheless we managed to reach there bout 7.30pm.. so met up with the rests and had dinner together and the next destination was to sentosa, to watch the musical fountain.. so i was like thinking to myself: "do i wanna drive to sentosa? oh wait.. do i know how to drive to sentosa in the first place?" sidetrack abit: i am still a new driver ok.. not even 3 months into my license yet lor and you want me to drive to unfamiliar places such as sentosa? anyway that is not the worst yet.. so anyway yea i parked right opp the market and decided to try following the bus.. and guess what? i was driving out of the carpark and we spotted the buses at the other side, so i stopped my car on the other side of the road.. so the second bus left and overtook the first bus and i just followed along, behind the second bus that is.. and then the first bus left and the bus was behind me.. so i was like stuck in between two big buses lar.. it was so funny.. can imagine what the bus driver behind me was thinking.. "what is this car doing in between a bus? is he trying to do sth funny?" hahaha.. so yea with the bus help, i managed to get to sentosa and had to pay like 2 bucks per person to get in and of cos they charged for the car entrance also.. it was my first time driving around sentosa and learnt alot in a way like directions and stuff.. i hope i can remember lar cos i think i'm quite an idiot in directions lor.. so we went to watch the musical fountain.. was just on time for it and we sat at the side, kinda infront too lar.. so anyway it was kidna fun watching it again.. can't even remember when was the last time i saw it lor.. but it sure brought back fond memories lar.. looking at the water dance in the light, wow really pretty.. wished you were there to see it too but it's alright lar.. we got abit bored at the middle cos there was this monkey of sentosa called 'kiki or keke' whatever just singing stuff.. hmm not really interesting and as we were sitting like at the side, we can't really see like what is happening at the center.. but it's ok lar, kinda enjoyed it cos of the grand ending.. had flames like popping out f the floor like some flamethrower thingy and we actually felt the heat lar.. like *woosh* flames coming out and you can actually still see the smoke floating in the night dark sky.. that was probably bout it lar.. william mak even got abit wet cos of the high splashing fountain and i think the water 'dropped' on him.. he was like abit wet when we were talkin.. hahaha.. so thankfully we weren't fully in the front? hahaha.. or else we would be wet, and probably burned by the heat that was emitted by the flamethrower lor.. *laugh*

so after that, the last and final destination was mustafa shopping centre, in little india.. didn't think it was a problem driving there, i seeked directions from william mak and went to the car park to drive to our last destination.. never in my mind did i once i think i was gonna drive to LITTLE INDIA.. and i really mean LITTLE INDIA.. it was practically their streets lar!! and not only the pathways and sidewalks filled with indians, but even on the roads! and YES i practically mean ON THE ROADS! as i was like driving towards mustafa centre, i had to drastically slow down as i look on, all i see on the road were indians walking and i don mean 'j-walking cos you would try to walk faster to prevent getting knocked right?' cos they were practically just walking across, just as if you were walkin from one shop to another in orchard.. just that now it is in little india lar..so i had to like really slow down and watch for them and not the other way round! honestly, not that i am racist or anythin but i was gettin pissed lar.. and that wasn't the worse part.. so when we came to mustafa shopping centre, paul and jason were like pointing that that was the shopping centre and we turned right, thinkin that the parking lots would be around that area but that was a grave mistake and we paid a dearly price for it lar!! so as we realised that the parking lots were not that and we called mak to confirm and he said that the parking is NEXT to mustafa and not BEFORE.. so nevermind, thinking that we can make a fast u-turn back rite? haha WRONG! we were like stuck in this small one way road, and the roads are already so small and the traffic was moving really REALLY slowly! and the 'people' walking across don't make it any faster.. they just see a space then they just gladly walk through when they actually should wait for the car to stop rite? NO! seems like they are the real 'vehicles' and we are the 'pedestrains'.. we have to wait for them and not the other way round lar! so can you imagine how i was feeling at that time? i was feeling so tired already, physically then still have to like go through this.. i was like so tired, and pissed at the same time but yet could do nothing bout it.. ya i can just ignore them and just go at full speed but that would not be good cos that would have led to serious injuries and they are still humans, made by God still! just sometimes i don know why i can't bring myself to go and love these people! sigh.. must ask God for forgiveness man! so anyway after like 10 mins, managed to get back on the main road and once again have to drive through the roads that are filled with pedestrains.. then jason lee received a call from his mom, saying that they have to leave at 1o.30pm.. and the time that we were on the main road was bout 10.05pm or so.. so we were like *sigh.. should have gone straight to church or sth and john was like saying we should have gone to killiney kopitiam to eat!* hahaha! sigh.. so our sprits were really dampened but yet we persisted and finally made it to mustafa.. almost lost my driving lar.. as in i like couldn't drive anymore, or maybe i'm just scared of driving.. that is really the scary side of driving man.. going up the multi storey carpark wasn't as easy as i thought it was and i kinda bumped a few kerbs but thankfully we still managed to make it into Mustafa building, ALIVE!! hahaha so thank God lar!! really man.. it is like some amazing race thingy then we still managed to complete the race! hahahaha! but it was really an experience never to be forgotten man, at least not for the week ahead! hahaha! and probably will think twice bout going little india, or should i say think twice bout driving there? hahaha! i am so glad to be home once again man. on my bed and quiet streets.. i was so sian and 'scared' that i asked my mom to drive home instead.. what a traumatic experience man.. what a day! hahah! thank God for watching over us and bringing us through! so thank You God! x-)

anyway i'm glad you are feeling better already.. i am still here for you if you need me, either when you need a listening ear or just wanna release a few punches.. haha you know what to do lar yea? it is impossible to please everybody and i will just say it again that you just have to please one person, and that is God.. you are doing well and don't worry too much bout it.. we live our lives for one God and not for anyone else! just keep that in mind and everythin else will seem less impt.. and even though you make not so good decisions and screw things up, God still loves you, not any less! that is really comforting and i just wanna encourage you that you are really doing well in whatever you are doing! jia you ok? persist on and don't give up! still keepin you in prayers mortal.. don slack too much tmr.. or hmm should i say today? WOLS!! *bursts into laughter* :D hahahaha.. wow it's like 1.50am! i'm so tired but here i am still typing this entry.. really enjoyed talkin to you just now and glad to know you are feeling better.. angel will try everything he can (rack his little brain) to see his mortal smile! have a great holiday ahead and better study hard lar ok? not more slacking you SLACKER! hahaha.. gonna sleep now.. said a bedtime prayer for you! :o-)

good night.

so tired.
sticky dreams? hmm right!

sweet dreams!

2005-04-30T23:17:00.000-07:00

here i am staring at the lap top monitor, not knowin what to update.. hahaha.. i think i will just continue my blabbering and that will be my entry.. *laugh* yea sure.. i'm not that lousy.. i hope..

anyway it has been quite a tiring day lar.. didn't really do much, went to work in the morning as usual but my colleague last minute called me and told me that she can't make it for work.. then i was like 'sigh.. gotta work with my uncle today.." not that he is bad or what just that it is quite boring in a sense la.. cos if my colleague is around, we can just talk and i can play with my lap top, turn on songs to listen to and just crap around but with my uncle around, nothing much i can do but to read the newpaper and just stone.. but thankfully the radio is on la so it's not THAT bad.. business wasn't really that good as expected but managed to sell off one kitten and i kinda bidded goodbye to the pup.. hahaha.. that is if 'she' is still gonna be around till next week when i go and work again.. and yay i got my pay! oops.. should be keepin this quiet or else someone would actually rob me! hahaha.. hmm right..

so i left work at bout 3.40pm or so and headed home for a short rest before heading to church for youth choir.. the weather is super hot today lar.. when the guys were learning the song outside, some of us were already starting to sweat.. so when we headed back to the sanctuary, we were like 'SO SHIOK!' hahaha.. way too hot outside man.. so once choir ended, i rushed over to paul's place.. thought i would be late but i was abit early so just slacked at his place before playin tennis.. tennis was alright, both paul and i were playin pretty well for the first 15mins before it got really bad after that.. probably our energy were all gone, balls flying everywhere and even hit over the fence to the neighbouring condo's pool..! ahahaha.. sigh.. but we just persisted and played for an hour before we finally gave up and packed up.. hmm think lost 4 balls today.. hahaha it's alright la i guess.. but it was fun, tiring yet fun.. so thanks alot man..

feeling quite tired now.. i almost fell asleep on the bed just now.. was just lying there, listening to the music and decided to close my eyes for awhile.. then suddenly *poof* fell into deep sleep already.. but the next song suddenly woke me up, 'shut up by simple plan' hahaha sigh! and with my taskbar flashing from a few people on msn.. think gonna sleep soon, sleepy sleepy.. or i think i'm just lazy.. hmm yea..

still deciding if i should go for the owlet night tmr.. gonna be really long lor.. starting at 4pm and ending at bout 11.30pm or so.. then andy askin me to go his house to play gamecube, another slumber party.. ahaha.. now kinda caught in the middle man.. sigh will just decide tmr i guess.. hope that you will be there too! better sleep soon lar okie? don sleep too late too cos tmr is sunday! keeping you in prayers..

*wan an ren.

____praying praying prayin..

2005-04-29T23:38:00.000-07:00

yay..! i have officially completed my job.. as in i wouldn't need to work on weekdays anymore.. wow time really passes fast huh? but i think i'm still gonna continue my part-time work, which is to work on every sat from 10am to 4pm.. some extra allowance would be nice too mah rite? hahaha.. gotta bid goodbye to the cute pup which just came in today.. same breed as the last two cos they were sold already.. still very cute nonetheless.. gonna miss you pup!! *hugs pup..*

still sneezing quite abit this morning but stopped already so thank God for the fast recovery! so anyway i left work late, at bout 5pm or so cos mei wanted to come down holland v to see if there are bags for her to buy.. those haversack kind cos her sling bag is making her shoulders really tired so i asked her to come down holland v cos there is this shop with sells sports stuff along with bags but not alot of varieties lar.. so anyway she reached at 5 (that's why i waited till 5! hai.) so she looked around but could not find one that she likes so told her that we will head to queensway another day to find her bag lor.. kinda wasted my time waiting for her but it's ok lar.. was helpin out my colleague too so i guess it was 'well' spent(*wasted*? haha no lar..)

i reached home at bout 5.30pm, watched abit of tv and went out at bout 6 or so to go get my hair cut.. drove to bukit timah plaza and went back to the usual hairdresser.. instructed her how i want my hair to be done and even got my hair coloured abit.. highlighted this colour, wanted it to be NOT SO obvious but turned out QUITE obvious.. so i was like.. nevermind.. i know the coluor will fade anyway SOON so it's alright lar.. maybe i should wear a cap? hmm.. at least now my hair is not as short as that time i cut.. everyone was asking me if whether i was in NS already anot.. hahahaha.. then i would reply "i still got 1 more year lor!" and then sign, then walk away.. hahahaha..poor me right? hehe just kiddinn. :p

so anyway gonna head back to work as usual from tmr onwards.. 3 more weeks of holidays, must plan carefully so that it will not be wasted! then most prob tmr gonna play tennis after choir at paul's place.. sorry jacq, cannot go and support ya but i will give you all the moral support.. not as if that will help but sorrie okie?! gonna be quite a long day tmr so gonna sleep now so that i won't be so tired tmr..

have a great saturday ahead yea? and don bully your teacher at tuition yea? and don even try to fall asleep lar.. though it is boring, try to look interested still lar ok? can you imagine if you are teaching a bunch of "bubbly" and "talkative" girls(didn't say it is sc ok! hah ooPs! did i say sth?) *looks away innocently* and then you see this girl sleepin in your lesson.. yea you get it rite? hahahaha.. sleep tight! wan an!

___*sweet dreams*

prayin bout it.

2005-04-28T23:17:00.000-07:00

*sniff sniff*

ended up with a flu this morning but yet still feel so hot.. urgh the weather is like really killing me, particularly my nose! have been sneezing since i started work and i think the action i repeated the most was to grab the toilet paper and start rolling and peel off to blow my nose.. but now much better already cos i took the panadol fast relieve for flu/fever/headache.. and the good thing bout it is that it is in powder form and i just needed to pour the powder into a cup of warm water and add abit of sugar to make it easier to drink.. and just drank it and felt better after that.. didn't sneeze anymore so it was good.. (:

so i left work at bout 4 to go back home to take a rest.. cos i agreed to go dinner with jack and bings yesterday.. though i was feeling really sleepy and the flu made me sneeze so much, i still decided to go ahead lar.. since it is really rare for us to go out dinner together.. so anyway i went home and took a short nap and took my medicine before headin out.. took a bath before leaving home at bout 6.50pm.. jack drove to my car park and i drove him there cos he lazy to drive there!! hai.. haha.. so anyway we went towards marina south and picked bings on the way from the bus stop.. so we went to ZHEN FA HUO HAI XIAN.. haha.. not really packed but still quite crowded.. so yea we had steamboat, just the 3 of us.. supposed to have a few more people but they all couldn't make it lor.. so HaiBao meeting down to 3 only.. sad huh? hahah! so we just sat there, ate and talk bout almost everything.. it was really fun as we just sat there and it was really funny cos we had this bowl of 'LIFE' prawns and i really do mean A-LIFE(alive)!!! they were still jumping around lar!! so when jack wanted to pick out one of the prawn to cook, it actually jumped out of the chopsticks.. now bings thought he was MAN enough to go and 'catch' the prawn, took up his pair of chopsticks and tried to catch the prawn too but guess what happened next?! the prawn JUMPED UP once again and bings in his BIMBOTIC AND HIGH PITCH VOICE, screamed 'AHH!!' !! hahahah really funny lor.. i even moved away from the table, pretending not to know him.. it was so SO funny lar can!! his response was really so ~~gay~~ happy lor!! gosh but not the first time that he screamed like this lar.. hahahaha!! but it was so funny.. nothing much happened for the rest of the prawns.. they obediently made their way to the foil which was heated by a really hot burning flame, kept alive by the big tank of gas.. and it was really delicious lor.. butter prawns never tasted that good! jack applied abit of butter on each side of the prawns and yummy..! it was really really yummmyyy!! though i thought it was kinda cruel cos i had to look at the prawn struggle on the hot plate, slowly dying away before ending up in our mouth! so hmm but yet God created the animals for us to eat isn't it? so thank You God for making the prawns! *laugh* :D

so anyway we walked around marina for awhile before headin back to the car to go home.. so the 3 of us were just talkin in the car and i dropped bings back at my house bus stop so that he could take 153 back to toa payoh.. while jack drove home from the car park without sendin me home!! hahaha normally he would send me to my void deck even though my house is just opp the carpark.. hahaha pang seh lor! :p

so now gonna head to bed soon.. supposed to be in bed by 11 but hmm kinda forgot the time.. sorrie mortal!! forgive your blur and forgetful angel okie? :) anyway congrats bout your napfa!! hahaha.. really happy that you managed to get your gold! *cheers* ((: great job yep? anyway all the best for your phy prac tmr.. gotta head to bed soon before i really start feeling guilty.. hahahaha...! sweet dreams lil peeg!

still prayin hard bout it..

nitey nite you! :)

*still abit sick but recovering soon.

don't you just love the colour combi of my tag board? hahahaha!! pinkkkk!! hahah hmm..

2005-04-28T14:30:00.000-07:00

i saw this postcard while at work today.. really cute with this persian cat infront of it.. really cute and i find the words really nicee.. so decided to write it here.. :p

"Love is Missing Someone Whenever You're Apart,
But Somehow Feeling Warm Inside Because
You're Close in Heart."

how sweet.

how true,

wo ye hen xing fu

2005-04-27T22:00:00.000-07:00

oh, first and foremost,

Happy Birthday Kumchiew!!
though i don't really know you age but i guess that doesn't really matter huh? hahaha.. anyway i really thank God for a bro like you man.. a really great example for me to follow and it is indeed a blessing to be in the same church as you, as my ex-sunday school teacher and it is truly a great experience to be on the same worship team as you, to share your love, passion and zeal for God! thank God for you man!! really..! thanks bro! :)

hmm today was alright lar or was i probably just too tired and my forgetfulness that made my day bad.. sigh.. hmm let's see.. i managed to get some sleep(finally!) and slept for like 9 hours at least.. i set my alarm clock at 9am but when the alarm clock rang this mornin, i went to switch it off and headed back to sleep! hahaha!! and only woke up half an hour later.. so hmm as usual was late for work.. i rushed everythin, packed my lap top, clothes and my tennis racket cos i was intending to head to paul's place after work to play some tennis.. so washed up, bathed and ran straight out of the house at bout 10.. still had to help my mom to put the clothes out to dry so that took up some time too.. so hmm as usual i took a cab to work and that was my first 'accident'.. so as usual i took a cab to holland v and i stopped right ouside holland v.. as there were a few cars waitin behind, i quicky took out my cash and paid the driver and hurriedly hopped out of the cab.. and just walked away while the driver drove away.. but guess what? while i was walkin towards the shop(only a took a few steps) and i realised that something was missing.. my hands felt empty cos i was holding my tennis racket in my hand when i got onto the cab..

thoughts running through my head: I LEFT MY RACKET ON THE CAB!!! AHHH!!! RUN AFTER THE CAB!!

but guess what? it was too late already.. i went back to the place where i dropped off from the cab but i guess he already drove off quite far already.. sigh.. i was like really sad and quite angry with myself too.. i'm like really forgetful nowadays lar.. don know is it cos i'm tired or what.. so when i went to work, i was quite distracted and my colleague was like tellin me to go and call up the cab company to report for my loss racket.. so i was like TRYING to remember what company it was and I CAN'T REMEMBER!!! ARRGH!! this is really bad la.. it happened like less than an hour ago and i can't even remember which company the cab belongs to!! sigh sigh sigh! so i just called up the companies(most of them lar.. at least i know it is not TIBS or YELLOWTOP!) hahaha.. called up like bout 4 companies and just reported bout my loss racket.. i'm more angry with myself how come i cannot remember things that just happened less than an hour ago.. is that really possible? sigh.. something is really wrong with me and i don't know what is it.. *dismay look* :(

i think i probably just lack sleep and i will sleep even earlier tonight.. and i hope i can lar.. nothin much happened at work, bathed the puppy.. it actually didn't get sold cos the supposed owner didn't come back to buy it.. haha so thankfully still got the pup to play with and to make me smile.. really love that pup! so cutee!! :p (some will probably say otherwise but i just love this breed of dog! it's the best!) so i was thinkin of gettin another racket since i already wanted to change my racket like since last year but didn't have the time to go and find one.. so i headed down to queensway shoppin centre to find a similar racket so that i don really have to change my strokes and how i play.. so i went into this shop and the person workin over there recognised me cos i bought equipments from him before so he was like recommendin me this racket and it looks really good.. though a bit pricy and abit out of my budget.. he put in a deal for me and it was good.. so i bought it and corn came to meet me before headin to paul's place together.. in a cab!! but this time of cos, the racket was tightly around my arms! hahaha!! so i started to try out my racket and it felt really good.. feels different from my previous one but this one is better, more control but still need to play more to get the feel and to get used to it i guess.. but it was really fun playin with paul and corn.. though corn hit a few balls out of the court but it was still fun lar.. and my tamperner kept on flyin out after a few shots of the ball.. hai! so decided to playwithout it and it was still fun lar.. the weather is so HOT can?! i only started to play like 10 mins or so but i sweated as if i was playin for like half an hour.. and the best thing is that i'm not even tired, just sweaty lor.. don know why nowadays the weather is so hot, even in night lor.. or is it just me? hmm.. still nonetheless it was a well learnt day i would say.. to be less forgetful and to be more careful with my things? hahah yea!!

headed home for dinner at bout 7.30pm.. took a cold bath and it felt reallyyy good! hahaha.. now listenin to SLY's album.. only like 2 songs nice.. hahaha.. i'm not really into Sly or whatsoever.. was supportin him during the singapore idol probably cos someone else was supportin taufik.. hmm so *bursts into laughter*

happy that you actually studied so much! proud of you! but you still came online huh? *ponders ponders..* well everyone needs a rest isn't it? heh.. you'd better go and sleep early lar! so that you won't feel so tired in sch and end up almost fallin asleep in class..! so please go and rest early la yep? study hard and don be such a slacker.. or should i say don't be a PRO-slacker! haha yea that sounds better! :P

i think i'm gonna try to sleep early tonight.. hopefully by 11pm or so.. so that i won't be SO tired tmr.. i know i still will be and hopefully i won't be so forgetful tmr.. and take good care of my belongings! hai.. alrighty then.. gonna end of here tonight then.. good night!! (:

yay i like my new n-six-one racket.. looks really nicee.. ;)

burnt a part of my savings. *laugh*

still prayin bout our issue.
sweet dreams.. ((:

once again, Happy Birthday Kum Chiew! Thank God for you!

2005-04-26T21:43:00.000-07:00

Yay.. just ended the slumber party over at my place.. both jasons(wong and lee) and paul came over my place yesterday afternoon at bout 4 or so.. so they kicked things off with smash bros while i hibernate to last for the night.. so i was like sleepin while they were playin with the game cube.. so i woke up just in time for dinner and mom cooked alot of nicee food!! thanks alot mum!! so we started playin at bout 7 plus or so.. we played alot of games, from mario kart to mario tennis.. and then winning 11 cos there were 4 of us.. even though we had the PS2 but can only play 2 people max.. so we decided to just play the game cube first and we played all the way till bout 11.30 or so..

then we decided to head out for supper so we went to the abc market near queensway.. to go eat the famous mee pok, think it was out on the newspaper and was even interviewed by a tv show last time on channel u.. so it was really good lar.! we just sat there and just talk talk talk.. not those girly kinds of 'talks' nor gossips.. hahaha.. just enjoyin the night and the night wind as we cruise on the road.. so anyway we went back home at bout 12.30 and guess what? we went back playin the game cube again!!! *laugh* :D this time we played mario kart! (yea again!) but this time we decided to race against one another..

it was like really fun la cos we were like trying to prevent each other from winning.. i even tag teamed with paul to put jason lee out of the game.. and in the end, paul ended up winning! sigh.. but it was so much fun lar, we were like just laughin there.. (hopefully it didn't disturb my mom and my sis who were sleepin in the room.. ahahaa... :P ) so we played till bout 4 and then decided to head to bed.. so paul was sleepin on the floor in my room and the 2 jasons in my elder sis's room.. it was like so hot can?! we were like so hot and sticky and did i say sweaty? gosh.. so erm we just slept without our shirts on.. cos it was too hot lar!! hahaha... or was it just yesterday? hmm.. still quite hot now lor, even though i'm like in my mom's room with the air con on at full blast.. sigh.. so we woke up at bout 9 or so then headed out to play once again!! *laugh* hahaha.. it's just so fun, as in sleep late and wake up and first thing we do is to get back to the game cube! hahaha! we played till bout 12.30 or so and headed to the market opp my block.. had some noodles and corn had chicken rice and wong has a HUGE plate of hokkien mee for only 3 dollars!! guess it was really worth it, lookin at him gobble up all the food..! hahaha..! so to end off the slumber party, we went back to play again! what else can we do rite? hahaha.. we were slackin around in the room too lar, watchin some funny videos off the net.. before ending back infront of the tv with the controllers in our hands.. hahaha.. yea that's bout it i guess.. paul and wong left first.. what a tiring day cos we didn't really sleep alot, and the hot weather! sigh.. make us so drowsy but the tv animations are still more attractive!! heh..

so gonna head back to work tmr.. my last week of work cos it is comin to the end of april already.. yay!! time really flies lor.. i have already worked for a month, can't wait to get my pay at the end of the month!! hahaha.. don know what i wanna buy leh, probably just put it in my bank and just save it up..? i'm not really much of saver lar.. but will try to this time! hahaha.. anyway thank God for the fun times we had man.. a great time of fun and fellowship.. ((:

wanna say this to someone who wants me to update..

DISCLAIMER: I AM NOT DIRTY pig ok?! HUH!

sure you are innocent lar.. yea yea? *bursts into laughter* you go and study lar you! always trick me one.. i shall ~~NEVER~~ fall into your traps AGAIN!!! evil peeg! i will ~~NEVER~~ believe you again! ;) you better go and study hard okie? and don sleep too late too lar!! still say you innocent! HUH! *looks away blurly* eh wait.. i am not BLUR!! nooo!!! shall talk less to you in the future(just kiddin! :P ).. cos you influence me, not the other way round ok?! hahaha!! sleep early tonight.. sweet dreams you evillll mortal!!

sweaty and sticky now.
gonna bath.

*wan an!
still prayin hard! x-)

2005-04-25T14:10:00.000-07:00

*yawn* feeling really tired now.. didn't sleep much again yesterday,, though was feeling rather tired and all but didn't go to bed when i was supposed to.. couldn't help it cos was watchin wrestlemania.. just wanted to stay till 11 to record but suddenly i just couldn't get back to sleep already.. really wanted to sleep early cos was really tired from tennis but just couldn't go to sleep.. now all those days which i didn't sleep much are coming onto me now.. feeling super tired right now.. all the fatigue has creeped up on me, so stoned right now..

anyway still prayin for your chem and zi du yep? don't forget to tell me how it went ok? *smileee* :))

later the 2 jasons and paul are comin over to my place.. stayin overnight to play game cube/ps2 through the night i guess.. and gonna sleep in tmr i guess.. hope that i can stay awake with them tonight.. but i think i should go back and get some rest first before they come over.. hopefully i can get some rest before tonight.. gonna be a real long night ahead.. lookin forward to it but still not lookin forward to it in a way cos i will be real tired.. so hopefully i will be able to stay alive tonight.. hahaha..

gotta get all these out of the way.
wanna get it over and done with.

gotta get more sleep.

lack sleep.

2005-04-23T22:30:00.000-07:00

just a quick update on my day.. not really the best of saturdays la.. didn't sleep much(as usual! sigh.) then was feelin real tired this morning.. but managed to get to work even earlier than normal cos mom drove me there.. i guess the good thing was that we managed to sell off the pups today.. quite sad to see them go off into the arms of other people but i'm really happy for them cos they have found good owners that will love and take really good care of them.. i will just miss them barking at me when i open the shop every morning.. take care pups!! will miss you! hahaha.. x)

left the shop at bout 3.30 then headed home to get some rest before headin to church for choir practice.. where are all the guys? andy is in paris, john is at home studyin and josh must be somewhere in batam or sth enjoyin himself! sigh.. so only down to 3 guys..(jason,elias and myself) but should be ok la.. will go rest early to have more energy for tmr! gonna play tennis with jason tmr also.. anyway so after choir, i headed down to bukit timah to get my specs fixed.. not cos i sat on them or anythin ok?! one part of my specs(the plastic which supports the specs and rests on your nose or sth..) dropped so i had to go and get it tightened.. and to replace the one which dropped.. paid like 4 bucks and 2 dollars parkin fee.. hmm..

hope you like the twix and the postcard.. ((: study hard! yep still prayin hard bout it.. keepin you in prayers too.. for your chem test and your zi du.. the ever blur and forgetful mortal.. *laugh* still can't imgaine how blur you can be.. come to think of it. it is indeed very funny! esp bout your contact lens and stuff.. anyway continue to do your bestest for your fire.. i know you can do it and prove to them you are a good petrol leader! i have absolute confidence in ya! :o)

wo zai wei ni dao gao! wan an!.. x)

2005-04-23T00:30:00.000-07:00

today was a real tiring day man.. didn't sleep much yesterday night.. went to bed bout 2.3oam but i think i actually fell asleep at bout 4am.. also don know why.. hmm.. is that considered insomia? *ponders*

but still went to work as usual.. dragged myself off bed cos was feeling really tired.. woke up late and told my colleague that i'd be late.. everythin at work seemed slow, time passing slow and not much customers also.. i was pretty much stoning most of the time.. and staring at my lap top screen.. not doing anythin much also.. was chattin to paul and jason.. time just seemed to pass really slow today.. had a late lunch and the day was like just sitting infront of my lap top, talkin to my colleague and serving a few customers here and there.. see work is boring?! and someone i know wants to work right now!! sigh.. wait till you work then you will realise how fun studyin is!! hahaha..

so anyway went home at bout 4 plus to get a rest.. took a nap to bout 6, had dinner and then went to prayer meeting.. picked up paul on the way there and went to church.. so after prayer meeting, my sunday (ex)school class decided to meet for supper at bukit timah.. so i had to go pick up elda first before we head to bukit timah.. so we(arthur,calvin,paul,christine,vania,elda and me) had malay food.. had pratas and christine and vania had their own soups.. yea so we were just talkin and catchin up abit.. it was fun i have to say.. hahaha.. really missed those times where our class were much closer.. sigh..

anyway gonna head to bed soon.. really tired now, fatigue from yesterday spilling over to today.. and still gotta work tmr and my colleague is on OFF.. (hahaha.. on OFF.. get it?! hahah!) hahaha.. feelin quite lame now, must be cos i'm tired or sth.. brain quite slow now.. so gonna go rest now..

you'd better study hard for your chem test!! and do well for it too.. wake up early and study yea? will make sure you study!! hahahaha.. sleep early okie? *sweet dreams*

prayin bout it still..

glad to know you are better today! keep up that spirit! x-) wan an mortal!

2005-04-22T14:45:00.000-07:00

just a quick update.. just went for supper with jack,, yeap went to abc market again for its famous mee pok.. and he had his kway teow mee soup.. yea we had fun just talkin bout sch and all.. were talkin bout our results and the future and all.. so anyway after supper he came to my place for some winning 11.. hahaha.. cos he was sayin how good he is at the game and wanted to badly to thrash me at it.. so we had a go and it was sure fun and very funny la.. so after that, he went home at bout 2 or so.. it was fun and i won him 2 games out of 3.. hahahaha!!! thanks alot jack.. it was sure fun man.. should have another outing soon, hopefully with the rest of the HaiBaos? includin the leader eugene cos he was so touched by your blog!!! whahahahaha!!!

thank God for a sweet and yet funny mortal.. fun to make fun of, bully and sometimes end up being punched by you.. hahaha.. hai.. i so poor thing rite? but it's ok la.. don mind enduring that 'little' pain as long as you can feel better and to see you smile.. :))

still keepin you in prayer every night.. i also pray for the people that they won't irritate you cos they sure do not want to feel your wrath! cos it is really scary.. (i can testify to that! :P) *laugh*
rest well and get back more of your energy.. both for your homework and your fire which sucks away most of your energy.. rest well mortal!!

sweet dreams lil mortal.. prayin for you and our issue.. *nite nite ren pei hui!* :D

*feeling high but tired. hah.

2005-04-21T13:30:00.000-07:00

yay.. thank God!! *bursts out in excitement and relief*

didn't managed to get much sleep cos was feeling quite scared bout my results.. still nonetheless i thank God for my results.. hahaha.. *cheers* passed my AMD.. with a D grade.. really contented with my results.. probably the best results i have ever received in my 2 years of studies at ngee ann!! hahaha.. so really thank God for my results!! ((:

so here's my results:
FM-B+,
AMD-D,
CAM-C,
CP1-B,
PQS-B,
AT:C+,
EM3B-B

hahaha.. thanks for prayin mortal.. really appreciate it.. :)

indeed God is always in charge!! you'd better study hard and be a good nerd like me.. will try to be a better nerd next year for my final year and will strive to do even better next year.. so you too better do the same!! i know your results aren't really what you really wanted it to be.. don't give up ok? cos i didn't and you'd better not!! will pester you to start mugging and be a good nerd, just like your angel.. oh ya, that reminds me that i haven seen you in your specs yet.. eh so when are you gonna show me your 'nerdy and intellectual' side ar?!!!! huh huh?!

remember your study plan for today yes?! to do finish all your hw first before you can slack yes?! *stares at you* have fun studyin!! no tests this week but still must study yep? and make sure you do even better than me!! and score all As for your exams!! prayin for you too!

jia you.

happy me.

thank God! x)

juliet

2005-04-20T23:42:00.000-07:00

thanks mortal for the song..
it's so cool and fun.. hahahaha.. hearing the song over and over again.. just so funnyy la.. ((: cool song..

[though still can't imagine you and your friends dressing up in guides doing this song!! but should be funn la!! hahahaha!!!]

Hey I've been watching you
Every little thing you do
Every time I see you dance
In my homeroom class, makes my heart beat fast
I've tried to page you twice
But I see you roll your eyes
Wish I could make it real
But your lips are sealed, that ain't no big deal
'Cause I know you really want me
I hear your friends talk about me
So why you tryin'to do without me
When you got me
Where you want me

(Hey Juliet)
I think you're fine
You really blow my mind
Maybe someday, you and me can run away
I just want you to know
I wanna be your Romeo
Hey Juliet

Girl you got me on my knees
Beggin' please, baby please
Got my best DJ on the radiowaves saying
Hey Juliet, why do you do him this way
Too far to turn around
So I'm gonna stand my ground
Gimme just a little bit of hope
With a smile or a glance, gimme one more chance

'Cause I know you really want me
I hear your friends talk about me
So why you tryin'to do without me
When you got me
Where you want me

(Hey Juliet)
I think you're fine
You really blow my mind
Maybe someday, you and me can run away
I just want you to know
I wanna be your Romeo
Hey Juliet

I know you really wan't me
I hear your friends talk about me
So why you tryin' to do without me
When you got meWhere you want me
You don't have to say forever
For us to hang together
So hear me when I say
Hey Juliet

Hey Juliet
I think you're fine
You really blow my mind
Maybe someday, you and me can run away
I just want you to know
I wanna be your Romeo
Hey Juliet

Hey Juliet
I think you're fine
You really blow my mind
Maybe someday, you and me can run away
I just want you to know
I wanna be your Romeo
Hey Juliet

Hey Juliet
Hey Hey Juliet
Hey Juliet
Hey Hey Juliet
Hey Juliet

a pretty old song, bout 2 years plus ago.. by LMNT (Juliet)..
yay!! managed to find the mp3 version.. woo hoo! *cheers* enjoy! ;)

thanks again peeg.. x-)
i know you are real excited bout your geog trip.. your excitement is so contagious can?! hahahaha.. i'm sure you will have fun but meanwhile study first la.. don always think of your geog trip.. always get yourself distracted while studyin.. remember your new plan yea? do finish all your hw first before you can slack in peace yep?

gonna get back my exam results tmr.. it will probably be out at 9! sigh.. super scared now, worried that i might fail my AMD paper.. cos it was a real killer paper but will just entrust my results to God.. cos i know He is still overall in charge of everything! *panic panic*

___prayin really hard for my results..and for you too.. (: (and bout our issue..)

thanks for prayin.. really helps me alot! sweet dreams ren.. :D
will try to get some rest myself.

2005-04-20T14:22:00.000-07:00

urgh managed to drag myself out of bed this morning.. was almost late for work too but managed to reach just in time.. i'm also not sure why i'm so tired especially in the morning..! when the my phone alarm woke me up at 9.15, i got up, walked to my phone and switched off the alarm and guess what i did next? nope not to go and wash up and get ready for work, but back to my bed! hahaha.. poof right back onto my comfy bed and nice smelling pillow.. it just seems like when you are tired, any position that you sleep in is SO SO(and i emphasize on the word 'SO!') nice, comfy enough to head back to sleep..! so anyway i was lying on the bed till 9.25.. ooPs.. then i finally got all my energy and determination to drag myself off my bed, and get ready to wash up and bath to get ready for work.. took a cab to work, quite cheap la..($3.40 or so)

nothin much at work.. took the 2 maltese pups for pom pom(bath) and now they smell so good!! hahaha.. but hmm but the nice smellin pups only last for a short while cos while they were playin with each other in the cage, they were steppin on their own poos and all!.. sigh! wasted all my efforts.. even took powder and groomed them but still they got all dirty and stuff.. but they are still so cute nonetheless.. i have this video of them which is sooo cutee!!! hahaha.. it will probably melt your heart and love them as much as i do!! *laugh*

tell me how your emath test go ok? keepin you in prayers..

please go back and rest okie?!

lalala.. peeg

2005-04-19T23:36:00.000-07:00

sometimes i just can't help it but feel that time really passes so fast that i don't even realise myself.. i made this mistake of writing the wrong date when i was working today.. kept on writing 18/4/2005 instead of 19th! hmm maybe i'm just blur.. (just like someone i know! :P) anyway didn't do much today(nothing new huh?! hah..) but i did the housework today.. mopped the floor today when actually someone thought that i was slacking the whole time! HUH!

DISCLAIMER: I DON'T SLACK 24/7!!!

actually, to be exact, 23/7 is the answer!!! *laugh* ((: grin grin..

slacking is fun don't you agree? hehe.. anyway jack came down to holland v and we had lunch together.. was supposed to go out supper tonight with a few of my classmates and they wanted to go to Geylang.. (no dirty thoughts please!) just that the dian xin there is super good and cheap!! and the frog leg soup is delicious(that's what i heard la.. though i haven really tried it yet!) but decided to give it a miss cos it is too far and i don't really want to drive to unfamiliar and 'dark' places.. and i still gotta work tmr too.. i don wanna 'scare' off my customers right? hahahaa.. :D

glad that you are sleepin early tonight.. cannot every night sleep so late then end up so tired in sch.. will be keepin your emath test tmr in prayers! and don be a worrier!! you know that God is in charge of everything okok?! have a good rest you little peeg! *nite nite*

boy meets girl.

2005-04-19T13:53:00.000-07:00

yay..

managed to start work 'better' in a way.. not really with a bang la but still better than yesterday and i'm happy bout it.. and the customers are happy(as in not scared of me la!!) hahaha.. so it's good.. ((:

but the one of the pups are like quite irritating, keep on barking for no reason but still super cuteee!!! hahaha.. maltese pups are really cute! wish i can keep one but mom won't allow, sayin that there is no one to take care of the dog and have to clean up their poos and stuff.. sad but it's ok, i'm happy that i can 'keep' a dog and play with it for FREE!! woo hoo..! :D

not doing anythin much, was just surfing the web and decided to style my windows! now it's like this blue colour all over my lap top monitor, quite cool.. hahahahaa.. don have anythin to do mah so decided to do sth! heh.. quite happy with it actually.. heh.. ;)

time really passes quick.. it's like i'm gonna go home in bout 2 hours or so.. quite happy with my performance today at work..(in a way la!) was readin the newspaper on the casino thingy and it's just very mind boggling, can't imagine what the future has for us.. my mom was like tellin me that in the future i have to teach my kids bout gambling and to really practice our faith as well.. we(Christians) have already done what we could, writing into the newspaper to make a stand, and pray pray pray bout casiNO! but yet the government still decided to go ahead with the casino and not 1, but 2!! what are they thinkin la! sigh.. i really don't know what to say also, just continue to pray bout the future man.. cos i know God is still overall in charge and in control.. for we do not know what the future has in store, but God is the Maker of all things and all things are created through Christ.. so we can only pray and pray!!

gonna start readin a book called 'Boy Meets Girl' (again! read it before already!) gonna re-read it again.. hahaha.. you know sometimes when you read sth that you read before already, more thoughts can actually struck you? it's like you will learn much more from the book or sth.. so that's what i'm gonna do! to learn more bout what God wants of me, esp in areas that i'm really weak in like bgr and stuff.. so yea.. ;)

2005-04-19T00:14:00.000-07:00

sigh.. was supposed to sleep early tonight but cos i took a short nap just now, ended up me not able to fall asleep that easily.. anyway didn't watch desperate housewives.. thanks again for the reminder and i know what you mean.. i won't watch it again and i'm glad we can be honest with each other and i'm glad you told me that.. ((: and don't worry, i am not angry or anythin.. why should i in the first place? hahaha! xie xie!

so gonna head to bed now.. though my mind is not really tired, still it's better to be on the bed then staring into the lap top monitor for too long.. haha.. have fun at sch tmr.. and enjoy yourself at the omnitheatre..

*nite nite..

wan an. x)

prayin hard..

2005-04-18T22:30:00.000-07:00

i wanna thank God for bringing me through today, even though i wasn't feeling too good and all.. just feeling quite tired today even though i didn't really do much.. so i headed over to paul's place for awhile to relax abit.. wanted to swim but decided to swim another day(probably tmr).. so anyway i went over and we talked abit, was using my lap top to tap on his neighbour's wireless and checkin stuff online, chatted abit too.. watched princess diaries(second disc) cos when i went over, paul already watched finished the first disc so i was watchin the second disc with him.. very funny show, was laughin quite abit during the show and a typical happy ending.. so after that went home and took a nap for bout one hour plus and had dinner, watched abit of tv, took a bath and went online to type this entry..

glad to know that your bio went quite well, even though you misread one of the questions completely..! hahahaha.. but don't worry yea? you have already tried your best! (: continue to be who you are and spread His love to everyone around you.. thank God for you.. and for encouraging me.. so thanks again..
!
gonna sleep early so can start tmr with a bang! haha.. literally that is!.. just hope that i can have the energy tmr and not repeat what happened today.. i think the customers were all quite scared of me somehow.. hahahaha.. did i really show my 'foul mood' that obvious? oops.. must have scared off a few customers.. *laugh* will try to gain/win more customers back tmr!! tmr is gonna be a brand new day and i want to start off well and end off even better!!

don think gonna watch desperate housewives.. not really the best of shows to watch isn't it? just not very erm.. good?! yea.. anyway i want to get more rest to get ready for a long day tmr and my colleague is on leave tmr.. so probably will be workin alone or with my uncle.. and gonna need my lap top to cure my boredom.. hehe.. :P

eletrico is nicee! esp runaway.. lovee the way the guitar is being played.. quite a good band i must say.. but i guess someone doesn't know how to appreciate it rite? *looks around innocently* lalalala.. just kiddin yea? probably not 'ROCK' enough to appreciate it.. eletrico is a cool band but probably not as good as the one i'm in!! *laugh* just joking!

Thank You, Lord! ((:

_sweet dreams. prayin hard.

2005-04-18T13:42:00.000-07:00

i'm feeling so tired today.. don know why i'm feeling like this too.. sigh.. probably cos today is monday? monday pink(blues) again..! urgh i just hate this feeling man.. just don't feel good in doing anything..

woke up feeling so tired and all, was lying on my bed when the alarm clock rang.. or maybe i just can't stand waking up early on mondays? hahaha.. not sure bout it la.. so still managed to drag myself to work and now here i am typing my blog to express my whatever feelings.. quite puzzled by myself to why i'm feeling the way i am now.. just a sucky feeling..

i was thinkin of going to paul's place to swim later, to just relax and forget everythin for awhile.. just lie there in the cold water, and probably exercise to 'vent out my frustrations?' hmm.. just wanted to do something to use the energy that is in me.. and probably make myself tired so that i can just go back home and sleep even more!! but now the dark clouds are covering the sky and now it's so dark here at holland v.. sigh.. think cannot go and swim already.. everything seemed so good yesterday but in the night, it just suddenly changed for no reason.. i think it is probably cos it is monday? i just don't like mondays i guess.. sigh.

sometimes when i want to forget bout my stuff and all, it just sometimes get worse and worse.. the more i want to forget it, the more it will come back to me.. maybe probably all these things that means alot to me.. maybe i just can't forget it.. hai.. really hope that i will get better soon, as in that i can resume to myself? haha right..

said a prayer for you.. tell me how your bio test goes ok? just leave the results into God's hands.. and don't worry so much.. (: cos He is in control of everything..! jia you okie?!

__a burden on my heart, it means alot to me.

what a great start to my week.
hai.
:(

2005-04-17T22:19:00.000-07:00

sigh..

so fast suday is soon gonna be over.. in like less than 2 hours? sometimes i just don't get why weekends pass so fast..! hai.. but still, i thank God for watching and bringing us though the week.. and i know that our God is faithful and will continue to watch over us and hear our prayers.. :))

anyway wanna thank God for today.. E1 service went pretty well, could hear the congregation prasing God, a real good feeling and for the first time during service, they had this 'worship members recognition" or some sort.. it was quite awkward cos we did not do this for anybody but for God! so all glory to God man!! woo hoo! ;)

followed by the combine TU worship which went quite smoothly too, no major mistakes that is.. except andy was pluckin this song and he accidentally plucked the wrong note.. think that was the biggest mistake but nonetheless everything went well too! could hear the youths singing and clappin their hands, really worshipping God! though there were times which i felt kinda funny, not sure if it was the song or what.. but still i pray that the worship would touch the hearts of the youths and that they will continue to live their lives for God and to continue praising His wonderful name!

SKY was having its last session on Islam.. though we didn't really debate much with the 'muslim', i personally learnt alot bout their relligion and their beliefs which are so wrong! hmm don know if i should be saying this but even more, the Christians should step up on our own knowledge of God and spread the truth to all the non believers around us.. i like it when Kumchiew say that we are in the business of saving lost souls..

how true.

so what are we doing to save the many lost souls that are out there around us?
read the bible, a personal and true relationship with God is very important! that's what i learnt today.. (:

anyway thanks for the encourgement bout the worship even though i was feeling all weird and yet happy at the same time.. thanks for the feedback too.. heh.. we definitely couldn't have done it without God! i am still prayin for you, for your bio test which is comin up tmr(monday), and pray that you will have the strength to last through the first day of the week, and last all the way until the weekend is here!! which is in 6 days time.. hahaha.. long but i'm sure it will past very fast!! another new week tmr, feelin quite 'monday pink' again.. sigh.. but i know God is always in our hearts and continue to rely on Him when you are feeling down or pissed at anything.. cos He will definitely listen and will give you peace! *prayin for you and bout the stuff that has happened this week!* stay strong mortal..! :o-) have a blessed week ahead! x)

oh ya, glad that dan has come back and joined us.. went to his house today during sunday school lesson and 'dragged' him back to church.. so must continue to pray for this dear brother of mine.. take care of yourself bro.. not that you will read this(or not yet.. heh) but i'm still prayin for you too..

gonna sleep now cos didn't sleep much yesterday night.. and playin the game cube with corn, paul and daniel made me even more tired.. staring at the tv screen the whole time.. but glad we had fun and the fellowship too!

jia you! wo zai wei ni dao gao!

God is love.

God is ALL forgiving, full of grace and mercy.

2005-04-17T00:48:00.000-07:00

what a day i had today.. managed to sleep for bout 9 hours! really glad that i managed to gain back some of my sleepin time.. lacked sleep ever since i started work, sleepin late and waking up early.. so i'm glad that i took the day off today to sleep more!! hahaha..

so anyway i woke up at bout 11 plus, grabbed some lunch from the market near my place.. slacked at home, watched tv and played some computer games.. just lazing around at home i guess.. then went to church at 3 for the combine TU worship practice.. i'm not sure if it was just me or what but i just feel that the drivers on the road were so unfriendly or sth.. then i have to avoid here and there, and some last minute jam breaks too! hai.. guess today's not the best of days to drive on the road huh? sigh..

so we started practice at bout 3.15 as the rest were late..(as usual!! *laugh*) everythin went quite smoothly, confirmed the orders of the songs again to double confirm and thank God everythin went well.. so must pray that God will truly use us tmr as we lead the other youths in praise and worship.. then went for choir practice at 4.30.. can't remember the title now but it's a familiar song cos a few of us have sang this song before and it was only 2 parts, thus making it even easier.. choir ended 15mins earlier, so headed opposite church with andy to grab some dinner before going back to church for another worship practice.. but this time with renjie and priscilla for tmr's main english service.. so just went through the songs and irwin was playin the drums.. it is his first time playin so he was quite uncertain but it was still good.. cos it is for God rite? ;) hehehe..

so tmr is gonna be a long day ahead.. somehow all related to music..! hahahaa.. but it's ok since i loveeee music so much!! *laugh* ((: it's gonna be a great day tmr!!! and singing praises together in one voice!! it's gonna be real fun tmr!! or at least that's what i pray la..

anyway i thank God that He has seen you through this week! it's gonna be a week that i doubt i will ever forget too.. and yea you are in my prayers every night and i am still prayin bout it too.. it means alot to me too and i know God will continue to hear your prayers.. and that He will continue to watch over you and bring you through yet another week ahead!! and i will be prayin for your bio test on monday.. and pray that God will give you the peace to study and not always get distracted yep? hahahaha.. God is ever faithful and ever loving!

tired.. sleepy.. nitenite.. :))

*sweetdreams___you*

zzzZ...

NYDC suppper!! woo hoo!

2005-04-16T01:16:00.000-07:00

ooh it's 1 am already!! and i just came home.. hahaha.. went out supper (yea again mortal! *laugh)

hmm super full now la.. went to pick paul up from his place and then headed to holland v.. was thinkin bout going back to bukit timah for killiney but it gets abit boring at times.. so we headed over to holland v where the night is so alive!! ahahaha.. it is really crowded cos there are pubs and people are going pubbing.. so that's why it is crowded with like people.. anyway so paul and i went to NYDC to have our supper.. hmm quite an interesting place for supper lor.. but the place was super crowded too lor.. anyway so we sat down and ordered our food.. i had a hawaiian pizza whereas paul has a lasagne.. we talked bout stuff and we just laughed while talkin and eating at the same time.. it was fun talkin to paul and we had a good time man.. so we left at bout 12.30 cos my parkin coupon only valid until then.. so yea we left and i dropped him back home before headin home myself.. now here i am bloggin.. hahaha.. don think can sleep yet, or else will grow fat easily.. not as if i'm like scared of bring fat or whatsoever.. just that i'm not doing much exercise now.. feels like only got input and no output.. hai.. will start to play more tennis again and to get back my fundamentals to get the strokes and techniques right.. i just miss playin tennis so much, had so much fun playin on monday at paul's place.. it was fun playin again cos i missed playin tennis so much!! sigh..

*cheers* no work tmr.. hahaha.. took the day off cos feelin so tired from wakin up so early everyday(9.15am) but i sleep like bout 1 plus 2 every night.. can't really get to sleep so easily now a days.. hmm don know why also lor.. but glad i can sleep in tmr too la.. catch up some time with my bed..! woo hoo!!.. ((:

worship prac at 3pm for the combine TU worship, followed by youth choir at 4.30 then renjie's E1 worship prac at bout 7.. hmm so long day of 'music'-related stuff tmr man.. hahaha.. but it's ok cos i loveee music!!! yea!!! music is my life!! how can i live without music? so can imagine how God is really talented rite in a way? wow he invented all these stuff.. drums,guitar,bass,piano,saxaphone,violin etc and so much more!! wow.. that's really impressive!! hahaha.. see how amazing God is??! gosh.. can't imagine man.. hahaha.. God holding a guitar and strumming stuff.. woo hoo!! COOL!! :D

don't worry too much bout your phy test la.. you trieed your best and just leave the results in God's hands! and don forget to pray when you are feeling very down and stressed ok? and pray for more patience and loads and loads of love when you talk to someone not really nice to talk to yea? ;) you must be sleepin like a baby now!! hahaha.. have a great day tmr at tuition and please study hard for your bio test on monday! jia you ((:

still keepin you in prayers.

praying hard every night.

*sweet dreams*_____still holding on.

hold on to God!

2005-04-15T15:13:00.000-07:00

*cheers*

another new template.. came across it when surfing at blogskins.com.. was feelin quite bored at work so decided to surf and see if i can come across any nice skins by chance.. and yea! managed to find more than 1.. but decided to use this one first.. hahaha!

hope you like it.. still kinda cute rite? *laugh* ((:

still at work now.. but not doing much also.. or should i say got nothin much to do.. i'm like just being paid to sit at the counter, entertain some customers to their needs and probably guard the cash box.. every shop needs a real MAN huh? *hahahahaha!!!!* :D

yea right.. hahaha! i just love to be the only man in the shop! i mean besides my uncle that is la.. but he is not around most of the time..

so how did your phy test go? hope you are still alive now.. hahaha.. tell me how your day goes later yea? ;)

still prayin for you.

gotta prepare to go home pretty soon.. and then go for prayer meetin later tonight.. quite sleepy now but corn is comin over to meet me or sth.. so doubt will sleep later.. heh alrighty..

see ya!

2005-04-15T00:44:00.000-07:00

a quick update before i head to bed.. promised someone to sleep by 11.30 but was watchin 'The OC' till 12.. was feelin kinda hungry so cooked instant noodles to fill my hunger.. yea so just went to find lyrics for andy to put into the powerpoint for this sunday's combine worship.. i'm really lookin forward to it and i know it will be good cos it is for God.. (thanks mortal for that reminder)

worship prac was good.. started at bout 7.45pm, as in really started la.. we were jammin abit but realised that we haven really prayed.. so yea we gathered together and prayed before the practice.. and we started going through the songs, confirmed the chords and the order of the songs too.. so everythin went quite well and could really feel His presence among us even though it is just a practice.. main thing is that the youths will be able to come together, and worship the One True God! yea can't wait for this sunday.. gonna be real fun singing together too!! won't give a hint on what songs we will be singing but just be ready to sing out our hearts for God! :)

so gonna head to sleep now.. though it is way past the time that i was supposed to sleep.. heh.. *yawn*

sweet dreams.

prayin for your phy test tmr.. and have a great day at sch tmr with your guides! pray that you will have the energy to sustain yourself through the day tmr..

gd nite mortal.

nite.

2005-04-14T01:13:00.000-07:00

*yummy*

just came back supper with jack at 'ABC Market'.. near queensway there.. supposed to meet him at bout 11 but in the end cos was talkin to mom.. so drove to the market and reached at bout 11.35 or so.. heh sorry yea? anyway so we were like talkin and it was good to catch up with jack once again.. cos since the holidays started, we never really got together to talk or play soccer etc.. so we chatted and he styled his hair like beckham's hair lor.. spiked just not golden only.. hahaha! but still nice lor.. hai.. so we had mee pok and he has kway teow mee soup.. so we talked and ate at the same time.. it was fun meetin up for this kind of 'outings' again.. so long never have our 'HAI BAO' outings already.. hahaha.. miss it man.. HAI BAO HAI BAO OI OI!! like some ah beng cheer like that.. :p *laugh*

anyway had a mini 'worship prac' just now.. but only turned out that me and jason wong went for the practice.. so went to church at 7, picked jason up from his place then headed to church (fellowship hall.) i needed to choose some songs to help andy with the selection so we took out our lap tops and tried to search for wireless but failed to connect online.. so we had to start racking our brains for songs that are appropriate for this sunday.. so we came out with a list of songs and started to practice some of the songs.. i was playin both guitar and drums while jason played the bass and played the guitar.. so we started playin through some of the songs and we decided to record what we were playin.. so we decided to sing his song while i play the drums.. so he recorded 2 songs that we played and it was quite professional i have to say.. just lack a bassist and probably a keyboardist? hmm yea.. but it is still quite nice lor.. *laugh* :D

so left the church at bout 9.20, dropped jason home before headin home myself.. went back and took a rest, went online and chatted abit and of cos talkin to mom.. which led to why i was late for supper.. haha but it's ok.. talkin to mom is important too..! hahaha.. ((: (must be a good and filial son mah..)

so yea so went for supper after that and reached home at bout 12.10.. i just love to drive in the night, not much cars and just cruising in the car with your favourite music on and enjoyin the night scenery.. admiring the little stars in the sky and the clouds that almost can't be seen.. i just love the night! so will be headin to bed soon or else i will be so super sleepy at work tmr.. and still got worship prac tmr night again.. but this time full force with andy and corn comin too.. and all guys team this time.. not sexist or anythin but just this time andy prefer a guitar driven worship so *sorry* :)

still prayin really hard and prayin for you too! take good care of yourself while at sch ok? rest well and have a good day in sch tmr!! *saying a bed time prayer for you*

nite mortal.

2005-04-13T00:08:00.000-07:00

no matter how tough the week is gonna be, God will never leave you and always trust in Him and pray for strength! cos only He has the ability to lift You up when you fall..

i will always be there no matter what..! and to walk this alongside with you.. and i am still prayin very hard bout our issue.. God will always give us the best and sometimes it is really great to know that God is always with us, watching us and listening to our bedtime prayers.. so thank You, God for listening to our prayers..! :))

meanwhile better study hard and continue to rest well and take your medicine if you haven fully recovered.. take good care of yourself ok?..

*sweet dreams mortal.. nite.. wan an! x-)

2005-04-11T23:00:00.000-07:00

i wanna thank God for the good talk with you just now.. really glad that we managed to talk things out just now..

and i wanna say it again that i don like to see you cry ok? because i don't feel any better when you are sad.. will still be your *a-hem* shoulder for you to lean on ok? just don like to see you sad that is..

obeying God is indeed important and we should be always be putting God first in whatever things we do, including relationships.. to have a strong and lasting relationship, i believe that God must be the center or should i say the foundation of the relationship cos it will never fail..

i will be prayin bout that issue everyday!! because it means alot to me, as much as it means to you.. just as much as you mean to me..!
"you will never know how much that person means to you until he/she leaves you."

how true.

it's just quite funny how we often think alike and feel so the same..

really prayin bout our future.. who knows what God has in store for us?
*waitin for His perfect timing*

but when do you know that THAT exact time is THE time that God wants you to be with that someone? hmm good question.. an answer that i have yet to find out!

once again, i'm glad we managed to talk things out and be very honest with one another! meanwhile, i shall just continue to be your angel and you my mortal! *prayin really hard bout our issue* and i know you are prayin hard bout this too!

don let it affect you that much and i'm glad you are feeling better already.. study hard and please rest well cos you haven recovered yet!so please sleep early too!

nite.

you are in my prayers.

faith\ * -lil'-faith-holding-strong-* __trying to hold on. [rays of light among the dark clouds.]

you'd better be strong and hold on.. prayin that God will give you the strength and lift you up when you are feeling down.. stay strong mortal pei hui!! ((:

I'm sorry.

2005-04-11T20:00:00.000-07:00

i never ever expected things to turn out like this.. all i wanted was to be there for you when you need to talk to someone and just try to cheer you up when you are sad..

i'm really sorry for making you feel so confused and all..

God indeed know our hearts and He will lift us up when we are down but sometimes men just like to do their own ways and thus have to reap the consequences of disobedience to God.

it hurts me as much as it hurts you.

i'm sorry.

Your Unfailing Love

2005-04-10T22:30:00.000-07:00

Thank God for a great sunday! and for the worship with people singing their hearts out worshipping You! thank You for being in our midst and just being there for sinners like us to worship You!

Thank You Lord for using the worship with the only little gifts that we have and magnifying Your great name and giving You the full glory that You deserve and that You deserve nothing less! and my prayer would be that we would live our everyday lives for You and not for anything or anyone.. for You created us to worship You but yet we get ourselves distracted with wordly stuff that don't last but You have given us eternal life.. what are we doing about our lives since we have this gift of salvation? just live off everyday just as a normal non christian and chase after wealth, or even relationships that can only last for a short time and to satisfy your own worldly desires?

i also don know why i'm feeling so low all of a sudden.. probably cos tmr is monday and a start of a new week i guess.. not really looking forward to stuff and all cos it gets all so repetitive, just like a routine.. doing this day in and day out.. but yet we sometimes do not know why we are doing this and who we are doing it for.. come to think of it, shouldn't we be living everyday just to worship God and wanting to have a deeper relationship with our God! sometimes i just wish i can just sing praises and worship You everyday of my life! just pick up my guitar and start singing praises.. even thought of forming a worship team that travels all around the world to go and tell of Your great love.. that is what i want to do in the future but if that is what God wants me to do, i will go and do it..

the world is filled with so many distractions that sometimes it just removes God out of the picture.. God was the one who created this place for us to live in and what are we doing to repay Him? it is not as if God owed us anything or whatsoever right? He chose to create us and to be called People of God, to be a light and salt of the earth.. to bring light into the dark world.. i feel as if i'm just blabbering bout stuff cos i'm not feeling too good.. but still sometimes God uses this kind of times to really show His true power, His awesome power and goodness! and that God is ALL forgiving (unlike Allah who is OFT-forgiving) and yet He chooses people like us to go and spread the gospel! just some thoughts and all that struck me..

anyway still thank God for being who He is and showing me His awesome greatness! so thank You Lord! It's gonna be another week and i pray that i will grow deeper with Him much more everyday and to be a good Christian wherever i am..! thank You Lord once again!

lyrics of Your Unfailing Love: (really encouraged me alot during the worship practice yesterday and the actual worship today!)

When the darkness fills my senses
When my blindness keeps me
From Your touch
Jesus come

When my burden keeps me doubting
When my memories
Take the place of You
Jesus come

And I'll follow You there
To the place where we meet
And I'll lay down my pride
As You search me again

Your unfailing love
Your unfailing love
Your unfailing love!
Over me again

Your unfailing love
Your unfailing love
Your unfailing love!
Over me again

Cheer up okie?! :)

2005-04-08T00:12:00.000-07:00

hmm just wanna update another entry onto my new blog.. haha.. actually nothin much happened at work la.. hmm cleaned up the hamsters and the rabbits cages cos they really stink with their 'business' and all.. and gave the puppies a bath cos they stink real bad too!! but now they smell so goooodd! haha.. with apple shampoo and all.. smells great! apart from those, watched a chinese movie which was super funny and was laughin most of the time.. if i didn't remember wrongly the title is called 'Love City' or sth.. can't really remember.. hmm yea then went straight home after that..

reached home at bout 5 and mom was outside cleanin up the house cos there were some renovations outside my place, fixing some pipes or sth.. so finally it is over but they kinda made the place quite messy and dusty so my mom was like just cleanin up the stuff that were left behind.. so anyway i was in my room when my mom suddenly called for me and when i went to the living room, guess what i saw?! i saw a dog!! hahaha.. super cute puppy cos it is still rather small size.. and it is a cavalier king charles spaniel.. so super cutteee!!! hahhahaha.. kinda long body and the face is so cute cos of its two big round eyes and a 'sad' looking face.. but still very cutee!! :P wish i could keep it la but it is not my dog and i'm sure its owner would be very worried lor.. so anyway i took a string and attached to the dog's collar and went to the void deck/carpark area to look for its owner.. then i was directed by this lady who told me that she knew who the owner of the dog was.. and the lady signalled to this small girl and she said that it was her dog and she didn't know how the dog ran out.. so i still holding on to the dog accompanied her back to her place which was just 5 floors down from my place.. she was stayin on the 7th floor and i was wonderin to myself: 'how exactly did the dog come up to my place? cos my mom said that it was impossible for the dog to climb up 5 floors or else she would have seen the pup.. but the pup couldn't have taken the lift cos the lift doesn't stop at my floor unless someone pressed it la..' hmm so yea i returned the dog to its rightful owner and the maid was like quite suprised that the dog was outside instead of being in the house.. hah yea that was bout it..

left house at bout 6.50 to go meet kumchiew for dinner.. supposed to meet him at 7 for dinner at 5-star chicken rice but was stuck at queenstown cos of the traffic jam.. so was late and reached at bout 7.20 instead.. so had abit of dinner before headin to prayer meeting.. pray pray prayed for missionaries in our church.. had a mini briefing by clara on the follow up stuff.. and honestly i am quite nervous cos i have never done this kind of stuff before.. only for small kids at vbs lor.. but i am willing to take up the job and to follow up with this guy called nicholas..

went for supper at bukit timah along with kumchiew, soon kuan and his wife-to-be, jessica.. had the famous tang yuan and char kway teow.. both were super yummmyy.. hahaha.. had a good time of talkin and 'fellowship' cos we were talkin bout alot of stuff and God and all.. went straight home after that and still gotta work tmr.. so gonna rest now..

a message for mortal: *waves hi!* like my blog?! hahaha.. :P didn't really want anyone else to know YET but you are kinda the 'first'.. i mean besides paul cos he was the one who got me started on this blog.. haha.. you can tag on my board too!! *yayyy* hmm kinda out of place still but it's ok.. will learn more on the skills of blogging!! hahahahaa.. anyway rest well okie mortal?! if you need anythin, you know what to do! ;) still prayin for you mortal pei hui!! and cheer up ok? cos i don feel any better when you are not feelin well.. *smilee okie?!* :)) *gonna miss you at choir!* but please rest well!! *smile smile smileee* :D

2005-04-07T15:54:00.000-07:00

yay second entry..! hahaha.. just edited some stuff on the side bar.. added some items with it too.. so quite happy.. haha learnt abit of bloggin now.. and i just realised that bloggin got stuff to do with programmin which i learnt in my last sem.. did all the modifications at work cos there is pretty nothin much to do.. haha! so managed to do quite abit of stuff just now.. so anyway yea got nothin much to update too.. nothin much happened at work.. maybe will update more in the night.. hahaha.. signing off.. see yA!
;)

first entry on my new blog! yay!

2005-04-07T00:45:00.000-07:00

ooh yay! new blog skin!! hahaha.. thanks to paul that got me inspired to do this.. in such a short time too.. only edited the side bars and all.. don think will need the tag board and all.. i mean who is gonna read my blog if it is not 'public' rite? hahaha! so thanks again PMH! hahaha.. love your initials man..

hmm nothin happened much today la.. work was normal.. brought the digi cam to work and snapped some videos of the cute maltese's'.. cos there are 2 and they are so freaking cute!! hahaha!! i really lovee them man! but too bad i can't have them! sigh.. so hmm yea that is bout work.. went out to meet PMH for lunch and chatted abit before headin home at bout 3.30 or so.. started to pour really heavily and all those lightning and thunder made me so freakin scared la.. i even thought it was a sign not to go and meet her.. hai.. so anyway yea i stayed home till bout 6.30 before heading out to meetin her to talk..

so took a cab down to holland v (nydc).. wanted to drive there but mom didn't come back early enough so i just took a cab straight there and reached at bout 6.40pm or so.. yea kinda early but i don want to be late too la.. it will not be 'gentlemanly' if i'm late too rite? so hmm sat at the table for awhile before pickin up the phone and started talkin to PMH.. so thanks alot man for keepin me entertained and makin me not look like an idiot sitting there alone man! hahaha! really felt quite dumb waiting there.. so anyway she came not long after that.. so we ordered our dinner (roasted chicken spghaetti).. and yea chatted bout stuff and all.. yea managed to clear the air and my questions and all.. though things didn't really turn out that well as what i wanted it to be.. still glad that we managed to talk things out today and i still do believe in True Love Waits!

will be prayin really hard bout this and bout you going up to doulos too.. pray that your parents will let you go and really expereince what is like to do missions! and to do His will which is the most important! so thanks alot anyway for comin out tonight! really enjoyed the dinner and i hope you did too! see you soon then!

lovee my new template.. hahaha..! yay!